Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal Sun, 20 Jul 2008 19:29:55 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/68723/1213248469.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/68723 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1197187 Three weeks today I spoke to Kathy yesterday and it seems shes had a huge breakdown and done more drugs.. so for now Levi remains in my care which im happy about. I just wish his mother would get her shit together, i know she cares about him, but him being with me is to easy for her!! SHe doesn... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 19:43:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1186561 THis is what i said at damians funeral.I didnt write it down i mjust said what u felt at the time, but my mum recoreded it then wrote it down in case i wnted to save it for any reasom. So i thought id share ut with you I could stand up here and tell you Dmaian was the best person ever and that ... Sun, 13 Jul 2008 22:18:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1184325 I went back to work last night, thought i could handle the outside world. But i guess its just not long enough. I broke down and cried infront of all my customers. The other girl had to serve everyone all by herself, i felt so bad. But she new my situation, she told me i wasnt ready to come back, bu... Sat, 12 Jul 2008 18:14:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1182744 Two weeks today.Me and Levi went to feed the ducks a few days ago, as i was getting levi out of the car, i noticed Lei had one of Damians T shirts tucked into the side of his car seat, i thought to myself, who gave him that. Then i realised to myself, he must have picked it up himself, and now hes b... Fri, 11 Jul 2008 20:43:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1175720 wow.. its so hard to belive damians truely gone, i still wait for him to come home. I went to his work yesterday, his boos whom i met for the first time at the funeral, called me and asked me to come in. So i went in and the boss told me they want to give a donation to go towards damians funeral bec... Tue, 08 Jul 2008 19:42:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1168021 A week since your death, oh baby you wouldnt believe how much im missing you, Me and Levi have moved to mum and dads. Kathys mum offered to take Levi so i could be on my own, But i need him, hes helping me. Im still finding it hard to belive your gone, i stood at your graveside wondering why the hel... Sat, 05 Jul 2008 00:07:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1160832 Damian.. tomoro is your funeral and im not really convinced your gone..Last night i rolled over and you werent there, i kept waiting for you to walk in the door but then i realised you were going to..Man its only been a few days but im missing you like crazy..Levi is to he keeps pointing at your car... Tue, 01 Jul 2008 20:34:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1156104 Something really bad hass happened im only on for a few mminuts to let all myfriends on here no what happened.  I feel like ive beeen cursed like its all my fault this bad shit is happenin.  Saturday early morning, Damian was in a car accident. He didntmake it Hes gone and n... Sun, 29 Jun 2008 19:08:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1140583          MY SISTER I really feel for my sister. She said to me today.. Now i understand how you felt, Its my fault baby died because i was so mean to you about Liam, I wasnt understanding and this is my punishment. THat felt me in tears, no matter wh... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 22:02:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1138964 Yesterday morning i woke up early with a pain in my tummy. I thought nothing of it and got up and started to get Levis breakfast ready. Damian had left for work. About half a hour later i get a call from my mum saying i need to come down to the hospital, somethings wrong with my sister. So i as... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 02:18:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1133978 Today i was on the train..and i was thinking to myself you dont really know what others are going through..The girl a the back of my carriage, her eyes are red, tears streaming down her face, you wonder should i ask her if shes okay, the train stops and she stands up, i then see she has a huge pregn... Thu, 19 Jun 2008 19:05:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1129581 Hey everyone..Havent written for a few days...I kinda needed a break with all these things going on..Levis been so good, my gorge little man, cuple more weeks and hell be going back to Kathy.I think i can handle it!! As much as ill miss himLast few weeks ive done so much work with him i really hope ... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 22:05:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1110753 Well i got through Liams first day.. Suprisingly!!Talked to Levis mum yesterday.. she said shes so proud of how ive come through it all and how ive dealt then  stopped and thought about it all and realised im really proud of myself. A few things i really regret like not having him burried ... Mon, 09 Jun 2008 17:39:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1108384 Liam..One year today since you left this world..Today would be your very first birthday..We should have been havung a big party..But in our hearts you were still here..Mummas missing you so so much..Uncle brandons girlfriends gonna have a bubba..And i know youll watch over that little baby and make ... Sun, 08 Jun 2008 18:09:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1099699 Well Theve bloody gone and done it now!! First Damians brother and his girlfriend decide they are moving into damians mums where damian and i now stay with Levi. we howeveer are in the backhouse but we still share a kitchen and stuff with them. They are tryna kick us out of the unit so they can... Wed, 04 Jun 2008 17:20:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1095946 Arrrh.. things have gone from bad.. to worse Damians borther brandon and his girlfriend rose have just annoced they are having a baby, there 16. I feel so jealous because Damians and Brandons dad and his wife who were horrible to me when i was pregnant with Liam, are happy about brandon an... Tue, 03 Jun 2008 04:46:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1084501 With Liams annivesary coming up the next few weeks will be tough, less then two weeks and t would have been a year since my baby boy left this earth. Counting down the days is hard. But as the day approaches i feel alittle stronger, knowing my boys being well looked after. Thats doesnt stop me from ... Wed, 28 May 2008 21:14:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1069714 I have just loaded some photos of when i was pregnant with Liam and also of my beautiful baby boy. I now feel strong enough to share with you all Thu, 22 May 2008 01:29:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1064923 Well we settled into our new house this weekend, and levi came too. Kathy even wrote a note and signed it and had a witness, and tomoro is going to the lawyers to make it offical, saying that levi is to be in my care for 6 weeks, or until she is better and i am responsible for ANY and ALL decisons r... Tue, 20 May 2008 06:11:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/68723/journal/1052403 Well i forgot to write baout this before... but my twin sister is pregnant. Its very painful for me. Shes not sure if she will keep it. She really wants to have an abortion. I tried to talk her out of it. but she doesnt know who the father is and they are both complete losers. One of them has three ... Wed, 14 May 2008 20:44:53 +0100