Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal Sat, 22 Nov 2008 00:40:29 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/91627/1213260554.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/91627 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/1205977 so more or less i got in trouble for posting the link to my fundraiser for adnad..even though i see people raising money all the time. its troubing to seea  support site when my topic is eating disorders restrict me from helping others. i must say it is one of those things that contradicting. t... Wed, 23 Jul 2008 12:32:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/1145810 ok so here is the latest update in my up and down life so far. i do finnaly believe that things are about to start calming down. and stabalizing out. its nice. im at a steady 119 for a few months now and besided having to keep buying clothes againt that fit things are well. work is well. my relation... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 01:05:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/1114000 so once again i dissappeared from here and i apologize..but for an update..im at 120 and have been between 118 and 120 for about two months now almost three. i have had maybe five binge and purge episodes in that time..for i no  longer like it nor get the urge. the mental part has still ahold o... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 00:07:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/1070842 so once again i know i have not been up to date lately i just finished moving in with my boyfriend. its going amazing :) and the binging and purging has not happened in a very long time. its nice. i still get urges but i have learned to control them alot better. and since there are four of us living... Thu, 22 May 2008 14:13:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/1052308 i know i havnt been on in awhile..once again im moving..yes again. which means more unstabliity..but i have only had about two binge and purge episodes in the past week and a half. which is goood for me. and ive mangaged to make the food intake of them way less and control the cravings to do them le... Wed, 14 May 2008 19:56:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/999665 i did have a bad night last night but not today so far and it wont happen today :) im working hard to break free from these urges. im better then this and my body has always been good to me and i want to start being better to it. regardless im giving myslef some progress points today for mentally an... Tue, 22 Apr 2008 21:30:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/986920 so last night i had the perfect change and urge to just eat everything and get rid of it..i started to and rumging through things and managed to get myself out of the kitchen and in my room and started wrighting! yes/1 i have had the oppurtunity to today and so far have not. so just for that im givi... Thu, 17 Apr 2008 17:20:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/979825 okay well i had a little episode..very small compared to what i usually do and i got control of it fast..but regardless count is back to zero days..well actually today i didnt so thats good..so i guess back to one day..but im not going to look at it as bad. i will stay positive Tue, 15 Apr 2008 00:44:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/975643 today will be the third day i have not binged nor purged!! i have ytaken it one step at a time..and if i get the urge then i stop and think the results and how it makes me feel. i am sooo appreciative of all your support and i will defenetly let you know updates whnei can get on! i hope you are all ... Sun, 13 Apr 2008 13:40:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/969614 starting today april 10th, 2008. i am making a written commitment to myself to not binge and purge anymore. and yes you may say you cant just stop  but i know i can do it! how i will do this is just to take it day by day and focus on one meal at a time untill i do not get the urges anymore. and... Fri, 11 Apr 2008 00:11:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/950810 i dont even know where to start right now. im just so frustrated right now with this stupid eating disorder..im reaching the end of my patience with this. i have tried and tried and tried many different ways and support to make it go away. i can not deal with this stress anymore. yes somedays are go... Thu, 03 Apr 2008 22:24:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/927261 so right now i need some help and immediatly. everything in my life is wonderful except for this eating thing. i dont know underlying whats causing me to start this vicious cycle. now except for not eating im binging and purging again. i cant stop. i try but i do it anyway. i do not and i mean do NO... Tue, 25 Mar 2008 23:22:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/871250 well so far today i have not binged nor thrown up! im feeling very good today! Mon, 03 Mar 2008 22:45:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/867454 well i didnt meet my goal. i did throw up...but it was not as much or bad. and i managed to stop myself from going further Sun, 02 Mar 2008 15:20:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/858247 okay so so far this is for my goal update. the last itme i threw up what i ate was yesterday. feb 26th. my first goal is to make it to sunday witout any issues Wed, 27 Feb 2008 21:11:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/858083 okay so i know i have not been on this website in like litterally months. so let me tell you a little of what has happened. so i got the job at tmobile..still working there and got a raise :) way exciting. i have my drivers license test next week..wish me luck! pray for me! and the bf of two years a... Wed, 27 Feb 2008 20:02:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/460562 so i know i have not been on in awhile and for that i am truley sorry. you guys have no idiea how much you all have helped me. since i have joined this site i have gained back 15 pound. from 85 to 100 somedays 102. its amazing to feel like im getting better and i am. i have not thrown anything up si... Tue, 18 Sep 2007 10:26:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/415790 So a ton has happened in my life the last week. I started my new job at T mobile which is amazinga nd the people are so nice and supportive. I have not binged and purged in about a week and half or whenever that journal entry about it was. and i feel amazing. i have been eating very healthy and exce... Fri, 31 Aug 2007 00:38:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/407058 so i have now gone 4 days with no binging and purging. i have had urges today a little but i am pushing thorugh it! i started my new job at t mobile today. its going to be great! my boyfriends bday is on sunday and i get to spend the weekend with him. it will be fun :) i miss him. only seeing him on... Mon, 27 Aug 2007 23:44:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/91627/journal/401888 so i have gone two full days without binging and purging. its amazing. i feel great about it and it makes me never want to again. my urges are going away and when i get them i have been controlling them. the longer i go without doing it the better i feel! and im starting to eat more normally. i thin... Sun, 26 Aug 2007 02:56:12 +0100