Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:13:45 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/5018/1213277381.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/5018 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/1181865     It has been over five months since my mom was torn from my life. I still feel like it happened yesterday. I can't get the image of her dead on my lap out of my head. I don't want to keep trying to go on if there is no change. I moved into an apartment. I go a roommate. I m... Fri, 11 Jul 2008 12:35:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/895035      On February 7, 2008 at approximately 7am I was in a car accident with my Mom. Although I only recieved minor cuts an bruises, my mother was killed. I'm lost without her. She took total care of me. I'm 27 years old and have never lived without Mom for more than 7... Thu, 13 Mar 2008 00:15:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/540226 Rhythmic wavesAdrift at seaNo one to hearOnly me UnincomberedYet still tied downIndependant, self motivatedStill wrapped and bound Dark is lightAnd night is dayNowhere to runStuck on the fray Sun, 21 Oct 2007 16:13:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/533977 Destination nowhere To far to goWaves are sloshingTo and fro What will becomeOf the boat overflowCapsize, shipwreckYet wind doesn't blow Wonder will wanderSee to seaLost in camotionAlone with me Thu, 18 Oct 2007 17:06:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/522390  It's October already! Wow! This week ends the first quarter for my mom's fifth graders. I've been volunteering in her classroom a lot of the time lately. It's the only thing I really enjoy right now. I'm still working on getting this computer fixed, so I apologize to anyone... Sat, 13 Oct 2007 19:35:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/426999  Still doing catch up on the internet. Just got my yahoo email box cleaned out!!! Yeah! I am visiting DS more often, but I'm still nowhere near close to reading all the messages I've missed out on from on here. I hope to have that done soon. I have been volunteering at the school m... Tue, 04 Sep 2007 17:28:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/378700  Hello all! I lost my internet access and that is why I haven't been on this site. I'm glad to be back, I've missed this wonderful support site! I hope all my friends are okay and doing well! Thu, 16 Aug 2007 16:11:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/130944 I got kicked out of my house for a while and that is why I have not been on here. I will be playing catch up because I missed my friends and want to know how all of you are doing. Right now I'm just trying to mend the relationship with my mom who just recently let me move back home with her. Sun, 22 Apr 2007 01:41:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/61731 I'm not at the 'horrible smiley' yet, but I'm pretty close. I feel like I've been living a roller coaster the last few days. That friend of mine that I pretty much wrote off and was told they weren't gonna have anything to do with me again -- yeah, well he called me up, forgave me and wanted to be f... Tue, 06 Mar 2007 01:14:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/56545 I just wanted you all to know that I'm not purpose ignoring you or this wonderful site. I have a lot of crap going on and haven't felt like fighting with my computer (which has been on the fritz) and have been really busy with issues around me here. I will be back to talk more later. Today is suppor... Thu, 01 Mar 2007 12:17:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/46083 My weekend was good, busy, and was NOT lonely. I spent a lot of time on the phone with someone very special to me. HE is the best and is really breaking down the barrier I have fortified around my heart! I rarely ever let any male in that is past puberty. I was on the phone with him sooo much my mom... Mon, 19 Feb 2007 21:36:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/43534 Hi everyone! I'm feeling better today. I'm glad the holiday is over! I had my 3rd group session yesterday. There were more people ther this time. Six members, including me, and the facilitator. I opened up about something painful and personal for the first time this meeting. Otherwise I showed v... Fri, 16 Feb 2007 23:42:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/40903 LOOK OUT ALL... I'M IN A BAD MOOD!!!!!!!!!! AND WHEN I'M IN A BAD MOOD, I HAVE A TENDANCY TO USED BAD WORDS, so... If your ears flame quickly don't read this journal entry!!! Click 'Back' now and save yourself!!! Holidays suck! They are the bane of my existance! Screw Valentine's Day! Lov... Wed, 14 Feb 2007 13:46:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/39347 I'm feeling better today. My emotions, over the friend that called that refused to speak to me for over two months, have evened out a bit. I missed his friendship soooo much. I had finally got to the point that I was okay with him not being in my life. Then, like a week after that...he calls acting ... Mon, 12 Feb 2007 23:17:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/37493 I'm confused! I gave up on having a friendship with a friend I lost after I had my crisis at the beging of December. It took me over a month to come to terms with him not being in my life anymore and I still hurt about the loss. Then, out of the blue, today he calls me up asking for help with som... Sat, 10 Feb 2007 22:34:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/36001 I went to my second group session yesterday. I had soooo much anxiety leading up to the meeting I felt like my pic on here! I had troulble sleeping and then it was like my insides were on fire all day. For me, I just can't go to the group you see. I don't live on a bus route (not that I would be ab... Fri, 09 Feb 2007 07:00:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/32335 I'm proud to say I attended my first ever local support group last Thursday! I even stayed for the whole 2 hour meeting! Wow! I even impressed myself. The female facilitation was nice and there were only 2 other people at the meeting...that's what made me able to stay the whole time. I was given a ... Mon, 05 Feb 2007 04:24:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/28540 I have not been on here in a while! I have finally fully recoved from my physical illness! I'm so glad about that I could cry. I was sick since the end of November last year and it took me until about a week ago to get healthy. I am very thankful I am now able to expend a decent amount of energy be... Wed, 31 Jan 2007 02:49:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/16967 I'm really not having a good day. Yestday I overheard something I wasn't meant to here on a voicemail left for me on Wednesday (which was my birthday) and I had a huge panic attack. As I have said previously, I have lost friends over my problems. Most I have gotten over but one I still miss him te... Fri, 12 Jan 2007 10:32:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/5018/journal/8357 Joining Daily Strength has really helped me. Being able to reach out to other who understand what I'm going through is a big help. The amount of responce I got once I joined was a bit overwhelming but it was also wonderful. I'm having a bit of a rough day. I physically exhausted most of the weeke... Mon, 18 Dec 2006 01:43:27 +0100