Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:08:27 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/42540/1213255581.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/42540 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/320374 I wish I knew how to write in pretty colours and fonts but I guess if I'm using a mac some stuff doesn't show up.  I'm still trying to get used to all the things my mac does, it's sooooo much better than my PC.Anyways I an having a big bad PMS and I hate the fact that I have to go... Mon, 23 Jul 2007 09:43:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/156346 I was in the middle of writing a huge journal entry when DS's system crashed argh!!! Well I'll write most of it all again later on in the day. For now sleep :) Mon, 07 May 2007 05:35:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/152724 On my way to the city the weekend so I won't get to talk to you all. Perhaps I'll get online once to write a check in. Hope you're all well. Fri, 04 May 2007 16:47:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/148387 Can't sleep yet again and it's 3 AM and I need to be awake for 8 and I'm not seeing my bed again until 9PM I can't be awake for that long :( Wed, 02 May 2007 02:54:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/147863 Sorry to all I didn't get back to writing to tonight. I'm back on old meds and the tiredness is kicking in (so I don't know why I'm taking them in the morning and at night I was tired all day). SO I'm going to try to eat something small, I'm in my I don't feel like eating moment but it will do me ... Tue, 01 May 2007 20:32:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/146084 I'm about t o sleep after an interesting day at the chiropractor. I spent 2 hours there going over x-rays and reasons why things hurt and after looking at the x-rays I have scoliosis. I'm a little peeved at my physician because I've asked him several times about my spine alignment and he related e... Mon, 30 Apr 2007 21:14:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/144723 So of course I was awake all night. It's 5:05AM right now and I haven't slept in a while. I woke up at 5 in the afternoon yesterday. I have so much to do today and I think that it's all been piling up in my mind to the point where everything is going to break and everything must be done and finis... Mon, 30 Apr 2007 05:20:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/143048 I know that this entry is just after the other one but I made the mistake of weighing myself 130.5 I hate it!! I know I'm fat and I can feel where a\ll the fat parts of my body are it just hurts there...I need to stop. Sun, 29 Apr 2007 00:22:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/142989 I'm having a hard time accepting the fact that I ate half of an extra large pizza. I feel completely bloated. I'm trying to revert my thinking for a while to how I ate just after my mom died because I dropped a lot of weight then from being 147 pounds to 115. I've always been lighter but the new ... Sat, 28 Apr 2007 23:34:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/142420 I am OK. And sometimes being OK is a lot better than being extremely happy because I sometimes thing that when you are happy you are forgetting the sobering things that make you think about life. I realized today that I'd rather wait life out and see what it can bring me and how it can challenge ... Sat, 28 Apr 2007 16:10:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/139884 Needing to get through this weekend. It's so tiring thinking of all the things that have to be done in my life that I just want to sleep and I can't even do that. Theres taxes, thinking of my mom, things that my gf is dealing with, missed doctors appointments everywhere. Why do I lack the initiat... Fri, 27 Apr 2007 01:06:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/138929 I can't seem to get the normal things of life done today. Thoughts of my mom are everywhere, even if they are good I still miss her. I've procrastinated so much that I can't get my income support for this month and I don't know how I'm going to pay my rent. I'm thinking I can use my tax return wh... Thu, 26 Apr 2007 14:26:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/137981 Rarely ever is it that I'm feeling good and sometimes I try to just put on a front. I recently found someone from my past and triggers popped up everywhere of everything bad, but I still say that I feel good because I'm not there anymore, but the pain that was caused can be an addictive force too. ... Wed, 25 Apr 2007 23:40:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/136360 I guess it was about to happen, my holding back on the purge was too long and I felt like my body needed it. I have to learn to make purging feel bad instead of good. Today I will be seeing a chiropractor to overcome some of my pain and my symptoms. Right now headaches are bad because of neck and ... Wed, 25 Apr 2007 04:00:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/135928 I've been online a while tonight as a means not to purge,, being somewhat effective. It's been a while since I've done it almost a week. But I made the mistake of getting the scale back out from my closet. It was there so I could try to be ok. Hopefully I'll throw it back in there soon, and just b... Tue, 24 Apr 2007 21:18:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/129810 Well today I'm going to Toronto to see a film festival with my gf her sister and some other friends. I "slept in" and I'm an hour late but it's fine with them which is good. I always prepare myself before going there to make sure I'm never in pain or too tired. Sat, 21 Apr 2007 10:13:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42540/journal/128936 Well I finally made it out of the house but I'm now eating a lot because of triggers that I ran into while I was out. I saw a guy who was rather abusive to me, an my step mother who was physically abusive. I think I've blocked out all feelings of all those incidences but I just want to eat and res... Fri, 20 Apr 2007 18:20:19 +0100