Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 03:19:07 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/42256/1227026813.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/42256 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1409158 One week left before the D-day in court.  I dont see it getting resolved then, but I am by no means a legal scholar.  Long and bumpy, like a well fed snake, this metaphorical road goes on.  It has been hell on earth the last 12 months.  Ashamed, bitter, angry, fearful are just a ... Tue, 02 Dec 2008 22:20:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1403119 I just had a wonderful, quite thanksgiving day.  I got to spend the day with my mom and dying father.  It was nice to come over there and help out with them meal and fix some hurricane damaged things for them.  I also just got back from an AA meeting with gratitude was the topic.... Thu, 27 Nov 2008 22:46:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1388991 Last week I had a bit of stressed envolved.  I have been working with creditors and the like with mixed success.  I was quickly running out of food stuffs.  Rice is filling but can get old quick.  A few friends in AA bought me some groceries last week to help out and it is a bles... Mon, 17 Nov 2008 11:10:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1382287 My principal asked me today to teach a group of emotionally disturbed kids during my conference period. It will of course come with compensation so I accepted.  I will start next monday.  This will help in the relief I need from my finacial woes!!!  My lords will. Wed, 12 Nov 2008 17:00:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1377515 I got to see my kids at church today.  The younger two are doing great.  My oldest one seems to be her usual distant self.  My ex was cordial, which always leaves me to think she is up to something.  Supposedly they will be at church next weekend, I am not holding my breath.... Sun, 09 Nov 2008 11:23:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1375885 My lack of faith in the judical system has been rewarded.  I will have to wait until the trial date in December to get my visitation back.  I am not going to second guess my lawyer or my Higher Power.  I also want to thank Carebare for her candor and insight through all of this. Fri, 07 Nov 2008 23:47:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1372818 Not that I am keeping score but I got another hearing date set for thursday next week.  Lets see if it happens. Wed, 05 Nov 2008 21:12:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1368230 Hard to imagine but I got to see my kids twice this week.  Feeling a little pissed after haveing the court date postponed I texted the stbx and asked if she could drop by on halloween.  She said yes.  The kids were thrilled to see me.  I was also.  Not to see me, to see them... Sun, 02 Nov 2008 19:31:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1360154 Yet again!!!!  What in the hell is wrong with this system?????  I have jumped through me hoops.  I have done the next right thing.  My day of vindication was at hand.  I was going to get to see my kids again for the first time in almost a year.  Postponed again.... Mon, 27 Oct 2008 18:56:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1350737 My oldest daughter called and spoke to me on Friday afternoon.  This is kind of a rarity for her.  She is pre-teen already full of anger and mood swings.  It was so awesom to hear from her finally.  It has been a few months.  My son called tonight while I was at bell choir p... Mon, 20 Oct 2008 22:46:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1343576 I finally got another court date.  this one is on the 30 october.  I was excited last time I got one of these but the judge took the day off and my ex's attorney would not allow any kind of visitation.  This is such a backward county.  People of reasonible intelligence are tr... Wed, 15 Oct 2008 19:30:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1332225 I got into the highschool monday morning to have a bit of shocking news dropped in my lap.  The sister of a former student told me that he died over the weekend in a motorcycle accident.  I was in shock.  I was just thinking about him over the weekend.  The young lady is in shock... Tue, 07 Oct 2008 23:39:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1330535 Their has been some progress in the continuing saga that I call my life.  Got the report back from he the court appointed Dr.  It appears I have a handle on my sobriety. Once  get to court, I should start haveing gradual visitation with my children soon. That of course is up to Gods w... Mon, 06 Oct 2008 22:27:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1313868 I celebrated 7 months sober sunday!!!  It does get easier :) Thu, 25 Sep 2008 22:27:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1304416 I like Ike.No no the president.....   I really dont care for the hurricane or what it did to peoples lives.  It was a killer.  People lost their lives, their homes, their jobs.  But it also brought people together. People who would normally not talk to each other, had to.... Fri, 19 Sep 2008 19:57:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1285176   It was a difficult day at the dealership on Saturday.  Not to many people buying cars and of course it is the fault of the salemen according to the managers.  I does create a twinge of anixety in the chest.  I will be looking for work again soon.  I mean, I have the teachi... Sun, 07 Sep 2008 19:22:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1282405 I survive the second week of classes.  They really are starting to fall in place now.  I still have not sold a car this week, but I have not been putting in the extra hours as of yet.  The MD that did my evaluation is in the process of calling everyone he needs to verify my sobriety.... Fri, 05 Sep 2008 20:11:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1271550 I did it again.  I am beating the odds, not beating my head.  It has been a rather emotional couple of days.  I got choked up a few times but I made it.  I called and left a birth day song for my little girl.  I pray that some day I will be back in the life of my children.... Fri, 29 Aug 2008 23:40:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1267448 I could not figure out why the pain has been growing in my chest as it relates to seeing my children.  It came out of me today when I was talking to a co-worker.  My daugter turns two tomorrow!!  Isn't that awesome.  I will call and leave a message for her.  I know her m... Wed, 27 Aug 2008 15:29:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42256/journal/1266034 I am really missing my kids today.  I know this sounds selfish but I wish the pain would go away.  I have tears filling up my eyes as I type this.  I spent the last two days doing the best I can for a bunch of other peoples kids and there is not a damn thing I can do with mine.  ... Tue, 26 Aug 2008 19:28:30 +0100