Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:37:34 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/67159/1213269269.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/67159 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/725478 Well, i thought i had my anger problem sorted but it turns out i was wrong. My boyfriend asked me to cook his tea for when he got back from swimming so i did, but after i'd cooked it and he got home he said he wasn't hungry and because of that i completely lost it and threw a couple of break... Thu, 10 Jan 2008 09:43:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/722898 When i wrote the other day i didn't tell you how my christmas and New Year went. I spent christmas with my family and my boyfriend. I didn't get loads because i didn't want alot but the things i did get were great! I expected to go out that night but my boyfriend doesn't really like ... Wed, 09 Jan 2008 12:11:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/716757 hi friends. I haven't wrote for a while... I've been trying to get my life back on track with the support of friends and family, also from many counselling sessions too. I don't want to bore you all with the ups and downs but for now i'll just let you know that things are going ok fo... Mon, 07 Jan 2008 10:26:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/411472 hello... i've just got out of hospital today, feeling really weak and unable to do anything. i don't want to go into what happened, i'm just trying to forget. my chap is taking me to blackpool tomorrow (if the doctors let me). He wants me to be happy and look to the future now i'm ou... Wed, 29 Aug 2007 14:14:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/342628 thankyou everybody for being here for me while i was at my lowest but i'm at the lowest anybody can even imagine and i'm done with it all, i'm too fucked off with everybody, too angry with myself, too destroyed to even do anything about it. I've got nobody, nobody to hug me, love me,... Wed, 01 Aug 2007 14:25:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/323013 Something really strange and upsetting happened last night. I started an argument with my bf like i always do and eventually i calmed down, but when i went to hug him he just stood there really cold... He couldn't look at me, he wouldn't let me hug him, kiss him, even talk to him, he was jus... Tue, 24 Jul 2007 09:14:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/306223 I did something stupid at the weekend... To do with taking tablets and alcohol... Unfortunately i'm still here as you can guess! It was a pretty stupid fucked up thing to do but it's what i wanted and i can't turn back what i did... I'm still here and i've got more people around ... Tue, 17 Jul 2007 12:34:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/296464 well, i saw a concillor today and i was so scared to tell them things... It did my head in having to tell them what i've already told my old concillor! I hate talking because it just makes me feel worse. Stayed at my mums last night because i didn't want to be on my own... Now that my chap h... Fri, 13 Jul 2007 09:38:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/293633 I think i'm on the verge of self destruction! I proper flipped on tuesday for no reason... I trashed my flat up and then cut my arms and stomach real bad... After cutting i found myself holding a bottle of pills ready to swallow, don't ask me why i didn't because i was so sure that this ... Thu, 12 Jul 2007 06:21:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/275773 i've been with my mum all day moving my little brother and sisters bedrooms around and i'm shattered! Now that i'm out of work i've been really lazy and just can't be bothered doing anything... I've been more stroppy than usual this week and it's starting to get on my ner... Wed, 04 Jul 2007 11:49:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/273092 the last time i wrote was after i'd cut myself... my boyfriend saw the cuts on saturday night... i tried my hardest to cover them up but we kinda got a bit wrecked and he saw them whilst i was getting ready for bed. I don't cry in front of him so i had to put on a brave face... he knows why ... Tue, 03 Jul 2007 08:10:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/265659 well, today was awful... i'm not going to go on about how messed up my life is... all i can say is that i've had a stressful day and i did cut myself this morning... my legs look awful... that's the only place people can't see them. my chap has come crawling bk today saying he's ... Fri, 29 Jun 2007 14:23:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/264729 i can't do this anymore... i'm so sick of crying and putting on a pretend smile for my family... this is it for me... the last person i loved and who loved me has just left and now i've got nothing so i'm not sticking around, i can't handle it... lifes too hard! i've managed ... Fri, 29 Jun 2007 04:09:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/263518 i wrote this morning about my night yesterday... my partner seems to be blowing hot and cold at the minute and i'm getting so fed up with it... all i want is to be happy for once in my life... i don't think about life much because i just think my life ended when my step-dad did what he did t... Thu, 28 Jun 2007 16:27:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/262364 i've only just got up... had a really crap night last night. spent most of the night arguing with my partner because he doesn't seem to want to do anything with me anymore... it feels like he doesn't care anymore and i'm so scared that he's going to leave. he has helped me so muc... Thu, 28 Jun 2007 04:30:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/260876 how can a 19 year old feel so shitty? life's supposed to be great at that age, but my life seems to be gettin worse. i've got a huge temper on me and today i feel like i just want to be a bitch with every1... one minute i'm calm and then without even thinkin of anything i turn from being... Wed, 27 Jun 2007 13:45:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/258845 this weekend has been a bit hard... on friday my boyfriend decided it was time to call it quits on our relationship (too much crap 4 him to deal with i guess) but he said he would forgive and forget one last time.  i don't no how he does it to be honest, i'm a real cow with him and stil... Tue, 26 Jun 2007 16:38:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/67159/journal/247334 I'm new to this so i don't really know what to do. At the minute i'm sat at home on my own, which i do most of the time because i like to keep myself to myself. I've been to look at soem bridesmaid dresses with my mum this morning... She's getting married next August. It feels st... Thu, 21 Jun 2007 10:29:18 +0100