Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:37:44 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/4759/1222922979.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/4759 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1324668 i need some advice or comments--i dont care if they are good or bad, pleasei just cant take this much stress right now without cutting; it's a sad fact, but that's how i handle it kind of.the problem is, both my arms are already scarred up really bad and i have shit healing there from last w... Thu, 02 Oct 2008 19:18:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1318323  so i just finished watching a show on BBC about this transexual woman like ME she was so miserable and suicidal too--like ME and then she started getting her surgeries to change her body and she began to change inside and out and became happier, wanting to live i watched it and ... Mon, 29 Sep 2008 03:18:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1295995 CLOSING MY ACCOUNT THANK U TO ALL THE COOL FRIENDS THAT I MET HERE--THAT SAVED ME FROM MOMENTS OF TERROR AND ALMOST DEATH. Tomorrow I am going back the the VA hospital to get my stitches out from when i was stupid on this past Wed.  That will be nice to get them out, OMG DO THEY ITCH... Sun, 14 Sep 2008 18:18:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1281221 omg, today i realized just how weak my legs are---- i walked around campus, full book bag and 2 other bags full of books---i walked all over that campus only to findo out the 1/2 my computer course is .5 mile away from y previous history class and then we have to walk another .o5 miles to the 2... Fri, 05 Sep 2008 03:03:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1279371 i feel like i have faught long enough for the rights of others as well as myself and i have almost had enough.i am transgender and get fucked over all the time for trying to be who i am inside--i am a pretty tgirl, but i am tall and have lots of self doubtself doubt is a killer in most facets of lif... Wed, 03 Sep 2008 23:39:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1277304 So today was my 1st day back to school---I debated with myself on even showing up today ---i had so much anxiety---i took 2 ativans and then took a cab to school---immediately, i saw 3 close friends and maybe 10 others that I knew from other classes.  So I felt better---the lines for supplies a... Tue, 02 Sep 2008 20:23:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1264130 so i had a few bad days last week--what's new with that right-- i went away and returned feeling bettter i am going to my parents pad tomrrow for a few days to help my Dad N Mom--he hurt himself like a dumbass while trying to start yard tools--he just got a new kidney about 3-4 weeks a... Mon, 25 Aug 2008 18:13:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1245542 so the last couple of days, I  have been out of control.  In fact, I have been  an asshole. i have pissed off or disappointed every friend that I have. another one of my roomates was so pissed off at me, that she came at me violently.   I have to wonder what t... Thu, 14 Aug 2008 15:00:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1241608 wow, deep question---im not gonna go to deep though, just a brief overview; going to deep i think would push me over the edge today:had a fairly decent childhood- good parents and great siblings--i was adopted by my Dad, so everything I did was never good enough for him--still to this day it's l... Tue, 12 Aug 2008 12:09:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1239834 So this is another "LESSON" that I had to learn the hard way: When to say LOVE or I love You to someone. Of course, me..I'm a fucking IDIOT-- WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I FAIL AT SOMETHING SO IMPORTANT TO ME; THAT I ALWAYS WANT  TO DIE---     ... Mon, 11 Aug 2008 13:24:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1233921 Feels like lighning running thru my veins.....i am still having massive problems with my legs.  I thought it would go away after I mostly catered to them and stayed off them.  DEEP MYSTERY---I don't get it....it pisses me off that I can't figure out what's wrong with my legs...... Fri, 08 Aug 2008 04:20:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1228439 Well I have been ignoring this journal for past 4 days cause i thought it would go away....but it is ever still constant----a numbness/tingling/almost like needles jabbing my skin ---and i cant feel my legs really-----it goes from my hips ---in the joints to my weak knees to my ankles that feel like... Tue, 05 Aug 2008 02:12:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1223179 Well---my life----it blows right now.i got in a fight with my friend lastnite because she has been ignoring me and the "needy mother fucker" in me just couldnt handle it.  U see, Im codependant and have this undersirable  need to be told i am loved or someone to say HI to me.... Fri, 01 Aug 2008 20:35:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4759/journal/1214907 omg, this hurts my heart. i am reading this with tears in my eyes. i wonder why it is that we/some of us veterans are suffering with this ptsd so bad. i am an ex paratrooper, something the army spent thousands of dollars on and i am one of these stats. i just got out of the psychiatric ward for atte... Mon, 28 Jul 2008 13:30:34 +0100