Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:28:13 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/female.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/44328 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/1403796 this is killing me inside me, i hate this,,,i wish i wasnt so fat and ugly,,,,this is trully killing me inside,,i dont know what to do, i dont know why this is giving me so much trouble,,,i am usally not like this, i am called a cold hearted bitch for a reason,,i dont care about poeple, exspecailly ... Fri, 28 Nov 2008 15:25:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/1290873 well ya i ve been single for a while and i am proud i ive stoped going from guy to guy like i use to...ive had a break and started thinking about my self respect more and why i acted like that. i am kinda glad that i chilled out for awhile it just proved to me that i dont have to have a guy to be wo... Thu, 11 Sep 2008 09:10:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/1051610 Wed, 14 May 2008 14:13:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/1004041 well ya i went to a friends house last weekend...lets call her b....well b's brother j has a mjor crush on me...well ya all of us were drunk and then well j when i was laying on the couch kepts trying to go down my pants..i said no 3 times and when he wouldent listen i fiannly took off and sat b... Thu, 24 Apr 2008 12:59:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/998674 Tue, 22 Apr 2008 13:54:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/998668 well ya guess what i got a new bf hes 12 years older then me its messed ya i know but hes nice and hes sweet and he respects me and he also literly saved my life ill tell more babout it later...just want to tell u that i am alright stoill around and doing a little better Tue, 22 Apr 2008 13:52:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/778581 hey its me again...guess what i am going o break up with my bf,,,i cant stand him everything he does anoyine me and also hes freaken 8 years older then me...thats not right thats like perdphile and stuff he just gets on my nerve to much...i cant remember why i agreed to go out with him in the first ... Tue, 29 Jan 2008 13:49:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/748105 Ya i oded yeststerd day not..purposly..anyways ya,,nuthing really new..getting sick of poeple putting me.down...actully thats kinda killing me....ya i know..a chick wants to fight me at school...mah..her fault..she started shit.suposinglyt i am scared..whichi isnt true,,ya well gone now Fri, 18 Jan 2008 11:01:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/736431 hey everyone..ya iam moving out of my house this frieday...i cant deal with this shit anymore..its to hard on me and everyone...i have a feeling that my parents really want me out of the house..they hate me..i still want to commit so bad that its not even funn.y..cut my wrist again..cant take anymor... Mon, 14 Jan 2008 10:24:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/726254 hey everyone i am still here dont worry...i dont know for how long thow. things are still shitty i want to commit more and more everyday..i just want to die but i am trying so hard not to..its like killing me isnide...my latest attempt failed... my little bro came home and stayed the night...though ... Thu, 10 Jan 2008 15:02:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/684767 hey this is probly going to be my last entry i am writing..i love you everyone but its to hard for me to keep on living i want to die..no one loves me and i am going to...tongiht or tommorow i am going to commit...i cant take it anymore...i have no reason to live and i just cant do it anymore...my l... Mon, 24 Dec 2007 21:22:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/655708 hey its me..i havent cut since  i cut pain and dead into my leg that one day...latlt i have stopped eating...ihate gettin called fat and its really pissing me off so i am losing weght that way,,,u dont care i am use to it...but hell i was spose to move out this weeek but i dint becouse i fainll... Tue, 11 Dec 2007 14:37:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/575183 things have changed for me so much...iam trying to find my place and my style but its like everyone hates me and i am getting sick of it so i am starting to ingnore em...its nme leave nme alone...its still huirts those like things ar hard enough withouth them getting harder...i want to cut so bad i ... Mon, 05 Nov 2007 11:08:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/485605 Right now i am in a void,,, i dont know what to do anymore....i am like empty...nuthing at all....i cut again...disspointed my boyfriend and my friends. they didnt say anything agsint it. they were just disspointed... that hurt more then anything else and it made me feel like crap even more... i... Fri, 28 Sep 2007 10:18:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/443335 hey its me agsint i hanvent wrote here in so long....i am pretty much on the turing piont...closit to either breaking down comply..i am on that thin line...life sucks...familys jerks and are giving me such a hard time....my friends are having so many problems that i i have to deal with and i hate de... Tue, 11 Sep 2007 09:03:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/161317 I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW...I AM SO HAPPY for the first time in a while..hheehe i guy i really like and lkikes me to but but never 3went out..asked me if i wanted to hang out with him after schooll...wer are doiung it this frieda.y...wish me luck I AM SO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY Wed, 09 May 2007 20:06:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/160723 i am so down right now..i can even thinkg...i cant dream..anything.. Wed, 09 May 2007 13:46:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/160572 i dont know if to fight this i need ppl to back me...i know i have them..and i know if i start it its going to have a chain effect i can tell..ppl will be divided i knnow that and i know there will be fights lots of fights but i accept that...should i fight it thow???? i am not sure...i want to i c... Wed, 09 May 2007 12:13:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/159036 okay i call mywself ice cold heart or cold heart things like that and say that i have no feelings but still i would never hurt a person like that not at all thats against everything i do and belivce in.. Tue, 08 May 2007 16:10:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/44328/journal/159033 he would dis me infront of his friends and never wowuld defend me..he would let secrets out and make fun of me like crazy..he would always pushme around anad try to control me and my life...when i told him this he loughed and said i was inmageinong thinkgs...uhhuh that wasnt it thpw...i would never ... Tue, 08 May 2007 16:08:39 +0100