Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:24:00 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/42582/1213307966.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/42582 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/287637 First day went well. I will be in orientation until thursday, BLAH. But at least I get paid for it. I made friends with a really sweet girl around my age. Not much to say about it today. We listened to a guy that is a motivational speaker most of the day. He said some things that were helpful in my ... Mon, 09 Jul 2007 19:59:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/284891 I'm feeling a bit better now. He has FINALLY stopped being hateful and said he was sorry for being like that and that he wants to be friends. I'll take it!! We have been getting along great. The other night something hit me. I WANT TO BE SINGLE. I don't want to run out and find a rebound... Sun, 08 Jul 2007 17:43:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/273862 I want to give up Tue, 03 Jul 2007 14:43:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/272704 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I want to just SCREAM and KICK something and PUNCH something!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY IS HE SOOOO FUCKING MEAN!?!?!?!?!?!?  He acts like I was never a good wife and I never made an effort for our mar... Tue, 03 Jul 2007 00:43:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/270361 I am going to meet with an attorney this week. STBX is so horrible. I can't believe the horrible man he has become to me. After everything. Why? Why so mean??? It makes me so sad because I DON'T deserve it. THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS SUCKS THIS SUCKS THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I c... Mon, 02 Jul 2007 00:04:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/264257 I am so ready to get this divorce going! I am so tired of dealing with him! Thu, 28 Jun 2007 22:28:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/260867 He got mad at me today because I didn't want to go have lunch with him. And not just I'm sad you said no.. he got MAD because we are never on the same page. Just confirms that he will never change. ggrrrrr!! He isn't capable of just talking to me about something either and being calm. GG... Wed, 27 Jun 2007 13:39:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/258973 Wow! What a change I have been through in the last 6 days. I feel so good! I got a job FOR SURE and they are starting me out at MUCH more than I thought I would start out at. SO I will be able to afford my house and I won't have to get a roommate right away. WOO HOO! Me and my stbx are getting a... Tue, 26 Jun 2007 17:49:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/245528 I'm trying so hard to stay busy. I'm also feeling so sleepy all the time. Thats all I feel like doing is sleeping when I am here at the house. Of course I can't because of the girls. Thank God for them. They keep me busy. I am trying to get out and run around and do stuff outside of the ... Wed, 20 Jun 2007 14:53:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/242877 well since my last journal, we got back together, things were going good, we were both working on it. little arguments here and there but we worked through it. sunday evening, he blew up on me and went crazy. he got physical with me for the first time since he promised he wouldn't do it ever aga... Tue, 19 Jun 2007 12:49:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/193293 I'm at my parent's house. Me and my husband have been fighting a lot the last few days. Last night was a huuuuuuge fight that sent me out the door. Horrible things were said to me once again. Nothing physical but lots of threats. Whats weird is that I am so sad about it. I just want to go ho... Sat, 26 May 2007 22:10:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/174007 Hi friends!! Its been a little over a week since I have been on. Geeeez, what was I thinking! LOL! My beautiful day... Have you ever had such a good day that thinking back on it makes you tear up. Well if the answer is no, neither have I. Not for a looong time though thats for sure. Until toda... Thu, 17 May 2007 01:37:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/159830 Yes, yes.. I'm writing ANOTHER journal. I just need to talk. These journals help a little. And I need all the help I can get when I have so much on my mind. I am feeling really depressed. Maybe I am just being a baby. My life is just a mess. I never thought I would end up this messed up. I grew ... Tue, 08 May 2007 23:55:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/159572 well I just found out that my car is going to need a new engine. Which is REALLY crappy. The car isn't worth but $1000 so spending $2000+ on it would be really retarded. So now we are going to HAVE to figure out a way to get me another car. Please please please say a prayer for me. It has NOT been a... Tue, 08 May 2007 21:35:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/158980 Ok so here is my inlaw situation RIGHT NOW. Tell me if this is messed up or not. My husband's cousin started working with him out of town so he left his car here for us to use. "Us" as in me and my sister in-law that lives down the street. She already has a jeep. I have NOTHING. Haven't had a car in... Tue, 08 May 2007 15:34:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/157897 I just want to run away. I'm feeling kinda agravated and sad today. I don't know why exactly. Just thinking about things that go on in the family(the in-laws). I feel like I am always shafted around here. Maybe it isn't intensional, I don't know. And I feel like when things go on that are unfair or ... Mon, 07 May 2007 23:03:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/147516 Things seem to be falling back into place around here. Of course I still have anger built up toward him, but I can see my love for him growing again. We are doing really good as far as communicating and not fighting goes. Just hope it lasts. And if not I will not be scared to leave now. I will never... Tue, 01 May 2007 16:39:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/146367 Bad news today. I found out that a friend of mine was killed this morning in a car wreck. I am good friends with her siblings and I am hurting so bad for them. She was 21 and had a baby girl that was only 1. I am so sick about it. Very sad today. Mon, 30 Apr 2007 23:44:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/137944 Just a little more info. Not sure if I have mentioned this or not. This is his 5th week to be out of town for work. He has come home on the weekends but other than that we have been apart for over a month. In a way it is great. I am really enjoying our break and at the same time it has really put al... Wed, 25 Apr 2007 23:16:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42582/journal/136151 Well I really feel like he has sucked me back in once again. I don't know, I am so mixed up right now. I at least know that he only has 1 chance left. I know that if he messes up, that I can just go. And I will know that I tried. So I think I will be okay with it. I say that now but hopefully I will... Tue, 24 Apr 2007 23:33:14 +0100