Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:12:17 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/45845/1213329242.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/45845 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/453599 well a lot of shit has been going on. since i cant really cut any more i have replaced it and i know that is what i am doing but i dont know why i cant stop. so any ways. on thursday i went to hang out with this guy and i gave him head no big deal. but he wanted to fuck me and i told him that i wasn... Sat, 15 Sep 2007 12:01:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/302395 well i went driving today, like i do when im depressed, and i found myself driving off the road going off the cliff. and all of a sudden something snaps and i trun the wheel and miss the cliff. i didnt even realize that i was driving off. i guess subconciouslly i want to die and conciouslly i do wan... Sun, 15 Jul 2007 23:16:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/278501 i forgot to take my meds for two days and those two days were so fucking good. now that i am back on them my world is completely upside down. i hate these things what is the point of them if they dont do anything but make you fatter. well they havent made me fatter but they are supposed to which sca... Thu, 05 Jul 2007 17:02:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/272676 well i fucked up. i went so long with out cutting and i did it again. i dug a hole into my arm. opps im not sopposed to focus on what i did. my doctor is still triping out and still has me come in 2 times a week. i havent been able to see the doctor that gives me drugs. apparntly he is to busy for m... Tue, 03 Jul 2007 00:30:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/230396 well i havent cut in a while. but im picking the scabs so it will bleed again. lol. thats all i have to say. still its making progress. Wed, 13 Jun 2007 17:55:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/217141 hello, well i got put on these meds while i was in the hospital and i never really got any of the side effects in there. well i  might have i just dont remember much from being in there. which scares me. like i remember most of the people and how i was terrified the hole time i was in there. bu... Thu, 07 Jun 2007 13:37:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/203612 well i got back from the psyc ward yesterday. i was in there for a bout a week. i dont really remember anything from it. Thu, 31 May 2007 22:30:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/179658 its gone from a whatever day to wow i need to cut my self day. and it sucks cause i have gone the whole day with out cutting and now im just gonna have to. one little word or word not said can make me feel this way. i dont understand why it effects me so much. why cant i just say whatever and go on... Sun, 20 May 2007 01:06:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/175328 well today was a break from the bad. i got an "a" in english class for the whole simester. al though i dont feel like i deserve to be happy from it. i dont know why usually im excited when i get good grades but today im kind of sad about it. any way, then i got my braclet back from the swaroski cr... Thu, 17 May 2007 18:04:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/173239 im such a pyhic. i knew today would be horrible so i wasnt expecting any thing but bad and everything that could go wrong went wrong. so i woke up at 6.30 this morning and couldnt go back to sleep. but i did at around 8 then i woke up at 9 and called my boss mike because that is what i supposed to d... Wed, 16 May 2007 17:48:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/171856 nerves nerves nerves i feel it comming. i think im gonna have a panic attack. i dont know what to do. im just gonna have to breath. breath breath breath. Wed, 16 May 2007 00:03:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/171771 note to self: so i was completely right. today my day sucked more than yesterday and it just gonna get worse i can feel it. hopefully all the shit will be over by sunday and i would have made it out still breathing. one can any hope though.i just want one week shit one day even where everything is ... Tue, 15 May 2007 23:14:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/169736 i guess i should write something. life is blah at the momment. i guess that is nothing new. im planning on this week being really bad. i have a theripist app on wednesday so i know thats just gonna fuck up my week. yey. Mon, 14 May 2007 23:35:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/163283 today was a great day. eveything went really good today which is really surpising. all of you know how that goes though. i only thought about sucide once. yey hura. so exiting i know. its down like 60%. so im feelin amazing. lets see what good happend today. i went to school and i have all A's the... Thu, 10 May 2007 23:22:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/160735 PENIS Wed, 09 May 2007 13:54:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/159907 poop Wed, 09 May 2007 00:56:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/156275 this site is annoying me. its like everyone on here you can relate to but its only through letters. i mean its better than nothing. but i just wish i can find some one that is like next door that i can talk to like this. it all to messy in a way. just a thought. Mon, 07 May 2007 00:58:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/154782 my day was good. yey. i have to go to work tomorrow. i get off at 2 and then im going shopping which is nice. something about buying something new makes me feel good for a bit. then of corse i feel pretty when i wear it. so then the happiness continues. i know such a girl. the sad part of my day w... Sun, 06 May 2007 01:03:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/153156 i met a person. and they go through the same things that i do . but when i talk to them it seems like they dont really care to much. it feels like i am bothering them. i dont know maybe its just my wierd ass anxiety about people. they could just not have time to get back to me. they could have a lif... Fri, 04 May 2007 22:03:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/45845/journal/151291 well. i cut only a few in my ancle. but the flesh there doesnt feel as good as my upper arm so i went back to it. i think i might have cut a little to deep. but its fine now i sewed it up with some string. i dont know if i want to go to the hospital or not. i really dont want to. but i know i should... Thu, 03 May 2007 19:09:55 +0100