deadinsidex

Going out tonight...

Posted on 08/15/08, 09:01 am

Right well i am going out tonight in bars and clubs and stuff i havent been for ages and because im underage (haha. I knwo most people would be looking foward to something like this but not me i am dreading it and i think my hair and my dress looks awful on me!!!! its my cuzen 18th so i gunna have to grin and bare it but i duno sometimes its just so messed up how you just cant seems to enjoy the little things that everyone else can!!!! I gonna have a bottel of wine b4 i go out hopeful build me up 4 it haha,another issue is my sister is well loads prettyer than me and shes coming out and getting reday with me ahhhh i duno why cant i just love myself or not give a shit????? i think and obsess over it way 2 much!!! sorry 4 blabbin on but any comments will be great!!! x-x-x-x-x-x-x love ya all x-x-x-x-x-x-x

• Reply #1 08/15/08  9:18am
  
  Aimeebaby
  sweetie you are so incredibly beautiful, i'd give up anything to look like you. You sound just like me having, to having a bottle of something before i go out hehe! I do the same 'cause im always well nervous to spend any social time with anyone, plus it takes off the edge of worrying over my appearance so much! You really are beautiful though. Why can't i look like you hehe!!!! I hope you enjoy yourself sweetie, you might end up enjoying it alot! that happens to me alot, dreading going out and sometimes i enjoy it, while im there anyway, then i come back and am like omg i did this wrong i did that wrong i looked a mess, anyway sorry to ramble on in my comment lol ... just wanted to let you know you are very pretty :) x
• Reply #2 08/15/08  9:19am
  
  shaz191185
  i kind of has this when i lived at uni. no way did not want to go out, but ill tell you ntake it one step at a time, ont think about the whole night, if you think bad then it will happen, enjoy it, just be happy, your worrying about everthing, try no ot too, let things roll, dont think too much. you will have a great time out. just keep telling yourself that. xxx
• Reply #3 08/15/08  3:05pm
  
  Neo7
  lets just say, if I saw you in a bar, no matter how messed up your hair was, I would look, in amazement at how beautiful you are...couldn't do anything, im too scared of women right now. but you are incredible. and i'd spend days regretting not going up to you and telling you.
  xx
  -Neo
• Reply #4 08/15/08  5:26pm
  
  lloyd999
  Hey hun, know just how you feel.. tis one of those situations you just gotta 'grin and bear it' as ya say'. Hate those situations... but then i feel so selfish cos its someones elses birthday and yet again im just thinking about my bloomin self! Ya defo did the right thing in goin hun... believe me i know how hard that is, specially when ya havent been out in ages so thats very brave of you! Let me know how the evening went... would love to know.... hoping it all goes reasonably well! Good luck xx ttys
• Reply #5 08/15/08  9:43pm
  
  deadinsidex
  back from nite out aawww met this welel cute lad he was gay doe i think ahha sooo cute and nice doe bless him!!!!! i was ok i supose but i still felt really self concious!!!! but i just pretended i was confident x-x-x
• Reply #6 08/16/08  6:42am
  
  shaz191185
  fake confidence that is great. like you woulds say Kazzy "it's well good"

Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a mental disorder in which the affected person is excessively concerned about and preoccupied by an imagined or minor defect in his or her physical features. The sufferer may complain of several specific features or a single feature, or a vague feature or general appearance, causing psychological distress that impairs important functioning (e.g. occupational or self-care) or social aspects of life.