Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal Thu, 21 Aug 2008 07:46:20 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/91676/1213316535.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/91676 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/1064930 woke up slightly anxious again.  Not too bad.  J is going out of town for the night.  I woulnd't normally see him today, but just the thought that he's not there leaves me a little sad. Tue, 20 May 2008 06:20:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/1056055 It's been a while since I've been here.   Still hate my job, still hate the way I do it.  I had lines on 2 jobs, 1 fell through b4 the interview, I got an interview with the other, but didn't get the job.  My best friend in the department - and my buffer - has found a... Fri, 16 May 2008 06:37:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/563333 Better than yesterday.  Tackled one of the big projects.  As I'm working on it, got additonal info from an outside source.  I would've had to redo parts if I'd done it any sooner.  Lucky?Boss was a HUGE paid in the but yesterday.  People from other branches calle... Wed, 31 Oct 2007 06:19:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/560914 woke up anxious.  Bills really getting to me.  Work a little bit.  Spent a couple of days last week getting all the little things that have piled up out of the way, then, I was left with 3 major things to do this week.  Started 1 yesteray - got about 40% through and found a probl... Tue, 30 Oct 2007 06:57:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/543997 A little better this morning but I woke up sometie after 2:00 feeling anxious.  Cat and dog on each side of me.  Cat came and sat on my chest and just purred.  He's never done that before.  It helped.This morning, my chest is warm and I feel anxious, but not nearly like yeste... Tue, 23 Oct 2007 06:47:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/542987 I hate conflict!  And some people can be such asses - it's all about them.  No one cares that maybe you're going through something similar.  It's all about them, and they're problems, and this and that.   But why do I hate it so much and why do I react so str... Mon, 22 Oct 2007 18:43:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/527387 Can't sleep.  Everything seems so overwhelming.  Want to call mom, but they're leaving for a week with the other grandkids in the morning, so I don't want to worry her.  Logically, I can see that with the mtg payment now 1/2 my monthly pay, there's no way I can make it... Mon, 15 Oct 2007 23:42:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/526795 I'm anxious and avoiding things at home.  addressed things at work that were getting out of hand because of vacations.  Can't seem to get home, work, and personal life all going good at once.  Problem is, whichever one is 'off' - it's real off. Mon, 15 Oct 2007 19:26:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/516641 Better.  Still anxious, but controllable.  I realized the other day, that on the income side, I'm making less than I was 5 years ago - but in that same time, my mtg payment has doubled becuase of insurance and taxes.  Makes me what to just put my hands up and say "I'm don... Thu, 11 Oct 2007 06:27:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/511461 woke up with warmth in the chest.  anxious about bills.  didn't want to get up and face the day.  didn't want to stay in bed where there's nothing else to think about.  Still feel warm, arms pulled in, tense, want to cry.  Forgot to take pills yesterda - and poss... Tue, 09 Oct 2007 06:30:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/510034 SoooooAngry.  At my son.  He didn't come home after school.  Not too unusual, except that he didn't call to let me know where he was.  Should have been home almost 2 hours ago, and he finally called.  That's after I got in the car and drove around the neighborhoo... Mon, 08 Oct 2007 17:02:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/501375 Headache and ear ache.  Storm front coming in tonight.  Really feel kinda not here.J sent flowers yesterday.  When a co-worker saw them, she asked if it was a special day.  I told, "now it is." Thu, 04 Oct 2007 21:08:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/490756 Another date with J last night.  It scares me that I can't find a thing wrong with him.  From the minute I see him, everything is natural and easy.  Yet I find myself trying to pull back.  I hope he's patient because I think he might be worth the effort. Sun, 30 Sep 2007 17:25:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/487020 9:30pm.  Feeling better.  World didn't fall apart at work.  Got moving forward again on one project.  Hoping to have a date tomorrow. Fri, 28 Sep 2007 21:32:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/485239 Woke up a little after 1:00am feeling anxious and thinking about work.  Can't remember exactly what right now.  I haven't woken up in the night in ages, so it really bothers me.  And though I'm behind on some things, I'm not so far behind that it's a problem. ... Fri, 28 Sep 2007 06:24:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/484584 Realized this morning I was almost manic.  Just talking fast, going from task to task to person to person at work.  Not out of control, but definately too much.  Calmed down and focused, but couldn't really concentrate on anything big.  Slightly anxious tonight.  Not as ... Thu, 27 Sep 2007 22:03:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/481544 Feeling slightly anxious and don't know why.  Out of sorts at work for most of the day - just couldn't really focus.  Luckily, it was a slow day.  Came home, ate and just took the dog for a walk.  yet, my hear it racing, by shoulders are pulled in and i'm tense.  Wed, 26 Sep 2007 19:01:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/479136 Hectic afternoon at work, but ok.  Lunch with S.  Tue, 25 Sep 2007 20:40:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/471801 Another date with J.  Really, a nice guy.  Fun, pleasant, thoughtful.  Scares me since there's nothing I can use for not going out with him.  Silly.  I might actually end up having some sort of relationship with another man. Sat, 22 Sep 2007 22:18:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91676/journal/467171 My only real problem the last few days has been a persistent headache.  It's either sinus or weather related.  I always seem to feel presure when there's somekind of storm front coming in.  Right now, there's something sitting on top of us, trying to become tropical. ... Thu, 20 Sep 2007 21:24:55 +0100