Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:12:47 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/49052/1228008960.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/49052 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1409012 so today I went to thedoctors and they told me that... one. I have small kidneys for someone my age. and two. that my kidney might not be working and that is why I am in so much pain!!!! I won't be able to take the test to see the kidney in question is working until FEBUARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tue, 02 Dec 2008 20:21:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1392802 Wed, 19 Nov 2008 22:23:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1370041  I had one of the worst ED day that I have had in a long long time! I only ate my dinner! and I took 4 squares of exlax butI took 2 doses of miralax! I now realize what I did was sooo wrong! I wish I realized this before I did it! I hope I never have a day like today ever again!  Mon, 03 Nov 2008 23:49:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1368404 today i thought of killing myself 18 times!!!! it was a very bad day! (dont ask y) i managed to eat 2 meals today! yay me! I pray tomorrow goes well!!!!!!!  Sun, 02 Nov 2008 22:01:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1366097 I am having a hardtime today I had soup and then wanted to purge sooo bad! I didn't purge so I am really happy I won against the voices! whoa to me! I ate 2 meals today!! well if u call soup a meal! at least I had a meal and a sorta snack!  Sat, 01 Nov 2008 00:46:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1363472 So today I had therapy and I had to go to my dietian too. I told my therapist that I have been lying on my food journal!!!! I refused to agree to tell my dietian and so my therapist told her before I even got to that office!(only 30 minutes apart usually) But I didnt get into trouble they said it is... Thu, 30 Oct 2008 01:16:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1360591 Im going to start my food plan count on wednesday! Tue, 28 Oct 2008 00:58:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1360585 I took a huge risk today! I talked to my mom about my voices and what they tell me to do! It felt so good to talk to her about them! My mom gave me a purple jacket for being honest with her! ( to help me get over my fear of talking about my emotional stuff! or at least that is what my therapist says... Tue, 28 Oct 2008 00:51:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1359036 I made it through the weekend! It was so relaxing! minus a few minor things but its no big deal. I got to go see hsm3! it was awesome and I am glad that I got to go with my friend. I should be proud that I followed my food plan for 2 days but im in pain! I didnt even eat a "regular size" m... Mon, 27 Oct 2008 00:28:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1336529 Today I purged a little after dinner and I am scared to tell my therapist because she said she will have to tell my mom if I keep purging because it is self injury. Should I tell her or should I just try harder to not purge and only tell if I can't control it? help me please! I know slip up... Fri, 10 Oct 2008 21:11:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1333584 I promised my ED team that I would eat 3 meals a day without  purging and than write how I feel right after. This is going to be a bad week!!!! Im so pissed off I don't wanna do it! I know I have to and I made a promise so I am going to follow through! I NEED ENCOURAGEMENT PLEASE SO I ... Wed, 08 Oct 2008 21:17:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1316340 I just wanted to let my friends know I have to keep a food journal and I decided to keep it on here so my friends might be able to support me if I have a tough day! Thanks! Sat, 27 Sep 2008 17:28:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/49052/journal/1313985 Fri, 26 Sep 2008 00:05:35 +0100