Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal Tue, 02 Dec 2008 05:43:44 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/92931/1213256101.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/92931 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/904337 well its been quite awhile since i have written if time heals im still waiting...i think healing is the wrong word it gets a little more bearable but how can you go on with life like nothing has happened?my life has changed dramatically and not for the better!im trying to move on but keep getting st... Mon, 17 Mar 2008 00:07:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/754737 Mon, 21 Jan 2008 01:21:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/728665 DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO DEPRESSIN I FALL,WONDERING  IF LIFE IS WORTH LIVING AT ALL!MY HEART IS BROKEN,MY SPIRIT IS CRUSHED HOW COME LOVING SOMEONE CAN HURT SO MUCH?Y NEVER AGAIN TO HUG OR TOO TOUCH.THEY SAY TIME HEALS ALL HURTS BUT INSTED OF GETTING BETTER THE HURT IS ONLY WORSE.THE LONGING I FE... Fri, 11 Jan 2008 11:36:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/598468    The closer the holidays get the further into depression i fall.....i am just so sad i dont know what to do..i miss my mom&dad more with each passing day.i pray for signs that they are around me but nothing..is this the end??will i never see them feel them here there voices unti... Thu, 15 Nov 2007 01:57:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/569850 TO ALL MY FRIENDS AT D.S MY ICON HAS CHANGED TO A PURPLE RIBBON IN MEMORY OF MY MOM IN HOPES THEY FIND A CURE SO NO ONE ELSES LOVED ONE HAS TO SUFFER AS SHE HAS AND MANY OF MY FRIENDS RELATIVES HAVE..TEARS ARE ROLLING AS I WRITE THIS I DONT WANT ANY ONE ELSE TO SUFFER THIS PAIN/DEVASTATION MOM,I LOV... Fri, 02 Nov 2007 21:36:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/562756 just trying to deal with the hand life dealt me......not an easy feat.i just feel so numb no emotion like someone turned my batteries off.imjust going thru life as an observer not a participant.dont know what to do to get myself back i used to be so happy go lucky now im i dont k now what i am..or w... Tue, 30 Oct 2007 21:47:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/558197 well here i sit late at night alone.....alone  with my thoughts and memories cant seem to get passed the suffering my mom went thru and the way she looked on her last day and my dad the way i found him so cold so so cold!!i think that is part of the reason for my insomnia to many thoughts come ... Mon, 29 Oct 2007 02:56:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/551619 TO ALL MY FRIENDS AT DAILY STRENGTH NOVEMBER IS NATIONAL PANCREATIC CANCER AWARENESS MONTH SO PLEASE WEAR PURPLE RIBBONS IN REMEMBERANCE OF MY MOM YOUR MOM,DAD AUNT UNCLE ,FRIEND ETC......... Fri, 26 Oct 2007 03:22:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/547873 lost and alone now that my parents went home .why could you have taken me with you ??living without you is something i cant do!!you were my anchors that kept me ground and now i floating in the sea called life and you are nowhere around.i cry and call to you but you make not a sound are you really h... Wed, 24 Oct 2007 17:13:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/545826 when will my broken heart heal?im so tired of hurting and missing my parents i ddream every nite that theyre still alive then i wake up ...slap reality smaking me in the face.....there not here nor will they ever be again!i would give everything i own just to see them once again!!****mom7dad i love ... Tue, 23 Oct 2007 21:14:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/530073 the pain and sorrow i fell right now is just to much to bear..it is such an effort just to get out of bed in the morning..sometimes it seems not worth the effort..no joy in life just existing day to day...you know today i was thinking how my dad said this has been the worst year ever little did he k... Wed, 17 Oct 2007 02:22:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/516462 well 2 months without my mom 1 month without my dad ...this is surreal i still cant believe i will never see them here onthis earth again no more hugs no more kisses no more bitch sessions with my mom about men..no more i love yous no ,more sunday football no more whip cream fights during half ... Thu, 11 Oct 2007 02:45:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/513925 TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS:  you all mean so much to me i was really at my worst when i found this site and i dont think i could of made it if it wasent for you..there still are bad days they come and go ,but when im feeling down i know just where to go!!you brighten my day and make me smile thr... Wed, 10 Oct 2007 03:10:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/512515 LIFE SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS AND THEN JUST WHEN YOU THINK ITS DONE SUCKING IT SUCK SOME MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tue, 09 Oct 2007 15:21:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/506524 man this sucks cant sleep again broke down and took benadryl still noting its like 3 am,,sometimes i think im afraid to sleep cuz thats when the thoughts come and i can see my dad as i found him so lifeless so cold..why does life have to be so hard/sad  sometimes i wonder if its all worth it..w... Sun, 07 Oct 2007 05:48:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/504396 i dont know how much more pain i can take it seems to get harder insted of easier every day..i try to hold it together/be strong be there for my daughter but i cant get passed my own pain selfish huh?  i feel so useless cant go back to work i dont feel emotionally ready and my boss is gonna kil... Sat, 06 Oct 2007 03:10:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/499529 here i sit all alone wondering why god had to call you home..didnt he know i need you more than he ...doesnt he see what its done to me..does he even care how i feel  leaving me with this pain and heartbreak i feel.. the pain is too much to bear ..can you feel my pain god  do you even care... Thu, 04 Oct 2007 04:04:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/499497 well here it is another day and things are not any better just worse what happened to time eases all pain????time has done nothing to ease my pain only make me hurt worse......i feellike im walking thru a black tunnel and cant see the light any where..how do you move on????how do you find meaning in... Thu, 04 Oct 2007 03:18:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/496830 how i wish i could turn back time get  another hug another kiss another i love you..... but wishing gets you know where this is my reality now and it sucks...im so sad nothing seems important anymore...i dont know if it ever will,,,i hate being like this  i want to be my old self but i don... Wed, 03 Oct 2007 00:17:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/92931/journal/491654 you know so many people just dont get it.. its like ok theyre gone move on.. even my husband doesnt get it he will find me cryin and be like whats wrong what happened?? my parents died thats what happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my world/life is turned up side down and im just suppose to get over it??? people ... Mon, 01 Oct 2007 01:00:53 +0100