Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal Tue, 02 Dec 2008 05:42:42 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/87372/1213251968.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/87372 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1397825 Dear God, I know not why I have seen so much pain in my life, I know not your plan for me, I thank you for my many blessings like my children, my students, my comforts, technology, and my personal talents. Please help me. Take away my physical triggers. Take away the part of me that takes me back to... Sun, 23 Nov 2008 20:45:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1397055 I have never known physical safety. I realize I am not scared of anything because of this. I seem to expect that the worst will happen and all will keep revolving. I don't understand others' feers, especially my kids. I can rationalize anything. This all makes my physical reactions to body m... Sun, 23 Nov 2008 07:48:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1396372 It took a couple days, but I'm better now. I miss my friends. Sat, 22 Nov 2008 16:29:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1387548 made it through the night, somehow. No pain today, not sure why I had it last night. Sun, 16 Nov 2008 09:39:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1387137 hurting hurting hurting, physical pain. want to go to the hospital, want to stick a knife in and let it bleed so it will feel better. feel so bad. hurting hurting hurting.  Can't sleep, can't get comfortable, can't move, hurting, hurting. Sat, 15 Nov 2008 22:46:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1379399 wanted to tell you about this overwhelming day and my crying night and what I said to him and the house update and on and on and on, but my co-workers are calling, they want to go out. who am I to argue.  I NEVER go out.  Talk more later. Mon, 10 Nov 2008 18:01:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1378299 all I ever do here is cry and whine. I wish I had sometimes positive to say. I don't. I feel like crap...crap on someone's shoe. I feel unwanted even by myself. I should leave till I can be positive toward others and have something other than wallowing to say. Sun, 09 Nov 2008 23:01:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/87372/journal/1376943 tired, I don't want to forge ahead, I want to lay and rest, never to wake again. Exhausted, I want to give in. I lay my head and resign myself to bleakness forever. Sat, 08 Nov 2008 21:43:28 +0100