Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:26:51 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/42852/1213249157.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/42852 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/898218 Another week has gone by, this year is going really fast.  Ash just finished her ACT's she said it will be about 4 weeks for the results hopefully she did really good cause it could mean money for college.  She is going to see if she can get a co-op job for her senior year, she has bee... Fri, 14 Mar 2008 09:36:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/853926 I just noticed I have not written in a while.    I guess that is because nothing has changed.  Still single, Ash is gone most of the time between work and friends.  I'm getting better with the being alone, I think alot of the depression right now is due to the weather he... Tue, 26 Feb 2008 11:59:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/781525 Its been awhile since I've written in my journal.  Things have been pretty stable lately not the extreme highs and lows I was feeling during the holidays.   I really think the holidays for me is like facing the fact that I'm not part of a couple.  All the commercials show... Wed, 30 Jan 2008 14:00:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/725421 Today is going better so far than the past few days.  Thanks to all for being supportive.  I'm so glad that I have all of you here for me through the good and bad times.  I don't know what I would do without you.  THANKS!!!!! Thu, 10 Jan 2008 09:25:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/721037 Why does everything have to change??? Why can't things stay the way you want them to be.  I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself yet again.  I'm sure everyone thinks I have a lot to be thankful for, but it seems to me that everyone else is happy but me.  ... Tue, 08 Jan 2008 19:10:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/704204 Well I survived being alone on New Years Eve. Spent most of it crying but I made it.  Maybe 2008 will be the year for me to find what i've been searching for.  Do I really know what is going to make me happy or is it just a dream that will never come true for me? Wed, 02 Jan 2008 15:54:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/698934 Why can't I be happy like other people are????????????????????????????????????    Am I a bad person????????? I really do try but it just seems that I alway get the short end of the stick.  Don't I deserve happiness, I'm always alone.  I'm so tired of being al... Mon, 31 Dec 2007 13:51:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/688387 Ash and I had a very nice Christmas.  I'm just glad it is over with.  I'm ready for the new year I keep praying that the new year will be the best for Ash and me.  I think i'm ready to find a man to start sharing things with.  I've been alone so long i'm not q... Wed, 26 Dec 2007 20:36:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/677537 Well its the Friday before Christmas where has the time gone.  I'm pretty much ready only need a couple of things yet and need to bake cookies.  Ash has off from McDonalds until 12/28/07 so we have this weekend to shop and bake.  Then after Christmas she is going to make the new y... Fri, 21 Dec 2007 12:59:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/670334 Its hard to believe that Christmas is next week.  Where has this year gone?  Ashleigh is half way through her Junior year already wow this summer we will have to get senior pictures taken, it just seems like yesterday I was putting her on the bus for the 1st day of kindergarten.  In r... Tue, 18 Dec 2007 12:47:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/661994 Why does everything have to be so hard?  Can't anything go smoothly?  I really want this holiday to be over, I've been trying really hard to get into the mood for Christmas for Ashleigh's sake, but it just seems like nothing can go right.  Yesterday I received a text messa... Fri, 14 Dec 2007 10:42:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/657413 I really wise friend just reminded me that I do have everything this year for Christmas.  I have my daughter, family and friends.  My Ash is here with me all the time I don't have to count down the days till she gets home and only be able to spend a few days with her before sending her... Wed, 12 Dec 2007 10:01:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/653634 finally almost 5 o'clock which means I get to go home and do some Christmas shopping.  Ash and I put the tree up on Saturday, but it still did not put me in the holiday spirit.  I really wish I would get out of the funk. Mon, 10 Dec 2007 16:54:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/646773 Well I got the estimate for the damage to my car and it is over $2800.  Ash had 23 xrays taken and has quite the black and blue forhead.  She is okay thank god just has to put up with the teasing about her head and being in yet another accident.  This weekend we are going to put up th... Fri, 07 Dec 2007 09:22:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/640777 Is it never going to end?????????? Ash was in an accident on her way to work yesterday.  She is getting xrays right now she hit her head on the driverside window and hurt her neck when the seat belt stopped her.   I haven't heard from her yet.  How much more can my Ash take.... Tue, 04 Dec 2007 16:07:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/632558 What a week this has been it went from being really good after having a long holiday weekend to really bad in a matter of a few days.  Ash and Cory brokeup on Wednesday, after 3 years of being together and all they have been through with her depression he decides now to break up with her.... Fri, 30 Nov 2007 15:53:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/597152 I haven't written in a while.  I just haven't had the time and nothing much is happening in my life.  Well I can't say that I've been chatting with a super nice, goodlooking man for about 3 weeks now.  He makes me smile everyday and that is something I haven't... Wed, 14 Nov 2007 15:00:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/562064 Almost the end of October that is hard to believe.  Things have been going so much better at home the last week or so I can't stop smiling.  It is an awesome feeling.  Tue, 30 Oct 2007 16:46:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/559430 I thought I would use orange this week to be kind of halloweenish. maybe that is not a word but oh well.  My weekend was okay, Cory and Ash took me to a haunted house type thing except it was in the woods, I guess that is why it is called Wild Woods of Terror. Anyway that was the 1st time ... Mon, 29 Oct 2007 15:57:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42852/journal/552908 This week has been so much better.  Ash has been spending more time at home this week.  I helped her study for a couple of test and she seemed really confident about taking the test.  I think the effexor and therapy is helping.  I'm so glad.  In fact i'm smiling just... 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