Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:37:20 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/71438/1224628386.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/71438 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1401468 I've been sick with pneumonia for over a week now. It just won't go away.  I'm really bummed because I wanted to make a nice Thanksgiving Dinner this year. I guess my sweetie will have to cook a turkey. I hope all my friends have a happy holiday! Wed, 26 Nov 2008 12:51:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1397610 Got the flu bug last week and can seem to shake it. Been laying around watching too much TV, coughing til I pee my pants and just generally doing nothing. Funny, I never get sick. Sick in the head maybe, but not physically sick. My job is going to keep me on for another month, through Chri... Sun, 23 Nov 2008 17:15:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1385777 Got laid off today from my 10 hour job. 5 job in ten years I have been let go from. Starting to feel like I should use my degree to clean some toilets. 45 years old and never thought I would be here. What's the fucking point of trying.  I have been volunteering my time too, and at... Fri, 14 Nov 2008 21:32:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1381947 Just checking in. Been doing ok with the depression. Still very nervous about my job and some of my duties that I just can't do fast enough for my boss. I sometimes feel like I'm falling on my way to work, although I still do like it very much. What is bothering me the most is the illne... Wed, 12 Nov 2008 12:29:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1355779 I think I'm going to be let go from my job soon. It's only 10 hours a week but it fit perfectly with my disability and my stress level. Plus it was for a non profit that helps babys get essential items like diapers and such. Yesterday my boss put her hand on my shoulder and said "t... Fri, 24 Oct 2008 12:16:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1350408 I took screenwriting. I'm suppose to be a writer. I come home and my desk faces beautifully tall evergreen trees. A perfect view for imagining something. But my brain comes up with nothing. It's empty, but full all at the same time. I have all this time at home, bles... Mon, 20 Oct 2008 18:24:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1341765 I often have these dreams that my family is totally against me. They are horrible. I'm usually visiting home and they capture me and keep me there. It's strange how dreams can affect you after waking. The night before I had one of those really good dreams where you didn't want to wa... Tue, 14 Oct 2008 15:58:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1327222 I met a person on another message board that I belong too. Just today he admitted that he was homeless and checks his emails at coffee shops. He made a mistake somewhere in his life and was in prison for awhile. Now he lives on the streets. He has a son that lives in another city, but feels hop... Sat, 04 Oct 2008 15:31:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1325699 I've been having trouble sleeping lately. That might be a sign that mania might be brewing in my skull. I have been taking sleep aids, but they are worthless. My body is so use to meds, some over the counter stuff doesn't do the job. I'm off work today, hoping to write, hoping for i... Fri, 03 Oct 2008 12:18:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1322317 Have you ever been in love with someone you know you can't have, but you keep them in your heart anyway? For 14 years I have loved a man who doesn't know I'm alive. Yesterday he had his second child with a wonderful woman. I'm happy for him. But I'm sad, it makes me think of... Wed, 01 Oct 2008 13:17:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1314580 Last tree-sitters come down from Calif. redwoods EVELYN NIEVES Associated Press http://www.nola.com/newsflash/index.ssf?/base/national-110/1222198774302950.xml&storylist=national SCOTIA, Calif. (AP) - After more than 20 years of protests, the last two people living in the giant redwoods of ... Fri, 26 Sep 2008 12:16:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1308932 I've been disabled with bipolar for 5 years now and have only held two jobs for a few months. I finally found a new part time job working 10hours. But my boss piled and piled on the work. Apparently she thought I could do the job..... but, today she called me in the office to ask why it ta... Mon, 22 Sep 2008 21:51:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1294256 I hate to be alone. I don't like this feeling.  My boyfriend is going camping and I'm spending the weekend by myself. I always get worried when I'm alone that I will have a meltdown and no one will be here. I hate feeling this feeling because I'm an adult, but it's... Sat, 13 Sep 2008 12:23:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1291180 Just thinking of Sept 11th. Funny, I have two memories of that day. One is profoundly good. I was in labor with my only child on September 11th 1992, so this day was always precious to me. My son was not born actually until just after midnight on the 12th. I'm glad he doesn't have a Sep... Thu, 11 Sep 2008 12:21:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1289698 Wed, 10 Sep 2008 13:52:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1284002 Spent some time in another bi polar web site chat room tonight. I always feel weird chatting with more than one person at a time, these people probubly didn't mean to ignore me but the conversation with pretty much between the two of them. I wanted to talk about bi polar and they didn't... Sat, 06 Sep 2008 22:26:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1280852 I find myself frozen in my chair. Nothing to say that I can say without censoring myself. There are things I want to say on here but afraid of someone close to me might read it and misunderstand me. My meds are wearing off at the wrong time, I'm sinking into this chair. Hell, I'm not a ... Thu, 04 Sep 2008 21:24:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1277353 I've been noticing the times when my meds finally wear off in the early evening just about now, 5:30pm. I get restless and have mental fatigue along with it.  The dam insurance company won't let me take two doses a day so, I melt away all the hours in the evening that I could be writing... Tue, 02 Sep 2008 20:47:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1274068 Sun, 31 Aug 2008 21:10:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/71438/journal/1274064 Another night of watching my boyfriend watching metal objects go around in a circle creating more global warming. Needless to say, my current depressive mood isnt being helped by sport casters with bad grammer. Sun, 31 Aug 2008 21:00:16 +0100