Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal Sun, 12 Oct 2008 06:09:19 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/74520/1214277329.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/74520 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1315574 I went to the wedding the other day. I ended up having a really good time.  On the way to the wedding i started to feel nervous then when i arrived there i felt like "OMG WHAT AM I DOING HERE".  I was trying to get my nerves to calm down but it was not doing that great of jo... Sat, 27 Sep 2008 03:05:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1303080 The wedding is this saterday. It hasnt been on my mind latley because ive been so busy but some how my body knows. Yesterday i was not motivated to do anything. I just sat around doing nothing and its not like i dont have time to do anything. My schedule is so packed.  Im excited to go and have... Thu, 18 Sep 2008 22:55:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1273838 What a vacation I've had. Since i started my vaca i started looking for work. Something that would work with my school schedule for a while I was running into alot of conflicts with that. So i was getting less interwiew. Finally i guess you can say i sorta of gave up trying but still tried just ... Sun, 31 Aug 2008 17:19:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1266548 I had a really strange dream last night. I rember dreaming about my uncle passing away and my cousin wrote a note for him. I rember waking up around 3 in the morning just feeling the pain of loss and thinking about my mom. Its like i was still sleeping but awake and i was just so sad. It feels like ... Wed, 27 Aug 2008 02:24:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1251122 This whole week has been great. I went camping for most of the week at the beach. It was so nice. Relaxing is the word. Something I well needed. Then today I went to watch a dodger game which was cool. Dodgers won. I like Manny Ramierz, too bad he's married. Hehe. Im tried, its been an eventfull... Mon, 18 Aug 2008 00:16:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1228495 Wow so today was a good but strange day. For the past couple of days my uncles been back in the hospital. Im worried.They keep putting of his surgery because he has no insurance so he's more on a list. As time goes by hes just not getting better and every time he gets a little worse. So today we... Tue, 05 Aug 2008 03:52:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1225036 So since the semesters finished i have been relaxing and getting use to having my car back. So much un-needed stress has left me. I have noticed that i seem to be more happier in a way. Im excited about being done with my semester and having a whole month off from school, which lets me focus on find... Sun, 03 Aug 2008 03:39:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1207179 So i finally got my car out of the shop. It has been over 2 years without a car. Not everything is perfect but it runs, i still have alot of stuff to do to it. Slowly but surely it will be back in tip top shape. It was so strange to hear my car turn on again. To see it moving. Im hoping this we... Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:11:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1198541 So he made his choice this morning i wasnt surprised at all by it. I was so out of it from the stress because i already new what his choice was going to be.  Im done, im not gonna take this shit anymore. Hes gonna learn what its like to be dead to me. Its his own fault. Im gonna make him pay. I... Sat, 19 Jul 2008 16:41:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1191393 I think about you everyday, all day. There is not a day that goes by that you are not in my mind. Even just for a second you are there. At the end of the day i come home and cry because i miss you so much. Knowing that i will never see you again. I wish i could hear your voice. Its rare when i see y... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 02:18:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1188190 So latley ive been browsing job adds. Over the weekend i found a perfect one that could fit into my schedule and would be able to give me the hours i needed. They posted the add up on the 10, i replied and sent them my resume. So today i called them because it was a buisness day. Right away she tell... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 16:53:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1179986 My heart is in so much pain. I cant believe that my life has come to this. I haven't done anything bad to deserve this. I just start thinking about my problems and tears just come falling down. My heart feels really heavy right now. I go to school and then when the day is done with automati... Thu, 10 Jul 2008 15:57:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1177434 People tell me i should get away from him, they say it so easily. I found out today that the life insurance lapsed because of his gambling addiction. I told him that "I hope he fucking crashes and dies" I dont mean it but it just one of the moments. But in a way i think about it, and once ... Wed, 09 Jul 2008 14:10:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1156592 My uncle is in the hospital for the 3rd time in a month in a half. He had an ulcer years ago but they repaired it and now it has torn, so he's loosing alot of blood. They told him before that they were going to do surgery on him but they wanted him to gain weight. He really cant eat because of w... Sun, 29 Jun 2008 23:32:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1141008 Today somebody told me that they would sweep me off my feet if they could.  I hate being alone. I think its the worst feeling in the world. I look around and in reality i dont have no one. Not just as a boyfriend but as friends and family. I keep trying to figure out why i was put in the positi... Mon, 23 Jun 2008 02:31:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1131325 On my way home today on the bus i heard the song i played at my moms funeral. I havent heard it in a long time. It makes me cry. So i started crying on the bus. I started thinking about how my life has completly changed. How different it is. I wonder what it would be like if she was still here.... Wed, 18 Jun 2008 16:35:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/74520/journal/1127460 I want to cut again. I had it out with him today. He tells me why the fuck am i going to school? Your just wasting money and time. He blames me because of his problems that he doesn't have no money, when he's the one that is addicted to gambling. Part of me right now is numb. I started to le... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 02:01:10 +0100