Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal Sat, 06 Sep 2008 23:53:35 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/78343/1215109319.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/78343 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/1045037 I've been wondering why I haven't been feeling like b/p since I got back from treatment. At first I was like "OMG, did it actually work?" I was pretty pissed cuz I am not ready to get over my ED and I was freaking out b/c I thought that they had brain washed it out of me, haha. BUT... Sun, 11 May 2008 20:51:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/1043264 I just got back from two months in an ED Recovery Center last Tuesday. It sucked majorly but I made the best of it, I've gotten pretty good at that over the course of my eating disorder. I think my ED is teaching me more than it is taking from me. :) <3 and PEACE Sat, 10 May 2008 23:10:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/785534 So my bulimia is really out of control lately. I am stealing food at least once a day and overdosing on laxatives and diet pills all the time. Two days ago my parents went through my stuff and found about 100 dollars worth of diet pills in my back pack and yesterday me and my mom got into a fig... Thu, 31 Jan 2008 21:37:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/683827 Mon, 24 Dec 2007 11:14:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/638730 I binged and purged today. grrrr! I went to whole days without either of the two and today I totally screwd up. (sulking) Mon, 03 Dec 2007 18:11:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/634406 wow man. It's been awhile since I've written anything in here. Status Report: still Bulimic, still suffering from borderline (BPD) BUT no SI in a week :) and my depression is getting better. I got put on all new meds. They seem to be working really well. I hardly think ab... Sat, 01 Dec 2007 14:50:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/615068 I SUCK!!!! I ate a fucking HUGE breakfast and when I went to purge it....I COULDN'T GET ANYTHING OUT!!! UUUUUUUUUGH, I am so pissed off right now. Fuck food for making me fat, Fuck Bulimia for making me even fatter, and Fuck my gag reflex for being a peice of shit. I hate Thanksgiving. It's ... Thu, 22 Nov 2007 11:14:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/554926 I got caught peircing my tongue in the school bathroom. Had my tongue ring in for about 2 minutes before the cops made me take it out. 2 fucking minutes!! after all that blood- ew, and all that pain- worse them pms cramps, seriously. Ugh! I was in so much trouble. Some bitch at school heard me talki... Sat, 27 Oct 2007 15:46:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/526377 Blech. Today was a sick day and I had to stay home all alone :( I ate so much. It is not even 4pm yet and I have allready had almost 800 calories. Although, 200 of that was a scrumptious (thought I would try out a new word, I don't think I like it enough to add to my vocabulary) cranberry banana... Mon, 15 Oct 2007 16:18:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/520590 I am so depressed, I really can't fit it into words. I wish that I could collect my feelings in jars and give them to people so that someone could actually experience how I feel and realise that I am being completely serious when I say "I'm depressed. I need help." People that... Fri, 12 Oct 2007 20:27:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/507262 Phew, that was close. That Bulimia relapse I was having where I was an emotional, gorging wreck!!...false alarm, I was just PMSing :) I have very irregular periods so I never know when they are coming. This period I am having right now SUCKS!!! I feel like I have the flu. I honestly don't even k... Sun, 07 Oct 2007 14:52:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/504252 Spent pretty much the whole night at Bobby's just hanging out. He is getting his house remodeled so they have this brand new HUGE bath tub. We just sat in it and drew pictures with shaving cream on the wall for almost an hour. If I had tried to do that with any of my other friends they woul... Sat, 06 Oct 2007 00:54:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/498367 Ugh, I am having a relapse. I am seriously depressed about this. I am back to puking at least 4 times a day. I am just so stressed out. Every kid at school is smarter than me, every girl is prettier and skinnier, my parents are extremely dissapointed with and mad at me, all of my best friends t... Wed, 03 Oct 2007 16:42:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/473858 Superbad. A.K.A. The best movie ever made. Sun, 23 Sep 2007 21:39:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/78343/journal/456548 One step forword, two steps back. That is how it is right now. Sun, 16 Sep 2007 19:53:29 +0100