Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal Mon, 08 Sep 2008 09:34:42 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/52279/1213249187.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/52279 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/1174756 i'm extremely bitter that my mother issues seem to be pervasive and worsening. i read somewhere that therapy teaches you to blame your mother for everything. thank god i survived that...and fuck, i have to live through this...again. i heard a few false rumors or two through the grapevine. w... Tue, 08 Jul 2008 11:13:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/1053069 life back home is simple. i do operations and finance...run bank errands, stock the office, take out the trash (just like old times!), import documents, etc. i'm still feeding the dog 3x/day, watering the lawns, walking the dog, loving Netflix, reading voraciously, and working out in my "ho... Thu, 15 May 2008 03:51:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/794552 Mon, 04 Feb 2008 12:59:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/729698 Moving home to LA in a few days...haven't slept a decent wink since I found out the news. My parents' home was robbed while they were out of the country and all signs point to our sole employee for the home business, who also happens to be my alcoholic friend, Ryan. Need I say, ex-friend...b... Fri, 11 Jan 2008 18:00:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/619793 Letter to my sister:You are not who you once were to me. You were my big sister, my idol, my hero, my rock. I spent all those years idealizing you in my head. The older, smarter, faster, stronger sibling. The one mom and dad always talk so proudly of. The one they tried to shape me to be like. The o... Sun, 25 Nov 2007 00:32:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/518921 I love living in San Francisco. The weather, the people, the energy...being able to wear coats and scarves. Coming from LA, I actually cherish the chilly mornings. And it's only October. :) Lesson learned this week: street sweeping occurs like, everyday. I need to pay more attention to the blata... Fri, 12 Oct 2007 03:00:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/454778 So many changes. At least that means that my life is moving forward? I quit my job. :) Congratulations to me for leaving a very bad situation. Leaving was like taking a million bricks off my shoulder. I was only there for a year of my life but all the time, energy, sweat, blood (kidding), tears that... Sat, 15 Sep 2007 23:09:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/346394 I feel sick to my stomach. I was leaving the office tonight and found a young couple engaged in a domestic dispute in a creepy parking garage downtown. I saw the guy from far away, smoking, swearing, stumbling erratically and throwing things. I didn't want to approach them, but they were right i... Fri, 03 Aug 2007 01:47:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/328740 Actions speak louder than words.Don't just say you're going to Be There. Just Be THERE.I am secure. Sometimes. With myself, my abilities, my values. I am a good person. So why do I always feel like I am getting flamed? What did I do to deserve this hatred/rejection? Why are people so un... Thu, 26 Jul 2007 14:48:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/280415 The fog has lifted (sort of) and I am still here. I need to learn how to take a chill pill and just relax sometimes and not take everything so seriously. I guess that's where I fit the classical definition of anxiety by working myself up in my head. There's just so much bad blood flowing aro... Fri, 06 Jul 2007 13:00:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/256810 R-E-S-P-E-C-T. What do I have to do to earn it? I swear, this is what I get for working in a male-dominated industry. I really, really, hate how my current boss second-guesses and undermines all of my decision-making. This is the main reason I need to get out, because I can't stand the abuse, de... Mon, 25 Jun 2007 19:58:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/231312 Sad eyes. That's what my sister calls me when I look depressed. There's just so much that I want to get done but only so much I can handle. Do you ever have those moments of sheer elation, and then you come crashing down to reality? That's how I feel whenever I walk away from work. I get... Thu, 14 Jun 2007 02:43:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/224310 I'm ridiculously pleased with myself today because I ran 5 miles.Okay fine, that's sort of an exagerration because I jogged, walked, limped, sprinted, and hobbled my way. I started out with the time-tested method of running a block, and walking a block. I can't remember the last time I p... Mon, 11 Jun 2007 02:24:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/220698 I cannot list what I ate today, because I ate in the category of unmentionables. The food-that-which-should-not-be-consumed.F*ck, I'll admit it. I ate 3 donuts today. :(I biked 5 miles tonight at dusk to repent and also ate about 6 winged insects. Ew.I have a wonderfully free morning to gym tomo... Sat, 09 Jun 2007 04:57:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/218460 Breakfast = iced latte (justification for milk -- I need calcium), banana nut bread.Lunch = green tea, 2 pc rainbow roll (tuna & salmon), miso soup, 2 pc spider roll (soft shell crab), 1 pc toro (amazing!!!), 2 pc broiled smoked salmon (omega-3 fatty acids), 2 pc ichiban roll (unagi & stuff)... Fri, 08 Jun 2007 01:43:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/216265 Water, Nutri-Grain bar, water.Green tea, 1/2 Rainbow Roll (salmon & tuna), 2 pieces other exotic looking roll with asparagus and tempura shrimp, 4 pieces crunch cali roll with unagi sauce.Water, 1/3 package dark chocolate M&Ms, more water.Nutri-Grain bar. Jasmine tea, 1/3 serving size lamb w... Thu, 07 Jun 2007 02:01:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/213942 I'm eating cut and peeled carrots. Yes I am lazy, and I am also exhausted, physically (::shakes fist at stabbing pain in back::), mentally (work), emotionally (caring), and spirtually. I know I've been inconsistent in journaling and want to become more regular. I hope I don't bore y'... Wed, 06 Jun 2007 03:05:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/203903 I hate that I've become so jaded by life that nothing surprises me anymore. I fear that I've built up so many walls of protection that nothing good will happen to me. I just won't let it. There was this time in college when I experienced extreme anhedonia (inability to experience joy or ... Fri, 01 Jun 2007 02:06:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/52279/journal/199530 I can't be as profound as I wish to be right now, but I just want to quickly recall the story/fable about the boy on the seashore throwing starfish back into the sea. Catch phrase being, his companion asked him, "Why are you doing that? You can't possibly save them all."  ... 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