Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 03:03:09 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/gallery/butterfly.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/4547 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/52638 I have been working on me for over a week. By that I mean I am going within and trying to figure out why I have created the life I have. I am determined to change ALL the energy I have been putting into the world. I AM going to turn this around I have stopped worrying about my future, because I a... Mon, 26 Feb 2007 08:36:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/44759 Thanks guys, made it through the week and guess what the cycle is breaking finally got paid a little on something. Now if the snow storm will lift in the West I will have my new contract with the firm I have to share an odd experience this week. A friend called me and said turn on the TV and it was... Sun, 18 Feb 2007 14:54:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/41746 Well I made it thru V day. Now the next think is to keep up the hope. Maybe I will get paid in the next week and be able to keep my elec. on maybe the contract from the new firm will come thru and I will get my pay from them. All we have sometimes is hope. I must keep hope at all costs. Thu, 15 Feb 2007 09:25:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/40492 I am up at 2 am can't sleep. I am still waiting on pay and contracts. Seems like an eternity. Worst is that I married what I thought was the love of my life two years ago today. I have neve been rejected like this ove and over by my ex. The pain is never ceasing. The biggest obstacle of my lif... Wed, 14 Feb 2007 01:56:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/38323 first of all I got great news. The firm I was waiting to call finally called with a contract. I am going to be OK Now if I can get past my heart. Valentine's weekend 2 years ago I married what I thought was my best friend. HE turned out to be a creep. He has done nothing but break my heart over and... Sun, 11 Feb 2007 22:36:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/26096 Today is SAt. I am Ok at have food, heat and a roof still and I have decided that I must make changes, Sitting and waiting is not the answer, I have given both firms enough time. If they come thru they come thru. INsanity is doing the same thing over and over, I can't go anywhere, so when my upset s... Sat, 27 Jan 2007 11:34:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/25352 ps I can understand my friends frustrations by now, but it has only been two months and if it were them I would be doing everything to help them so I could get my friend back. Not waliking away and turning my back. I thought that was what friends were for. Guess in times of trouble you find out who... Fri, 26 Jan 2007 08:39:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/25348 I went to a board meeting with a friend last night and she knows my situation. I am still waiting on answers from both firms. I am not looking for someone to bail me out, I am looking for someone to help me sit down and find solutions, sometimes you are so close to the fire and are in panic that you... Fri, 26 Jan 2007 08:35:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/24035 WEll this is it The last of the last. My life will either go one way or another at this point. I am sick of it. I can't take it anymore. I should have known better. I should have known better than to be independant with as crazy as my relationship with Andy was and as shaky as my life had been I... Wed, 24 Jan 2007 08:08:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/22914 I am at my wits end. I still don't have any answers. My landlord is pissed and I have bills due at the end of the week. I thought I had a good resource to bridge the gap but looks like they are in their own world. I may hear today or tom. The waiting is worse than just knowing I am on the street. I ... Mon, 22 Jan 2007 15:22:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/21634 Hi everyone. Passed one more level of levels whatever that means. So the firm says. Hey Kev. I am fighting and fighting Today I go pack up my office and I am going to do it with dignity even thought I want to punch this idiot in the face, I have to tust that there is KArma and she really is cluel... Sat, 20 Jan 2007 08:35:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/19642 WEll up and at em . I am up at midnight. Hopign I can go back to cleep I must I have a big day tom. I am avoinding thingking about what I must if I did I would really lose my mind. BUt sometimes I go into panic and start to say Oh crap what ami going to do............... Tue, 16 Jan 2007 23:56:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/19529 Ok I am talking to the wind agian. I don't know what I have done, but Ihave made everyone in my life from my landlord to my neighbors to my friends mad at me. I haven't deliberately tried. actually the opposite. I give up. Maybe I need to give up. Maybe that is it I am going to have to. The firm s... Tue, 16 Jan 2007 21:18:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/19528 Ok I am talking to the wind agian. I don't know what I have done, but Ihave made everyone in my life from my landlord to my neighbors to my friends mad at me. I haven't deliberately tried. actually the opposite. I give up. Maybe I need to give up. Maybe that is it I am going to have to. The firm s... Tue, 16 Jan 2007 21:18:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/17983 OK guys, could really use the feed back on the friend situation. Here goes. I am doing better. I have a date. yuck. Idon't wnat to do this. But I am making myself, can't afford the gas, but told this guy I will meet him for a tennis match on the beach. I am terrible. But I have made up my mind t... Sun, 14 Jan 2007 10:54:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/17633 I have been taking a very hard look at my life lately. This week I had another close friend turn on me because of money and business. She had insisted on giving me her mortgages and some small brokerage accounts. I tried every way I could and spent countless hours working on them. There was no way ... Sat, 13 Jan 2007 17:18:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/16714 Still waiting and dropping to my knees. I am fighting though and fighting. Today I got up and meditated. I was proud of the way I handled myself today at work, even though I lost my temper with the person letting me go. She really is an idiot. I apologized and knowingly I moved back to my clients. ... Thu, 11 Jan 2007 20:33:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/15464 Day two in waiting. This is getting to be too much. Tom. I am taking off again. I am getting calls from prospects that I started over a month ago. and whether I have a firm or not I am going after it. I figure if I can't be licensed, maybe I can sell it to someone as a consultant. someone is going t... Tue, 09 Jan 2007 15:03:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/14836 They say waiting is like watching a and waiting on a pot to boil. I am at home sick to my stomache again. I am sooooooooo concerned at this point. I am usually a take charge person, but I am at a loss as to what to take charge of right now. I completed everything for the other firm, I have a 50/50 c... Mon, 08 Jan 2007 10:51:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/4547/journal/14087 Calling all angels I got up today with some fight in me. I am on the verge of losing my apt. and only have $l0. bucks I have wallowed in my self pity to the point of letting my clients and comm. drop to this level, even knowing I was in a building stage and couldn't afford this. I ahve been realize... Sat, 06 Jan 2007 12:14:56 +0100