Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:43:01 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/gallery/bfly_03.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/4598 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/192334 To all my friends,I just got out of the hospital yesterday afternoon and I am doing good now.I feel like I let everyone down because of what I have done.I don't know how to get past the fact that I tried to end my life.It is so hard to go into my bedroom and look at my bed where I did this.The g... Sat, 26 May 2007 09:58:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/166860 I want to wish all my friends a very Happy Mother's Day.I hope that you all have a very relaxing and restful day because you deserve it.I will write again when I am felling better.Love and big hugs to all my friends on DS. Sun, 13 May 2007 12:11:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/157855 I feel like I really messed things up bad this time.I had a really bad weekend.I had such terrible back pain and I was very moody and spent most of the weekend in bed.My back hurt so bad and I was out of my pain medication so I took a muscle relaxer and I rarely take them because I hate the way they... Mon, 07 May 2007 22:39:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/146776 I just don't know what to say or think any more.All these ups and downs.I want to get off this darn rollercoaster.As soon as I am better then boom something else goes wrong.The Urgent Care called me yesterday afternoon and said that the culture came back and I have a Staph infection and she said tha... Tue, 01 May 2007 08:51:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/140768 I want to thank all my friends for being there for me in my time of need.I am still not fully out of that black hole but I sure am trying to get out of it.I am sorry that I have not written thanks or returned hugs back to everyone but this is my first day back on here in a couple of days.I have chec... Fri, 27 Apr 2007 14:31:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/140625 Well I just found out that we get insurance on May 5.The girl at my husbands job made a mistake on the paperwork and she fixed it today.That makes me feel better knowing that I can go to a doctor soon.I have 2 more small lumps coming in again and this is starting to scare me.They did a culture on th... Fri, 27 Apr 2007 13:00:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/140161 I am sorry to make all my friends worry about me.I didn't do anything stupid even though the thought was there and still is there.Yesterday I had another lump under my arm near my armpit but in a different spot so I called my primary doctor and the nurse first said that I would have to have a t leas... Fri, 27 Apr 2007 08:35:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/137852 I am so lost and so depressed that I don't want to go anymore.I am sorry but these are my real feelings.I want to die. Wed, 25 Apr 2007 22:27:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/137329 I can't take this shit anymore.My f-ing doctor won't call me in any more pain meds until I see him and I don't have insurance for another week or 2 and I cannot live in this kind of pain and I won't.I am just so mad at the whole world right now.That is it.I have had it and I am sick of trying. Wed, 25 Apr 2007 17:20:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/135517 Well I cleaned toys for my daughters preschool and it really wasn't that bad.My back is hurting really bad but I feel so good that I went over there and helped them out.It just makes me feel so good.I told them that I would love to help out again so the director was happy that I said that and she as... Tue, 24 Apr 2007 17:18:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/134970 Well I am getting ready to take my daughter to preschool.I have to stay there today and clean toys.I really don't want to do this because I am already so tired but I have to.I can't back down now.They are keeping Courtney in there and we can't afford to pay them.This weekend was pretty bad.I wrote a... Tue, 24 Apr 2007 12:05:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/131277 I hope that everyone is having a nice weekend.I am starting to feel better.That lump is going away now.It was draining all day yesterday and it is very small today so I am not going to worry about it.Thanks very everyones comments.We had to take pur dog Maggie to the vet for a checkup.We were trying... Sun, 22 Apr 2007 10:39:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/126179 I am feeling so sad and lonely today.I feel like the walls are closing in on me and I don't care.I am sick of this shit.One day I am ok and then the next day I want to just die.I can't live like this.My doctors office is ignoring me because I don't have insurance yet.I have a hugh lump my my right a... Thu, 19 Apr 2007 09:43:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/120642 Well believe it or not I am still sick.I did go babysit today.I know that everyone advised me not to and believe me I did not want to go.My husbands cousin runs a childcare service in her house and her mom had to go to the doctor and she wanted to hear what the doctor had to say because her mom does... Mon, 16 Apr 2007 13:48:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/118778 Well I am fighting a losing battle with this cold or whatever I have.It has been over a week now and everyday I seem to feel worse.My immune system is weak so I can't get rid of colds as fast as I used to.I just feel like total crap today and then my husband left to go to a friends house and he coul... Sun, 15 Apr 2007 13:51:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/109970 Well it has been a good morning so far.I am doing much better emotionally.I have been trying to stay positive and focosed and it really helps to have such great friends here on DS.I have thsi cold that is kicking my butt today but I can deal with it.My daughter Courtney is getting it and that makes ... Tue, 10 Apr 2007 10:12:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4598/journal/107482 Well today was not a very good day at all.I woke up with a bad sore throat and then my daughter was being a real pain at 6:30 this morning.I wanted to let my husband sleep in but she kept on talking and asking to come downstairs and finally he got up because he could not go back to sleep.My hubby an... Sun, 08 Apr 2007 20:41:36 +0100