Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal Sat, 22 Nov 2008 00:46:42 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/96094/1215992452.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/96094 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/1186323 i havent written here in a long time.. not that anyone actually bothers reading my thingy lol.. but il still write here anyways.. FINALLY STARTED LEAVING MY HOUSE!! GO ME!!.. im going to rehab in a month.. i actually cant wait.. new chance and all that stuff.. for the time being iv ma... Sun, 13 Jul 2008 20:04:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/920444 two easter eggs.. a cookie.. 2packets of chocolate covered raisins.. a pizza.. 2 more chocolate bars.. 2 breakfasts.. a roast dinner.. a good few cups of coffee with lots of suger.. lost cound of how much weed iv smoked.. currently polishing off another pack of belgian chocolate raisins..and a ... Sun, 23 Mar 2008 11:49:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/877973 earlier today i found out my cat.. had to be put down.. :(.. i cant stop crying its equally as painful as losing a family member.. kinda more.. no matter what.. she was always there to snuggle.. there have been so many times she has been the only living thing that had been there for me.. well the ve... Thu, 06 Mar 2008 11:43:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/824108 well today i feel  just a little more sane.. i went to the doctor yesterday in the hopes of getting some sleeping pills .. she was however a stupid ass dumb whore who sat there just asking questions.. turns out my granny had loads of stilnocht anyways which i got off her so that was a wasted tr... Fri, 15 Feb 2008 05:21:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/821589 IM GONNA RIP SOMEONES FUCKING THROAT OUT..valentines day.. ugh.. to put it simply.. its a fake ass holiday.. designed to make profit and make ME feel even crappier.. anyways.. how are things?.. terrible... no one to talk to.. nothing to do.. no drugs.. nothing to take away the pain.. ... Thu, 14 Feb 2008 09:47:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/791948 IF I HAD 50 QUID ID BUY A GUN AND SHOOT MYSELF..my entire weekend consisted of :working,sleeping,eating,crying. NICE i know. its times like these i would be greatful to be completely void of intelligence..well.. school tomorrow..oh  joy.. i think what makes my sadness worse is how bitter i am o... Sun, 03 Feb 2008 13:34:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/774966 its 2 30pm.. and i have eaten more so far today than i would usually consume in an entire WEEK!.. of course my morning started out with the usual thoughts of focusing on being thin and resisting all calories.. and.. as usual it ended with me slumped .. watching tv.. feeling worthless useless and dis... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 09:39:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/751586 so im just home from work.. it was a really fun day.!!. i ate a bit too much.. but managed not to purge!!..and dont even feel in the slightest guilty!! yay!!! im on my way to completely kicking EDs ass once and for all:)... im in a weird mood today.. i feel.. almost.. k... Sat, 19 Jan 2008 18:35:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/745372 woohoo!!! my first day back in school.. it went great.. it was soo scary when i first went in.. i was very tempted to just run out of there screaming!!.. anyways im glad i didnt.. it was really good to see everyone again. i forgot how much i missed them.. i thought the teachers and stuff  would... Thu, 17 Jan 2008 11:32:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/736052 im feeling pretty low right now.. i should be in school.. as usual im not.. well.. im going to head in at 2 for 3 classes.. better late than never i suppose.. i havent been stoned in 3days.. im so bored.. i wish someone would text me!!.. iv lost most of my friends as a result of hiding away at home ... Mon, 14 Jan 2008 07:17:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/734243 i HATE binges.. iv just eaten: a burger,fries,a pancake some coffee and croissant.. eeeewww..no wonder my bellys growing:(  my throat hurts from purging and im exhausted.. well.. school starts tomorrow.. i spoke to my year head this week..and he has said that its"in or out t... Sun, 13 Jan 2008 14:35:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/726371 life is so pointless..i do the same shit day in day out..and theres this big empty void inside me:(.. i want to give up on life.. but im not so keen on death either.. so .. yeah.. im just stuck right now.. sitting at home.. day after day.. getting stoned.. and watching jerry springer.. that pretty m... Thu, 10 Jan 2008 15:48:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/725580 i cant remember the last time i actually went to school.. im failing miserably and feel like its gone so far and been so long that i cant go back.. iv moved school 3times in one year..and after this.. will probably have to again.. and repeat a year:'( Thu, 10 Jan 2008 10:27:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/591672 i hate fatness.. i really do.. i was on my way home from school..and i saw this STICK of a girl and i nearly cried.. i just wanna be thin.. iv been eating too much recently..in the gaining part of my cycle and now.. well.. im so angry at myself for even THINKING im thin enough to eat.. im obese:/.. ... Mon, 12 Nov 2007 12:08:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/502961 had the worst day of my life..ever ever..ever..too complicated to go into detail..but basically i just want to die..the world is so cold and evil..people are so cruel :'(..even the people i thought i could trust..i now know i mean nothing..and i mean complete ZERO to everyone..i just want to dis... Fri, 05 Oct 2007 14:21:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/478512 ate loads..went to school..pissed of by ex bf(s)..im starting to think theres no point in writing this thingy..its the same shit everyday..:\ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 16:16:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/475190 went into school..i was pretty anxious..and some people were kinda bitchy which got to me a lil..but..meh..its better than it has been i guess.. oh and iv eaten a small bowl of cereal and a small bit of fruit too..which is pretty good.. guess thingsare..bareable..well im gonna go have some dinner ma... Mon, 24 Sep 2007 12:03:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/458402 well..i just had dinner..i ate so much today..im DETERMINED to keep it down..i feel so shit about myself..i feel like running straight to the bathroom     ..but im not gonna be one of those girls..im tired of feeling crap about myself..im trying so hard to get into this... Mon, 17 Sep 2007 14:26:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/441078 just smashed up the entire house..thought itd make me feel better..i just feel worse... Mon, 10 Sep 2007 12:14:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/96094/journal/426688 hmm..went.to.the.doctor..got.put.on.xanex...w00t!...so.i.guess.thats.making.things.easier..but.i.only.have.10days.til.those.babys.run.out.. Tue, 04 Sep 2007 15:09:01 +0100