Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:35:30 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/70333/1213330251.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/70333 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/511049 Hello all.  I am not going to be getting on the computer so much anymore so I won't be on this site very much.  I am going to have to get more serious about spending time going to recovery meetings, reading, writing, meditating, etc.  I have been spending so much more time on... Tue, 09 Oct 2007 00:09:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/465072 Argghhhhhh....I have relapsed and spent the last 24 hours smoking crack.  After 8 months of sobriety.  There were various triggers that contributed to my relapse like excess money and time off work.  Plus I don't think I ever fully accepted that I don't want to do crack again.... Thu, 20 Sep 2007 01:26:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/460025 Well today has been the worst day that I've had in months in regards to cravings.  I made lots of money this weekend and have a lot of cash on hand.  I don't work for 2 days either.  In the past that meant "time to get f#cked up!"  Now I don't have that opti... Tue, 18 Sep 2007 04:02:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/446970 Well I'm feeling a little better these days than the last time I made an entry.  I've seen the therapist twice now.  She has asked me to do a few things as homework, or at least to try. She had asked me what could make me happier today, something I can do now.  I str... Wed, 12 Sep 2007 16:07:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/415604 Well today I got an appointment made to see a therapist next Thursday.  It's set up through the Catholic diocese so I'm hoping they won't be preaching at me.  I've got a lot of "sinful" things to discuss and it won't be much use to me if I can't be frank a... Thu, 30 Aug 2007 23:02:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/411360 Well I'm on day 9 now of not smoking....feeling okay but I'm still hacking away.  Expelling all that crap out of my lungs.  It's an important process but a rather ugly one.  I think I'm too busy quitting smoking to feel depressed these days.  I do have one concern... Wed, 29 Aug 2007 13:30:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/401375      I feel like writing today for whatever reason.  I've just quit smoking cigarettes.  I smoked for 9 years, quit for 2 1/2 then smoked for 2 more.  Now I'm 5 days smoke free.  I'm using nicotine lozenges to keep my cravings at bay... Sat, 25 Aug 2007 21:11:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/401218 Loneliness....I'm growing so tired of feeling lonely...I've started getting more physical symptoms in the last 6 months.  I've started having chest pains when my thoughts get really low...that never happened until late last year.  All it takes is seeing a cute co-worker that ta... Sat, 25 Aug 2007 19:42:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/400799 I 've had a few events in my life that I would call supernatural but most occured in childhood but there was one major example as an adult. My event really took around 8 years to play out and I'm not sure it is over. In 1998 I had a powerful vision in the woods behind my house that I would b... Sat, 25 Aug 2007 15:56:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/286594 Well, here it is Monday again and I'm tired but not feeling too bad.  I've got a good week coming up.   A gig on Thursday night is the best part.  Should be a lot of fun.  I don't think I'm going to be playing on the radio show this week...it's only one h... Mon, 09 Jul 2007 12:18:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/284550 I wonder why some people are entertained by the shortcomings of others?  I think it's insecurity.  They are unsatisfied with their lives in some way.  Though not the way that they laugh at the other person about.  That's not THEIR problem and since it's not it's f... Sun, 08 Jul 2007 14:19:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/284542 I've been practicing yoga for 3 years now and it has done wonders for my health.  I learned at first by watching programs on TV (Wai Lana and others) but started going to yoga sessions about a year ago and have learned quite a bit from other people.  I find it to have a wonderful impac... Sun, 08 Jul 2007 14:16:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/284537 I am 31 years old and haven't had a relationship in many years.  It's frustrating b/c I want to feel love but I think I'm too concerned with protecting myself and not allowing anyone to hurt me.  I find it very difficult to pursue women.  Women are often standoffish and I ... Sun, 08 Jul 2007 14:13:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/284528 I've lived in Austin, TX for 21 years and love music.  I play guitar, bass, and sing.  I prefer to write songs rather than just be a player.  I've recently finished a 5 song demo CD which I'm moderately happy with.  It was recorded on a 16 track digital recorder in my... Sun, 08 Jul 2007 14:10:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/70333/journal/263327 I'm a musician in Austin, Tx.  Things in my life are looking relatively good.  I've got a gig coming up, I just finished recording a demo, and I started playing guitar on a weekly one hour radio show.  So why do I feel like crap?  It's because I feel isolated and lone... Thu, 28 Jun 2007 14:55:15 +0100