Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal Mon, 08 Sep 2008 09:48:12 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/88898/1213286722.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/88898 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/1238735 It's been quite awhile since I have visited this site. I have been trying to get healthier by getting out of the house, doing some fun things for a change. I think I am going to take a painting class next month. Hope you are all doing well. Sun, 10 Aug 2008 21:52:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/1045224 Thanks to those of you who read my journal and gave me support. I was going through an extremely difficult time, when I attempted to end my life. I am doing better now. I am still grieving, but not as depressed as I was. Thank God. The one thing I am not doing to take care of myself is doing somethi... Sun, 11 May 2008 22:19:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/973793 Hi,I have been offline for some time. I have had some difficulty with my internet connection. But I'm back now. I am doing a little better. I'm taking care of myself. I was very suicidal a couple of weeks ago. I had everything planned and was making out a living trust. By the time I got to t... Sat, 12 Apr 2008 17:29:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/904294 Thanks for all your support everyone. Bib passed away Jan. 31st. She was my life. I miss her so much. I know it's going to be a long process-this thing called grief. We were together over 16 years.Now her brother wants to get back the money he supposedly "gave" us for her care when she... Sun, 16 Mar 2008 23:42:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/836712 I still feel a great sense of loss but I'm starting to rejoin the world of the living. I am going to apply for a new job. I am looking forward to getting all the required paperwork in and possibly getting an interview. It would be wonderful if I could get this job. The County job has really been... Wed, 20 Feb 2008 00:15:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/820588 Thanks to all of you for the thoughts and prayers.The evenings bring on the anxiety and grief more than during the day. Last night, I thought I just couldn't go on without her. It's so painful to have lost her. I called a friend who came over for a little while. That kind of changed my think... Wed, 13 Feb 2008 22:32:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/814874 I have been offline for some time. My partner became seriously ill and then passed away on Jan. 31st. I miss her so, so much. We did everything together. I am just walking through the days and nights, so to speak. This house is so empty without her. There is just a huge hole in my heart. I have... Mon, 11 Feb 2008 22:41:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/693111 I've been offline for awhile, dealing with my partner's illness and her chemo treatments, which have been making her somewhat sick. She hasn't been eating and has been loosing a lot of weight. She had to have a blood transfusion last week. She was so anemic, she didn't even know who ... Fri, 28 Dec 2007 21:37:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/641650 We saw the Oncologist today. There was bad news. He said that it's a matter of months and for my partner to get her affairs in order. This is so scary. We have been together for over 16 years. She's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't know what I'll do when I loose h... Tue, 04 Dec 2007 23:36:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/617950 My partner's cancer is in-operable. She is going to have to do chemotherapy. I know it's going to be rough for her. At first, I didn't think I could bare the weight of this news. But I am just taking things one moment at a time and doing a lot of crying. Sometimes, we cry together. But s... Fri, 23 Nov 2007 23:58:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/611838 Today my partner was diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer. It's pretty devistating. How does one get through this? It's true, she could live for a couple of years, but maybe not. I don't know how I could live without her. We have been together over 16 years. She is the love of my life. Tue, 20 Nov 2007 22:53:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/600712 I had a much better day today. Still don't like the job since everything changed. I checked into a transfer. I won't know anything for a few weeks. Have to wait to see if something opens up.Thanks to all of my supporters. Hope everyone is having a good day! Thu, 15 Nov 2007 23:44:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/598149 I had a very stressful day at work today. In the morning meeting things discussed were very negative. Afterwards, I went back to my office where I felt very disorganized, overwhelmed and confused about my work. I took quite a bit of meds before I felt like I could work.I made a list of all this and ... Wed, 14 Nov 2007 22:47:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/590728 Hi everyone,I had a good day today. I'm planning on having a housefull for Thanksgiving. Since several of us are diabetic, I picked up a couple of Splenda cookbooks today, in preparation for Thanksgiving. I am looking forward to having family here.The holidays remind me of my grandmother who pas... Sun, 11 Nov 2007 23:36:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/567723 I was away until late Saturday. Had an okay trip. One of our friends was critical of us. The other one is always wonderful. I just don't think it's worth going again, putting up with her.I went back to work this week. This were going well until today. I went to a meeting where there was a lo... Thu, 01 Nov 2007 23:18:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/534856 I go on vacation on Saturday for a week. Then, it's back to work. I think I am ready this time. I have changed my attitude about my job. I will still be helping people and that's really what I want to do. I've been offline because I've been painting my kitchen. Actually, my daughter ... Thu, 18 Oct 2007 23:22:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/523040 Can't sleep tonight. I am worried about my daughter and her family. She has essentially been without a job for about a month. Her employer's business seems to be going under. They can't pay her what they owe her. My son-in-law has not been working for some time, since his military career... Sun, 14 Oct 2007 04:01:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/510371 Thanks for the good thoughts. Been really anxious today. Been manic off and on. Then I have trouble sleeping. But I've been managing. I'm doing chores, things that don't require much thought and watching comedies. This helps get me through. Hope this finds you doing well today. JP Mon, 08 Oct 2007 19:13:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/88898/journal/501729 Hope this finds everyone having a good day. My day is better since I saw my therapist today. She helped me with a relaxation exercise. It was very calming. Before that, I had a lot of anxiety. My paranoia has been raising its ugly head for the past week and I have felt very fearful. At night, I list... Thu, 04 Oct 2007 23:36:55 +0100