Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 03:20:32 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/female.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/50455 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/547849 Well, well...I bet ya'll never thought you would hear from me again.  I guess everyone figured out I fell off the wagon.  I havent quite deceided to get back on.  Things seem to be under control for now.  I am scared.  More scared everyday.  I know that I am going t... Wed, 24 Oct 2007 17:01:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/400321 I feel like such a jerk.  I told my son's father that he could see him today when I got off work.  I told him that he could met us at Toys R Us.  After thinking long and hard about my son and the situation, I came to the conclusion that it may not be a good idea.  In the past... Sat, 25 Aug 2007 11:29:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/335158 I starting writting to a friend on here and before I knew it I had written a lot of my story.  I wanted to share it with yall.  Take from it anything that you think could possibly help you and leave the rest.   I havent started working any steps.  My sponsor wanted me to get... Sun, 29 Jul 2007 11:53:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/331139 I am doing okay.  I havent had much to write about lately.  Working crazy hours this weekend and I will not be able to make a meeting or be at the Speaker Jam.  I am glad to be getting the hours but I do miss my home group meetings.  It looks the same for next week.  I only ... Fri, 27 Jul 2007 13:15:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/316789 I have not shared in my journal all week and I am not sure why.  I have not been to a NA meeting since Wed afternoon bc of my work schedule this week.  I need to go to a meeting.  Things are going pretty good I guess.  I still feel like shit when I am at home but luckly I havent ... Sat, 21 Jul 2007 17:33:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/304352 Okay, Okay.....I get it!!  I am so stubborn, maybe I will learn someday.  I dont like him anymore...not as a boyfriend anyway.  There is so many things that is so different about us.  I mean in the beginning I saw only our simularites now I see the shit that I dont like and I am ... Mon, 16 Jul 2007 18:21:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/297660 Its Friday the 13th.  I am totally bored here at work.  My sponsor just stopped by on her way home from work to say Hey and she brought me a chocolate bar.  That means so much to me.  That someone goes out of thier way to see about me.  I said a prayer and thanked God for al... Fri, 13 Jul 2007 19:19:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/295411 I have been doing okay.  I had the day off from work yesturday and I didnt do much.  I got up early and cut the grass then was pretty much useless the rest of the day.  I feel as though I am just exsisting when I am at home.  I hate my life when I just sit around.  At the sa... Thu, 12 Jul 2007 21:17:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/287477 I appreciate all the suggestions about my relationship with D.  I will take it all into consideration.  I was in an awful place in my head yesturday.  It all started with a phone call from my mother.  She made the comment that I acted like I didnt have a son.  I feel like a ... Mon, 09 Jul 2007 18:50:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/284082 I wish you all knew me a little better.  Ya'll I have gone 1 1/2 years without someone special in my life.  I am lonely.  I really like this guy and he is not a bad guy.  Yeah, he is a guy and sometimes guys dont stop and think how something might make others feel but he real... Sun, 08 Jul 2007 09:31:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/282354 So where did I leave off.....I think I was saying how D went to an out of town meeting with his ex girlfriend from the program and tried to make me think that several of them were riding together.  Several of them went but D and S rode together alone.  That is wrong.  He know damn goo... Sat, 07 Jul 2007 11:59:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/280745 There is so much going on in my chaotic life.  Never a damn dull moment.  Where do I start?  I guess with the phone call that I got from my ex last night telling me that he didnt need to participate in a 12 step program to stay clean.  I know he isnt clean but whatever.  He ... Fri, 06 Jul 2007 15:58:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/276515 Hey Yall...Happy 4th!  I had a great day.  D went to my family function with me and came to work with me until his ride got here to pick him up to take him to the meeting.  I am not going to see him until Saturday night and I am going to miss him bad.  My family loved him.  ... Wed, 04 Jul 2007 19:23:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/269994 i have been doing a lot but have not much felt like typing.  i went to the lake with "d" that is what we will name the guy that i am seeing in NA so i dont always have to refer to him as the NA guy and so i dont destroy his annonymity in case someone from our meetings were to read thi... Sun, 01 Jul 2007 21:07:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/258445 Well, things seem to have settled down at work.  Yesturday I had a pretty shitty day.  I woke up feeling like shit and deicded to go to see a friend in a nearby town in my car without air conditioning (it was about 100 degrees with a heat index of 110) and got really hot on the drive and w... Tue, 26 Jun 2007 13:12:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/251866 I am so mad.  I didnt want to come to work today....I wanted to stay at the lake and have fun and screw this place.  Thursday, the last day I worked, was not a good day here.  I realized a lot of unfair bullshit that goes on here and the manager had got in trouble for some stuff and a... Sat, 23 Jun 2007 11:56:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/236936 I am in a bad mood.  I feel so unhappy.  It kills me how I can go to from being on top of the world to feeling so low.  I dont want to be at work.  I need to be at a meeting.  I tried to manipulate my NA friend into coming up here to see me but surprisingly he acted like he ... Sat, 16 Jun 2007 19:18:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/235069 Howdy!!  I dont know why I get myself into the things that I do.  My son and I went over to "the guy's" house last night.  He is crazy about me.  Sometimes I feel like I am crazy about him too but sometimes I am not sure.  I dont want to change my mind about hi... Fri, 15 Jun 2007 19:36:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/232193 Heeyy Ya'll!!  I dont even know where the hell to begin.  I dont really remember where I left off.  I havent worked all week and I only get on here when I am at work.  Unfortunatly, I dont have a computer at home.  Monday afternoon my NA friend called me and said that he... Thu, 14 Jun 2007 13:39:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/50455/journal/222850   Good Morning Friends!!  Last night at my meeting, the witch that has a problem with me really made me uncomfortable.  I have to stop letting her make me feel like I have done something wrong.  She has no good reason not to like me.  I am a very likeable person and I know t... Sun, 10 Jun 2007 11:15:24 +0100