Thank you for sharing your story. You are so right Sweetie. It gives me so much peace knowing my Dad is in a better place and he isn't suffering anymore. Make your Mom proud of you. You will do great things with your life. It really helps if you can help to pass on to other people what you have gone through. That is what helped me to heal by trying to help others. I am here if you need me.
Love and Big HUGS!! LisaACOA
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i was...
Posted on 07/12/08, 10:58 pm
an ala teen till i was 13. then my mom passed away.
she has hitten my sister before. she has busted her self up a few times. she has gotten into verbal and physical fights with my dad while being drunk. and who was there to help her out EVERYTIME and take her side. me... i was the enabler. i was hit and bruised, mentally and physically yet there is nothing i would have done differently. because i loved the person my mom was when she wasnt drunk.
i have some permanent pictures in my head. and unfortunatly they arent of her face or our good times.
there are 2 of them.
one is the greenish turqouise cup she drank from on the daily. and how much i hated that one cup because i was a kid and that cup always held alcohol and that cup held the liquid that made my mom a monster.
the second is the one time i was walking down my steps and my mom and dad were argueing and my
dad said "mimi do you know who you hit last night?!"
mom "yes alex"
and i sat on those steps and looked at my mom and cried. cause she hadnt hit me. did she want to hit me?? is that why she said that?? or did she just say that cause i was right there.
those 2 things will stick with me the REST of my life. i just hope when i get older i can love my kids unconditionally and know when i am harming them or myself and stop myself before i ruin their lives.
there is no doubt i have learned a lot from my life living with an alcoholic and there is a lot i didnt learn from loosing a mom before i became a teen. and that sucks. i had to grow up fast and take care of my four siblings and take the responsibility from my dad so he could have a life. well now its been almost 5 years and i still miss her on the daily. but i have recently realized i couldnt have made it this far and been this close with my family if she were still around. and that sucks to come to realize but its the truth. and i wish she were herephysically but i realized she is better off in heaven much more so than here with us.
she has hitten my sister before. she has busted her self up a few times. she has gotten into verbal and physical fights with my dad while being drunk. and who was there to help her out EVERYTIME and take her side. me... i was the enabler. i was hit and bruised, mentally and physically yet there is nothing i would have done differently. because i loved the person my mom was when she wasnt drunk.
i have some permanent pictures in my head. and unfortunatly they arent of her face or our good times.
there are 2 of them.
one is the greenish turqouise cup she drank from on the daily. and how much i hated that one cup because i was a kid and that cup always held alcohol and that cup held the liquid that made my mom a monster.
the second is the one time i was walking down my steps and my mom and dad were argueing and my
dad said "mimi do you know who you hit last night?!"
mom "yes alex"
and i sat on those steps and looked at my mom and cried. cause she hadnt hit me. did she want to hit me?? is that why she said that?? or did she just say that cause i was right there.
those 2 things will stick with me the REST of my life. i just hope when i get older i can love my kids unconditionally and know when i am harming them or myself and stop myself before i ruin their lives.
there is no doubt i have learned a lot from my life living with an alcoholic and there is a lot i didnt learn from loosing a mom before i became a teen. and that sucks. i had to grow up fast and take care of my four siblings and take the responsibility from my dad so he could have a life. well now its been almost 5 years and i still miss her on the daily. but i have recently realized i couldnt have made it this far and been this close with my family if she were still around. and that sucks to come to realize but its the truth. and i wish she were herephysically but i realized she is better off in heaven much more so than here with us.
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Reply #1 10/02/08 12:24am
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