Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:14:20 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/46517/1213303401.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/46517 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/945467 Baahhhh... I can't stop binging.. it's been about 3 weeks now and my life is falling apart. Every night I feel like have a changing point and that I will wake up saying today I will start to eat right and take care of myself.. then as the day goes on I throw that all out the window again and... Tue, 01 Apr 2008 23:13:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/917520 I can't do this anymore! It's too hard! Sat, 22 Mar 2008 00:01:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/872203 This morning I feel like blah.. I look like I gained 5 lbs overnight.. which actually I think I did. I'm too afraid to step on a scale. Worst part, I leave for a cruise in 3 days! AHHH surrounded by beautiful tropics will be amazing, but not by all the food! And to top it off I have to put on a ... Tue, 04 Mar 2008 10:03:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/871582 It's weird to try to think that others don't have an eating disorder like I do.. how do you explain it to someone? First off it's so imbarising of a subject to address in the first place, and second iff when you get the balls to tell someone about it they have no clue what the hell the p... Tue, 04 Mar 2008 01:50:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/844757 So I strayed away from this website for quite some time.. please take me back girls!!!! as some of you might know I was dating a guy for a few years and just recently broke up with him. my eating disorder started because of him. he use to tell me how unattractive I was and I always thought I had to ... Fri, 22 Feb 2008 20:29:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/203229 Yesterday was a good day.. I ate great! Today I ate like a pig.. but I didn't binge.. which is good. I'm worried about tomorrow and saturday.. Relay For Life is tomorrow and that means I'll be up for 24 hours straight and there is always lots of junk food lying around.. I'm going to ... Thu, 31 May 2007 19:29:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/193444 Sorry I've been gone for so long.. I've been really busy and I was starting to think I could control this by myself.. I was wrong.. I gained another 5 lbs the last few weeks and I feel like shit.. I need something that is going to work! I'm out of suggestions.. I wish there was some way ... Sat, 26 May 2007 23:51:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/159630 Back to the drawing board on that one week.. I just got back from red lobester which was a big mistake.. i think i just have to try to avoid going out to eat all together.. just tell people i'm allergic to restaurants.. even though i work in one myself.. but those little cheddar biscuits sucked the ... Tue, 08 May 2007 22:03:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/157846 Yuck I still feel like crap.. I wish I had motivation to do anything right now.. I have stuff to study for and a paper to write.. I was hopping a guiltless gourmet brownie bowl would cheer me up and get me motivated, but it didn't.. even though it was delicious.. if you don't know what I'm talking a... Mon, 07 May 2007 22:35:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/157479 Today is going okay.. I don't feel like I have very much energy today at all, but besides that nothing really bad happened.. just feel kinda lousy.. It's probably from all the stress of finals week.. my first one was tonight and didn't go so hot, but if I study for the rest alot I should be able to ... Mon, 07 May 2007 19:07:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/154989 I was doing so good yesterday until I got home and all my friends were sitting around the table eating junk food... I was strong at first but then I gave in and started binging.. I ate triple what my body should have and am now over my calorie intake by 4,000. I feel like absolute shit this morning... Sun, 06 May 2007 08:11:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/153425 Just got home from back home... I did pretty bad.. Over by abut 2,000 calories, but atleast I didn't binge. My boyfriend and I had a long talk about it on my way outta Philly though leaving his house and he made me feel alot better. It's awesome to know that he really supports me and wants me to tal... Sat, 05 May 2007 01:39:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/150901 Alright I just had 2 small pita sandwiches and feel good.. Tonight I head back home and my mom already asked me to go out to eat after we both get out of work.. but I will make good choices and just get a small salad or soup, or tell her I can't go at all.. every time I go out to eat I start off by ... Thu, 03 May 2007 14:27:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/150649 This morning marks 2 days without a binge and I feel pretty good.. kinda scared for the weekend comming up, Friday- tomorrow is when everything usually starts to go to shit.. Hopefully I can make it through.. I'm heading home tonight I think and usually that's a big trigger for some reason... probab... Thu, 03 May 2007 11:35:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/148761 Last night was awful.. I think I overloaded on too many fruits and vegs during the day.. I went into food withdrawl from eating so much in one weekend to so little the next day. I got a wicked migraine and got really dizzy while I was in class.. I felt like I was going to pass out.. so I went home a... Wed, 02 May 2007 10:18:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/147005 Today is a new day.. I hated myself when I woke up in the morning and looked in the mirror... I just thought about how much I ate the night before and how gross I was.. today is a new day though like I said, so I put on some music and sang in the shower which made me feel a little better. I have sch... Tue, 01 May 2007 11:14:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/46517/journal/146290 This weekend was awful. I couldn't control myself for the last 4 days and today was the worst. It seems like once I start eating something bad I can't stop, But trying to avoid food that is bad for me doesn't work either because it makes me want it 100 times more. I need to get back on track and nee... Mon, 30 Apr 2007 22:50:14 +0100