Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal Fri, 09 Jan 2009 16:19:30 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/female.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/73701 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/977379 Its been so long since I have been here and things are just plain ugly. I've hit the point in life that I just wish I could curl up and die. I wont but I wish.... I've been doing so much thinking and soul searching and don't like what I see. I'm nearly 33 years old, have been without... Mon, 14 Apr 2008 07:55:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/346632 Its been a week since I have been here. Alot has happened in that time. I've not been on this planet all week. Had a lot of old memories and hurt hit me smack in the face. On Monday my Aunty rang me, (from my adoptive family) and told me that My Grandpa.. well basically, he is not well, and they... Fri, 03 Aug 2007 07:01:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/324053 Today I am good. I am writing now to say that things are well, but I may not be on much. I am needed elsewhere for the moment. I will be on oand of just depends. I still love all u guys and ur feedback has been fantastic. But at the moment I need to be a little less selfish. Be there for soneone who... Tue, 24 Jul 2007 16:30:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/317127 Well it is nearly 11 am here in Aussie. I feel much better especially after that tantrum I had early this morning. I hate being what I call me a mental case. I hate it when I cut. Yet I can go for such long periods without. I hate when I get that depressed that I get angry. I hate that my son has to... Sat, 21 Jul 2007 20:46:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/315461 Well its now 2:39pm on the 21st, I still feel like crap so I am going to try hug therapy. Give out a heap of hugs. Even if I don't feel better at least others can feel better.I've decided as far as Johnny is concerned, I will forgive him when he finally contacts me, but oh god am I going to ... Sat, 21 Jul 2007 00:48:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/314680 Today is the 21st of July, my sons fifth b'day. HAPPY B'DAY Cody. And for his b'day mum gets to take all the hardrubbish down to the street. Had hoped Johnny would be here to help like he said he would but, as he never showed his face, I have to do it on my own.I feel bad cause I couldn... Fri, 20 Jul 2007 18:15:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/307116 I still have not heard from Johnny. It is Wednesday, he was supposed to be here Monday night. I'm sick of this. I thought he loved me. I thought he cared. Obviously not.  It sucks. Obviously, males think I am just a slut.Johnny said he loved me. He told me he wanted a relationship. I can... Tue, 17 Jul 2007 19:16:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/298579 I feel a kittle sad today, I have to get my cat put down. He is only five years old but he has abscesses that keep re occurung in the same spot on his face. I can't afford to take him to the vets to get it treated, I don't like him in pain, but most of all, the only thing that makes me feel ... Sat, 14 Jul 2007 06:24:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/295749 I'm still laughing. Johnny come home this morning, he was still having a sulk about not being able to contact me for a whole day and half. I did it for two weeks, ha ha. Men are just so cute, especially when they get a taste of I suppose their own medicine. I think I am going to chuckle about it... Thu, 12 Jul 2007 23:28:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/293615 I kinda think payback was a bummer for my man. He wants to know what it feels like to miss someone and not be able to contact them. He got it for 24hrs while I stayed at my brothers house, he missed me so much and even came home to see me. All he had was the dog for company. LOLWasn't a very hap... Thu, 12 Jul 2007 05:54:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/289880 My man rang a 5:30am been awake since and GOD (sorry to take his name in vain), but how do I ease the feeling that is running through me. I miss him so hardcore. I want to have a tantrum. I want to get frustrated and angry. At the end of the month he finishes up. But it seems so far away. I have nev... Tue, 10 Jul 2007 17:45:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/288710 Holy cows..... I swear my son must have raided the sugar Bowl tonight he was bouncing off the walls. Hypo plus. I bought him the new  tangy cheese twisties not realising they turned your tongue blue. I was almost beside myself trying to figure out why Cody had a blue tongue. It was over an hour... Tue, 10 Jul 2007 08:39:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/73701/journal/288139 I am actually starting to feel like I am starting to wake up. For the first time in 32 years I feel like I am important. It is the strangest feeling. I can actually take time and explore my feelings, own them, and accept that I have these feelings and that I am justified in having them.I have never ... Mon, 09 Jul 2007 23:46:31 +0100