Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal Wed, 20 Aug 2008 23:44:20 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/93830/1216252202.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/93830 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1230041 Still Learning How to Bend- Gary Allen  I'm still learning how to pray Trying hard not to stray Try to see things your way I'm still learning how to pray I'm still learning how to trust It's so hard to open up And I'd do anything for us I'm still learning how to trust C... Tue, 05 Aug 2008 23:13:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1208432 Right so where to begin? Gues I could start with.... EMILY IS IN LOVE WITH ME AGAIN!  Yep she is! And it's amazing! I did it! I said that I would get her back there get us back there and I did! i feel great about it! Everything is falling into place. Hillary is out of the picture for g... Thu, 24 Jul 2008 17:44:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1203841 You don't act like my woman- James Otto  We’ve been fussin’ and fightin’ about what I don’t understand There’s a distance between us and tonight you’re forcin’ my hand And I can’t explain how we’ve found ourselves here where we are On... Tue, 22 Jul 2008 12:13:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1197390 So today has been great, not good, not the best just great which is alot considering the past few days. Today I woke up early and not depressed. I think that's my sign that I need to stop sleeping in so long it makes me depressed or something. anyway I got up the day went well and the best part ... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 22:12:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1197368 You can see what needs to be fixed in your life right now, and you are starting to come to the conclusion that things need to be radically changed if you are going to get to where you want to be -- but don't get scared, get empowered! You know you need to do it, and you know how to do it -- so d... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 21:55:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1192991 I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to break. Here I am taking care of Emily and I'd like to think that I've been doing that and haven't done anything to have emily not be able to take care of me. But I guess I have. so here I am falling and i'm not stopping. i don't... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 19:38:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1188794 Man I hate you found me here, whiskey on my breathI know I should be ashamed, so much for those twelve stepsHe said "No my son, I know you're doing your bestWith all you've been through, I understandI only came to offer you a friendYou know she still asks about youWondering how you'... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 22:24:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1188700 If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine If it had a home would it be my eyes Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this Well here we go now one more time I tried to climb your steps I tried to chase you down I tried to see how low I could get it down to the ground I... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 21:38:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1188689 four weeks. 4 WEEKS! Yep four weeks until I move. That's 4 weeks until I start my life all over again. And I'm hoping that will be with Emily but right now things are rocky and I really don't want to focus on it. I kinda gotta focus now on having a life with Emily while at the same time ... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 21:29:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1179622 I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMILY-ANN I LOVE EMIL... Thu, 10 Jul 2008 12:48:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1179618 ok so KD is on her last chance and after this one its gone. I need to do this. I gotta psh past the million steps back that I get when I take just one forward. I gotta do this. I'm gonna make this work. Think before I act or speak. Gotta Love Ty. I'm going to do this. I'm gonna not think... Thu, 10 Jul 2008 12:46:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1178577 well i don't know really what to type....not much has really gone on in my life...ok understatement I know Emily...shhh. Anyway, i leave for Colorado in 5 and 1/2 weeks. I'm having surgery, not major, on my jaw in a few weeks. I just graduated high school. I still don't have my college l... Wed, 09 Jul 2008 23:42:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1158821 Mon, 30 Jun 2008 22:36:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1116884 No I would not sleep in this bed of liesSo toss me out and turn inAnd there'll be no rest for these tired eyesI'm marking it down to learningI amDon't think that I can take another empty momentDon't think that I can fake another hollow smileIt's not enough just to be lonelyDon... Thu, 12 Jun 2008 08:23:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1108306 Sun, 08 Jun 2008 17:12:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1082000 Tuesday May 27, 2008   The past few days have been more than rough. No they’ve been absolute hell up until today. I don’t need to go into detail because if I do it will bring up all that I want to lay to rest and get past. All that matters is that Emily and I have over come the ... Tue, 27 May 2008 20:25:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1054659 More than half way through the book The Secret. Taking things slowly and noticing it working in small ways. I'll move to bigger things like money and my relationship when I find that dollar bill...lol. LOOOONG STORY. Make it short....changing my thinking and feeling and on my way to the healing ... Thu, 15 May 2008 16:40:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1051589  Whatever it takes, Lifehouse A strangled smile fell from your face It kills me that I hurt you this way The worst part is that I didn't even know Now there's a million reasons for you to go But if you can find a reason to stay I'll do whatever it takes To turn this around I kn... Wed, 14 May 2008 14:02:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1017102 This is for Emily-Ann: My future wife. You save me baby. I love you.  Everyday- Rascal Flatts You could've bowed out gracefullyBut you didn'tYou knew enough to knowTo leave well enough aloneBut you wouldn'tI drive myself crazyTryin' to stay out of my own wayThe messes that ... Tue, 29 Apr 2008 20:31:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/93830/journal/1006797 Right so I just lost my best friend. The guy who was suppose to be the best man at my wedding this summer. Yeah he's gone. All for a girl. And you know as I was telling him this and trying to get him to see how hurt I am and how fucking defeated I am he just stood there with this look on his fac... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 14:06:14 +0100