Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 03:19:22 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/50642/1213246986.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/50642 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/1147257 Hello everyone:)I hope everyone is doing well:)  I am okay I have been thinking a lot of how this summer is so much different than last summer.Much more positive and hopeful.Jesus has made a huge difference/change in my life its amazing really.Last summer around this time my anorexia was h... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 17:07:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/1129182 Hello all:)I am doing well today, My anxiety has been high alot lately but God has helped.I read Psalm 23 which helped, maybe it could help someone else when theyre anxious :)Just checking in :) Hope everyone is doing great:) Tue, 17 Jun 2008 18:29:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/1124286 Hello everyone:)I guess I will do a different entry than usual because one of my friends here in Maine asked for help with something.She is doing a cancer fundraiser,its a walk in Boston and is trying to raise money.She hopes to get $10 from 200 people.The web page is  http://08.the3day.org/got... Sun, 15 Jun 2008 19:01:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/1111462 Hello everyone:) I hope everyone is doing well:) I figured I would write to let people know how I am doing:)Jesus has helped me with my anorexia, for the first time I do not feel anorexic.I weigh around 102 pounds now which is good.Its hard to explain what has happened but the result is just good:)I... Mon, 09 Jun 2008 23:33:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/1055470  I am doing okay today:) Thu, 15 May 2008 22:37:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/1024882 I am not in the program but thats okay,I think Jesus cured my anorexia. Fri, 02 May 2008 22:30:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/996528 Today I called the clinician I had at the program.I had to pray first and ask Jesus for some bravery :) She sounded nice and didnt seem mad about me leaving.I asked if I could come back or did I blow it at the meeting and she said I didnt blow anything and to call and schedule an assessment.I called... Mon, 21 Apr 2008 18:18:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/991882 I hate my ED.I thought I didnt need Jesus or anyone esle to help me with it but I was wrong.I felt sooooooo sick after lunch but didnt throw up.I think my prayers worked.:) I hate throwing up.I called the clinician i had at the program on Friday but there was no answer. Sat, 19 Apr 2008 18:17:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/986942 I ate a little bit more than i did yesterday, i got breakfast and a late lunch in and drinks and a milkshake as a snack.I still dont know if I am going back to the program.I am a little embarassed about what happened.But God has been helping me eat which is good.It was very nice out today and I went... Thu, 17 Apr 2008 17:27:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/979125 I think quitting the program was a mistake.I did it in a moment of anger at someone there.I dont know what I should do.My family thinks I should go back.I will explain what happened on Friday.I had been upset about Gavin being ill and I thought he was going to die.On friday I started the program lik... Mon, 14 Apr 2008 19:57:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/976504 Sun, 13 Apr 2008 20:57:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/975900 hello everyone, i am writing from the hospital, Gavin is in the hospital. I quit the program it may be temporary im not sure.I am just glad Gavin is alright.He has a staph infection.I asked Jesus not to take him away yet and He didnt. Sun, 13 Apr 2008 16:06:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/957562 Last night was rough.I amlost threw up everything I had ate and the instant breakfast-not on purpose.Heres a tip I found works for such situations, if you take a paper towel or towel and wet it down with cold water and like pat your face and neck down for some reason it helps to not throw up.Jesus h... Sun, 06 Apr 2008 20:54:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/954322 Well I started the program.Its been a rough week, ups and downs.I have met a lot of cool people and am learning a lot.Sorry that I cannot give more updates but I get home later and am not online as much.They have a nice chaplan come to meet with me and talk about God which helps.She said that God wi... Sat, 05 Apr 2008 12:24:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/945082 I feel mad, i know its because im stressed about the ED program tomorrow.And I found a video in my youTube box that makes me mad.Its hard to explain.EVERYTHING I do is wrong.Why did God make me if everything I do is wrong.whats the point?Aparrently my emotions are even wrong.I will probably even fai... Tue, 01 Apr 2008 20:32:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/939760 Someone prophesided(sp?) today in church.It scared me but God said through the person that the same Spirit that raised Him would be poured out now, or something.sorry i cant remember all of it.Oh and the sermon just happened to be about the Holy Spirits work of like speaking in tounges and prophesey... Sun, 30 Mar 2008 21:57:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/937003 Yesterday was rough.Its not normal to hate eating.I want to be normal.I sat weeping into my spaghetti.The only reason why I can eat, especially the blasted cake is because I picture Jesus at the kitchen table telling me" just one more bite, just one more bite...."Its not normal to hate eat... Sat, 29 Mar 2008 18:34:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/932435 Today was my psychiatrist appointment.Tuesday my dad is bringing me to the hospital to the ED intake reg. to at least schedule an appointment since I have been unable to get through the phone.And she said to make an appointment with one of the spine surgeons I saw here in Maine.So things are getting... Thu, 27 Mar 2008 21:44:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/928498 Hello everyone:)Well I feel stupid, you know when God tells you something but you either dont do it or try to ignore it? well I did that again today.I have been having trouble doing what He wants.I wanted to go to sleep again this morning but He told me no and I got mad and cranky.But I found out th... Wed, 26 Mar 2008 13:04:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50642/journal/921468 Hello all:) I went to church today it was good and then me,Micayla,Tashina and my nephew Gavin went to my nanas house:) It was a great day:)They had a lot of good songs at church about Jesus and the sermon was good but I cant remember all of it,lol :) They were talking about how many people witnesse... Sun, 23 Mar 2008 21:27:38 +0100