Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal Fri, 21 Nov 2008 17:08:21 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/female.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/48695 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/939677 Uh, I dont even know where to start.  I havent been online lately because I have been so busy with my life!!!  I have just had the craziest couple of month.  Ok, I will try to start at the begining.  First, my oldest daughter was diagnosed with a heart condition in late January.... Sun, 30 Mar 2008 21:16:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/731498 I have hurt someone I love completely with my careless words. Why do I do this to myself? I make life so much harder than it has to be sometimes. I say things I dont mean, that are mean spirited and just pain dumb. I dont want to be that person. I am not that person most of the time. It hurts ... Sat, 12 Jan 2008 12:32:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/543321 Have felt good the last couple of days.  I guess the medication is starting to work, more evenly.  I had quite a hard time the first two weeks, but am definately feeling much, much better. I wonder why it is that you feel fine for the longest time, and then all of a sudden the bottom ... Mon, 22 Oct 2007 21:08:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/529873 having a hard time tonight.  Weird symptoms this evening.  Tingeling in legs, back of my head hurts, general uneasiness.  Dont know if this could be related to the new meds.  If I am just panicing, or what.  I am so tired of not feeling good.  I would do just about anyt... Tue, 16 Oct 2007 23:57:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/528274 Joined the MS group last night.  I was told last year that I may have MS, there are two lesions on my brain.  I am hoping of course that this is not the case. However, I have come to realize that at least some of my anxiety is directly related to the symptoms that I have been having lately... Tue, 16 Oct 2007 11:25:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/524459 Made it through another week.  I am feeling a little better.  Still have a lot of anxiety, and derpession.  I went to the doctor and gave me some Prozac.  I was really determined to do this without meds. But for right now, I just cant.  I scared myself the other day.... Sun, 14 Oct 2007 20:30:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/510907 Feeling lost anxious and depressed.  I have been thinking lately that it would be easier on everyone if I just wasnt around anymore.  Know that's not the best for my kids or is it????Depression is bad, never felt like this before.  I cried so hard the other night, I thought I was ... Mon, 08 Oct 2007 22:57:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/479135 Wow, I guess  i havent been on here in a while.  Things are going well.  i have had quite a bit of anxiety on an off the past couple of weeks.  Always annoying, but I have made it through.Girls schedules are crazy, and I think we have may over done the extra activities.  Now... Tue, 25 Sep 2007 20:39:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/479134 Wow, I guess  i havent been on here in a while.  Things are going well.  i have had quite a bit of anxiety on an off the past couple of weeks.  Always annoying, but I have made it through.Girls schedules are crazy, and I think we have may over done the extra activities.  Now... Tue, 25 Sep 2007 20:39:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/436365 Made it through another week.  It was a busy week, the girls are back in school and things are busy again. Work was busy and hectic so I am really glad today is Saturday.I am still experiencing surges of adreneline, I guess that's what it is.  The feeling of being on a roller... Sat, 08 Sep 2007 09:34:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/425069 Hello everyone.  Well my weekend ended up being pretty good, considering how bad Thursday was.  We went to a birthday party on Saturday.  We didnt go to the amusement park like we had planned.  I just didn't want to spend 120.00 admission, and then have to turn around and lea... Mon, 03 Sep 2007 22:54:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/414585 Dear Panic and Anxiety,First let me start off by saying that  I really dont like either of you. I didnt ask you into my life, but yet here you are calling alot of the shots for me.  I keep you at bay as much as possible.  But then boom you are back, with a vengence.Dont you know I am ... Thu, 30 Aug 2007 16:15:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/406743 Its been a while.  I went on vacation to the beach last week, and that was fun.  Had absolutely no anxiety the whole week.   I did get a call back for the job I really wanted.  I actually drove home from vacation to take a personality test (yikes!!) as well as a second inter... Mon, 27 Aug 2007 21:52:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/373912 OK I am going to write about the underlying problem I am having at home.  My husband and I have'nt had sex in a good month.  I just don't feel like it ever....never.  Now this is causing a problem for us.  He talked to me about it tonight, and I just felt defensive. ... Tue, 14 Aug 2007 19:39:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/360076 I am really tired.  But I just had to add this to my journal.  I  got the highest score on the test!!!!  I got my results today.  Mind you I had a 75% average over all the parts.  But that was the highest score!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh happy day!!!!... Wed, 08 Aug 2007 23:23:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/357543 Well the test was today.  It was not just a typing test.  In was a 500+  question test.  On things such as excel(3 parts), word(3parts), windows (3 parts), internet (2 parts) payroll,  accounting theory, bank reconciliation, bank deposits, petty cash and a 20 minute typ... Tue, 07 Aug 2007 23:07:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/354382 Ok, so tomorrow's the typing test for the job that I really, really want.  So please everyone say a prayer that I can pass this thing.  I am not the best typist, but this is an accounting job, and I do know accounting. So I am not worried that I can't do this job well.  So eve... Mon, 06 Aug 2007 19:42:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/346221 So the work situation is again getting to be very uncomfortable.  Someone left our department and then came back.  Because she couldn't cut it in sales. So, she is back, is taking over some of my work which I so desperatley need.  BUT, now she is telling me that I dont do my job r... Thu, 02 Aug 2007 23:45:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/338410 Hey there everyone.  I have been so busy, that I havent had time to get online.  Anyway, I had a great week-end.  Took Friday off and went to an amusement park with my hubby kids, both of my sisters and thier families, and my mom and dad. We had fun, and it was great  to have an ... Mon, 30 Jul 2007 19:41:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/48695/journal/327152 I had a couple of interesting things happen the last couple of days.   First, I had been thinking of applying for a job I saw in the paper a while ago.  Well the deadline to apply was this past Monday.  I realized Saturday evening that I did not apply.  So I put together my ... Wed, 25 Jul 2007 20:33:42 +0100