Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:52:26 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/49591/1213250962.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/49591 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/1260887 My husband and I are doing much better...we do everything together now.  We wash the dishes together, fold laundry together, bla bla bla.  It is kind of nice...just wish I might get a little sex sometime and not have to wait another year and a half that it has been.  He has not quit d... Sat, 23 Aug 2008 17:49:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/1215986 He makes me feel like I am not supposed to be sick....I told him tonight..."It is sad that because you cannot see or hear my sickness that it does not exist, You do not know my daily struggle with the high pitch screeching in my ears every day  some days worse than others."  He k... Tue, 29 Jul 2008 00:26:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/1213187 Well, I love my new job...I was the best in my training class.  Even was the only one who got 100% on the final.  We start on our new desks on the floor tomorrow...now out of training.  I am taking catalog orders on the phone for facilities maintainance, hotels, and property managemen... Sun, 27 Jul 2008 15:24:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/1143546 I have not been on for a while because I have been diligently concentrating on that elusive job search.  Hooray, it has finally paid off.  I finally got a job, I start next monday!!!  I am so excited, I just hope that I do not get sick for any reason for a long time.  I would lik... Tue, 24 Jun 2008 03:21:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/1061205 I am hanging in there at the moment.  I made it through the 1 yr anniversary of my mommys passing, my husbands 40th birthday, mothers day, my sisters 5th surgery, and today is my neices 15th birthday.  Now if I could just get a job...all would be much better...it will happen when it is mea... Sun, 18 May 2008 15:33:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/1040999 Well, it is coming up on 1year for my little mommys passing....she passed on Mothers day last year.  I have been fighting the depression for a couple of weeks.  I also have horrible frustration over not finding a job, money troubles, stress from my husband over me not finding a job (and he... Fri, 09 May 2008 19:18:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/977151 I have not been on DS for a while, I have been looking for a job...and just trying to function through the days.  I had a little bout of Ebay addiction for a few weeks and got a bunch of Disney/Tinkerbell collector pins...but that got old quick when I am unemployed and running up a credit card ... Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:44:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/906188 I was really sick with a bad cold the week before last, in fact I am still congested, etc from it.  Last week I had 2 interviews with stupid staffing agencies, what good that does me...I am tired of staffing agencies, I want to interview with a real company.  I am going to a career fair ne... Mon, 17 Mar 2008 17:35:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/852054 I feel so lost today, not having to go to work...I was just getting used to going every day.  I am so heartbroken over the whole thing...but I knew it was a "temp" job, I should not have gotten so attached.  But I was just so darn sure that they were going to hire me dammit!!!... Mon, 25 Feb 2008 18:31:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/845236 I have been feeling really good about myself and toughing it out being sick and back out in the working world...then my world got shattered today.  I was on a temp to hire position that I really liked!! I really hoped that they would hire me, I thought that they might, everything was going so w... Sat, 23 Feb 2008 00:42:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/823993 I came home sick from work today at noon...I had a really bad headache that made me nauseas.  I came home and took a compazine and fell asleep for a couple hours...it was nice to crawl in bed in the afternoon on a rainy day and take a nap!!  The weather got really bad after I got home and ... Fri, 15 Feb 2008 02:34:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/817598 It sucks when no one really knows that you are suffering from a disability that is not visible or audible to them.  My ears are screeching, and no one can hear it but me!!!  I have been back to work over 3 weeks now after being off for 15 months trying to get used to the screeching, but I ... Tue, 12 Feb 2008 21:35:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/804434 Yeah, I get to sleep in tomorrow.  Booo, I have to go get a flexible sigmoidoscopy.  I can't eat anything since lunch this afternoon...until after noon tomorrow...dammit.  In fact, it's time for me to go drink the crap that is gonna make me crap...and turn everything inside me... Thu, 07 Feb 2008 21:08:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/796299 I have been feeling drained, working with my tinnitus is exhausting.  But when I am working I try to ignore it and not notice it.  I went to Disney Princesses on Ice friday night, and I slept until 1:30pm on saturday.  It rained all day sunday...then back to work today.  Wow, I f... Tue, 05 Feb 2008 00:12:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/776798 Well, the new job is going ok...I actually take over the desk tomorrow.  The boss has been sitting with me the past few days, won't let me do any work without watching me...which is kind of cool to make sure I am doing everything right.  The work I am doing is all stuff I have done bef... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 21:15:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/763879 Work is going ok, they are easing me into the job which is really cool.  The person I am taking over for is still there til the 1st.  I heard they usually do not hire anyone until the person is gone, so I feel lucky.  They have had me sitting with other people and watching them work, ... Thu, 24 Jan 2008 01:43:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/756673 Well, I went to my last Group session today....unless I get any Mondays off and can go.  I am really going to miss the group, and the support.  My therapist said she has some 5pm appointments available, but the first available one is not until feb 25th.  Unless I call and can get any ... Mon, 21 Jan 2008 18:05:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/748876 Yeahhhhhh, I got a job.  BOOOOOOOOOOOO, it is auto insurance claims again.  But it is not the stress that Geico had, so I should be ok.  I am just doing medpay/pip, so I won't be handling disputed claims-those are what bothered me the most.  I have a friend who works in the u... Fri, 18 Jan 2008 16:47:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/743565 16 days smoke free also for both of usI have been tempted a few times though Wed, 16 Jan 2008 18:40:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49591/journal/743560 So things are not going so well for me at the moment.  My husband and I NEVER argue, we always get along.  This weekend, he started treating me like a total piece of shit because I have not found a job yet...and keep borrowing money from credit cards.  At least we have the resources t... Wed, 16 Jan 2008 18:38:11 +0100