Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal Sun, 23 Nov 2008 04:32:54 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/84183/1213246941.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/84183 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1272958 well ive been doing good off my meds its been over 2.5 montyhs since i started reduceing, and a month off... felt wonderful to start with off of them. but ive recently found out i have a mild thyroid issue, also have insulin resistance thats really hard to controll right now due to a systemic yeast ... Sat, 30 Aug 2008 23:54:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1168371  pretty sure i wrote this. been a while so who knows... ---Good Soldiers (2004)---- hold the gun proud and march to the sound remember the poppies and even good soldiers fall (to the ground) hold empty the idioligy of temperance and find true monetary gain god is not of wisdom if each time... Sat, 05 Jul 2008 07:11:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1166334 well my welbutrin was making me manic and anxiety ridden. good ol intrusive thoughts and obsessive thinking. but going down on it made me even worse. I am so glad that the nutritional supplements are working decently so far i can function day to day. not many extreamly ramped up days. Post withdrawa... Fri, 04 Jul 2008 01:43:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1158939 was contemplating just renting a hall when Dave and I came to Edmonton to visit and just surprise him by haveing my wedding dress finished and just getting hitched on the spot... but it seems like EVERYone is getting married this year. First Daves Dad.. now his cousin in sept. cus i hadnt said anyth... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 23:34:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1145261 I read 'A promise of hope' by autumn stringam and because of her moms suicide and her illness her dad helped develop a vitamin therapy. I suggest reading the book as she is a good writer i really enjoyed it. she was drug resistant and had very severe symptoms and now has been drug free fo... Tue, 24 Jun 2008 20:21:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1118981 havnt had a period for 3 weeks!! and im a hell of alot saner most days. yeah for metformin and regulating hormones. im feeling alot better these days, hormones arnt woring overtime... oh ya and i am pretty sure i ovulated this month i was like wtf? its so strange not having the hormones making me sl... Fri, 13 Jun 2008 03:42:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1113627 so wish i had seen one (an endocrinologist) in edmonton about the pcos rather than the reg ob/gyn tho he is a riot. they are so much better trained in matters of these elusive imbalances in pcos. was just the initial consult and if i hadnt already read up on it she would have answered all the questi... Tue, 10 Jun 2008 21:04:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1110158 I write in my journal to help my loved ones maybe understand maybe a glimpse of who i (fear i) am and who i want to be. one friend told me she reads my journal but is often at a loss for words. my reply is 'something is always better than nothing.' as i am not doing this for attention or gra... Mon, 09 Jun 2008 13:07:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1108668 Sun, 08 Jun 2008 20:50:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1104120 recently my young cousin 7 years old died in his sleep unexpectedly. everyone was being so dramatic and acting like it was to personaly upset them. i wantd to smack them all.. so on face book they tell me to call them tho they have my number if they want to talk to me. they acted like it was life ... Fri, 06 Jun 2008 13:20:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1100220 nipped it in the bud thankfully my docs let me play with my meds cus im so sencitive. if i had to wait to go in to see them i would have been off my rocker. i was haveing so much trouble sleeping one night i finaly got to sleep sometime past 4 am and still woke up at about 8 or 9 am. i was like enou... Wed, 04 Jun 2008 21:13:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1085306 i was able to sleep today during the day. but here i am its 4 30 am im dead tired but my mind is raceing and im doing all i can not to let it get the better of me. i just hope baby stays asleep till 11am or so but she had a good nap last night so =/.. gah... too much going on and my body is out... Thu, 29 May 2008 07:27:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/1082692 grr tonight i cant sleep hayls has gotten to the age where she is crying to see if we respond to it... so alot. and she is all of a sudden so hungery its hard to tell what she needs... and often just fusses when i feed her. she definitly sences my frustration. i felt old emotions from before i g... Wed, 28 May 2008 03:18:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/965892 i know anyone with infertility or a loss of anything that meant alot to you in your life  (within two years of becoming pregnant) that there is a greater chance of getting  postpartum depression. me i got it the minute i found out i was pregnant i was so shocked i just didnt connect with t... Wed, 09 Apr 2008 21:48:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/939984 one of the oh so very fun things of being borderline is the feeling that things arnt quite real most of the time. feeling like youre being left out even though it may be partially self inflicted because you dont feel you belong. the very REAL fear of abandonment even though it may just be parano... Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:49:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/933936 the funny thing is they think the same of me. to a point its true but i usually keep it to myself. i also have a hard time seeing the line between what is real from where i stand what is really real and what others see as real. all three are usually compleatly different. how i react to some sit... Fri, 28 Mar 2008 12:51:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/933028 been really hard on myself. thinking about the advice/critisisim from old friends back home. i try to remeber that part of the issue with them is how hard they are on themselves and that they expect nothing less of everyone else. It just seems like such a sad way to go through life. being critical a... Fri, 28 Mar 2008 02:48:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/906135 had a decent sleep last night. hayls n i went to bed around 10pm or so and slept till 5 am ish when she normally wakes up for a feed. me wakeing up woke her up lol. then after the feed was asleep at 6 am-11 am ish once the duola phoned. hayls stayed asleep it was weird. normally she wakes up at... Mon, 17 Mar 2008 17:16:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/84183/journal/903633 well she is coming on monday and i have an appt with my pdoc that morning. hope things go well. ive been feeling alot better the last few days maybe my meds are working better now? who knows. all i know is i have a pounding headache but im not crying at a drop of a hat. and im not so easily irritate... Sun, 16 Mar 2008 18:45:33 +0100