Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal Sun, 23 Nov 2008 04:32:35 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/78438/1213292451.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/78438 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/1126754  are u only an acholic when u got to bars or neglect your family? i enjoy beers in the evenings.. then i take my sleep pill, eat and go to bed. someone once told me, here on this site, that i was way too hard on myself if i only drank at home and did not shuck my responsibileties. but then i th... Mon, 16 Jun 2008 19:44:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/1010476  i am just so sick of doing so good and then failing sooooo badly.. sometimes i start to get really mad at my husband.. he knows i want to quit all these bad, sinful habits, but he continues to do them in front of me and encourages me to gamble..he says he don't have a problem with any of t... Sun, 27 Apr 2008 09:51:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/1008402 i am not good today. man, just a couple of days ago life couldn't get better. then bam bam bam.. tragedy strikes.. jobs get put in danger, and habits rear their ugly heads. my friend lost her husband to a freak accident thursday nite and it shook me to my core, questioning .. and giref..my husba... Sat, 26 Apr 2008 09:22:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/1002283 today is a good day. 1st, i am sober and have been for oh my, it's been over a week, didn't even realize it. been busy I guess. hubby and i  did go gambling tho. spent 35 dollars between us. i could fite that too, i never go unless i am with him, we feed each others weakness in that are... Wed, 23 Apr 2008 20:25:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/995561 sittin here watching the price is right. drew cary does a really good job. i was afraid when he took over that it wouldn't be done respectfully, but my fears are un founded.went to church sunday morning and gerald crabb was still there. he is so anointed. powerful message. i didn't go last n... Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:33:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/991409 thank you all.we went to revival last nite and Gerald Crabb was the speaker.. he was awesome.his message is what will ur final picture be.. when u leave this world, will u be remembered as God Loving, or a drunk, or a kind person, or a mean one.. made me really start thinking.. do i want the kids to... Sat, 19 Apr 2008 13:48:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/982978 well today is my first day of unemployment.. feels good, there is a roseanne-a-thon on..wish it was the really old ones, but thats ok. i have a confession to make.. but let me tell a little background. my husband said he was not gonna drink anymore.. i watched him struggle for 2 days, then he went a... Wed, 16 Apr 2008 08:24:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/966928 I am felling an enormous sense of peace and have for a few days. I am quitting my job, my last day is the 15th. That old devil keeps trying to put fears and what if's in my head, but i believe God will provide everything for me!! Plus he has given me an awesome loving husband who works everyday ... Thu, 10 Apr 2008 08:35:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/946129  I am praying constantly... I guess just my human nature is trying to interpret what may or may not happen instead of resting in the knowledge that God is in control, and it is His will that will surpass all others. I met with the birth mother last night, she told me i needed to put on the pape... Wed, 02 Apr 2008 08:16:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/944735 I got a letter saturday telling us the parenting/training classes for foster care will begin in the summer. and on monday i got news that I may have 14 month old twins in my custody within a couple of weeks, due to the kinship process. they will do a home assessment and a background check. so it is... Tue, 01 Apr 2008 18:08:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/941044 I had a stressful day.. it's all this stress and pressure about foster parenting.. getting certified.. and oh, just had a hurting heart..so i drnk for maybe 5 beers.i didn't get drunk, but my oh my.. my sleep was horrible again and i felt bad the next day. it is just not worth it. Mon, 31 Mar 2008 11:59:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/922369 I did not have a drop to drink all weekend. I feel good about it..the wierd thin gis i still had an upset stomach all nite.. maybe my body got so used to have one very sunday to monday nite that it did it out of habit!! My husband did drink yesterday.. maybe a little too much. he was having a great... Mon, 24 Mar 2008 08:43:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/910320 3 days sober , again.. last nite i thought baout smoking a lefty, but by the grace of God I did not. when u are counting sober days, does the one day u start off with the hangover count? i started taking my fertility pills again this morning. we will see. i still hvae not heard fom the state if we h... Wed, 19 Mar 2008 08:11:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/905179 i drank yesterday and took my tylenol.. i was very looped.. was up all in the nite sick at my stomach and didn't go to work today. i am not sure the two are related, cuz they hasn't happened before when i drank. my resolve is so strong at times and i feel so good and clear headed.. it would ... Mon, 17 Mar 2008 10:50:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/903421 i am drinking today, reading a book, doing housework.. just piddling.but i feel ok with it..why do you think sometimes i feel hoorible about drinking and sometimes i feel ok? Sun, 16 Mar 2008 16:59:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/895556 it is the next morning now. i did drink 1-1/2. i poured the last 1/2 down the sink. did not get drunk, but did get sleepy. i know it was just a fluke and i should not have drank anything and the next time i may not be so lucky as to stop when i did and if i drink at all i could get drunk... i don... Thu, 13 Mar 2008 08:47:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/890674 Why oh why won't these cravings go away? I do not want a beer, I do not want to be drunk, i do not want to be useless i do not want to be hungover and shameful in the morning. but here i sit at work and the thought popped into my head how nice it will be when i get home and drink a few to relax.... Tue, 11 Mar 2008 13:03:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/887288 Monday morning.. I slipped up yesterday.. don't know how it happened.. yes I do. i CHOSE to didn't I? I went to church yesterday morning .. it was an awesome SPIRIT filled service. went to visit my neices and nephews, went to the grocery store.. all the while thinking about drinking when I g... Mon, 10 Mar 2008 08:42:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/877493 This site is som awesome! I can have a really dtrong urge, and then i come on here and start a discussion about it, and all the support I get, WOW it is amazing. I am still sober, did not drink a drop and I know I won't. Just fightin it sometimes is hard, but so worth it. I know drunkards will n... Thu, 06 Mar 2008 08:31:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78438/journal/876265 Thank you all. I did go out and enjoy the sunshine, i also kept busy with a few chores, called my 7 year old neice and talked to her on th ephoine (that'll distract ya, i'm tellin ya!) and now i am about to go to church. I hardly ever go on wednesday nites, but i am going tonite.. again, tha... Wed, 05 Mar 2008 19:30:34 +0100