Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:26:44 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/42004/1213247181.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/42004 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/319951 My internet is finally back up!!I am so glad that it cause I have really missed having the support that I find here. So much has happened in the past month. A lot of good stuff!! I got a new job that I love. I am starting to date again and I can be around people easier than I use to. But unfort... Mon, 23 Jul 2007 02:54:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/252498 Internet's downMy internet is down for right now. I hopefully will have the money next week to turn it back on. I hope everyone is doing well and I will be back as soon as I can  Sat, 23 Jun 2007 18:59:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/246343 I got the JOB!!!  I am so happy. I start July 9. I will be an admissions counselor for special programs at a tech school. I will have regular hours! 9-6 5 days a week!! A regular paycheck!!! And I might get a chance to do some teaching too at one point. I met with my new boss today and she was ... Wed, 20 Jun 2007 21:43:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/227636 Well I did hear from the job thing today. She said she loved me and would love to work with me, but she thinks that I would be a better fit at their new location. The new location in about 5 mins from my house.  She is also recommending me for a different higher paying position, instead of the ... Tue, 12 Jun 2007 14:46:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/225524 I think that the interview went well today. I am pretty excited. They are going to make a desicion tues. So, I should know pretty quick. It is a pretty big pay cut, but with less expenses. I missed my pdoc appointment and now cant get in until next week. It upset me that I was only 10 min late and s... Mon, 11 Jun 2007 16:28:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/224770 Today is the big day of the interview.  I am not really all the nervous which is good. I just figure what happens happens.  I finally slept last night 12 hours. I feel so much better. I went an refilled my ambien last night becasue I wanted to sleep. I needed to sleep for today.  Well... Mon, 11 Jun 2007 10:02:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/222825 I didnt sleep last night. Normally I catch a couple of hours of shut eye but none last night. I am restless. I love my therapist, but last week he told me that if he had to rate my BP on a scale from 1-5 he would put me a 2. I wanted to laugh so hard at him. I am just better at hiding it. My mind is... Sun, 10 Jun 2007 10:59:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/222163 Today was a pretty decent day. I made myself leave the house and go visit a friend of mine at her house. She had shoulder surgery on Monday.  I went over to keep her company and to help her run some errands. It was fun hanging out with her, but I got wore out.  I can’t believe that t... Sat, 09 Jun 2007 23:25:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/219768 Yeah I just got called back for a second interview for the job interview I went on yesterday!! I am so happy!! Fri, 08 Jun 2007 17:26:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/218512 Its 2:30am here and I am still up. I see the therapist in the morning, which is good my emotions have been in turmoil all week.  My mind wont stop. It is racing constantly I am not sleeping even on my meds which is not good. I talked to a friend tonight. It was nice, but I can tell that he wish... Fri, 08 Jun 2007 02:49:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/217511 I am feeling a little lost.  I am guessing that my meds are not working because I am still rapid cycling though.  Over the weekend I could barely get out of bed. Then the first part of the week I could not sleep or relax.  Now the tears shimmer on my eyelashes constantly and my heart ... Thu, 07 Jun 2007 17:11:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/215646 I am dong a little bit better today. I could not fall asleep until 3:30am. Got up for my conference call and then I went back to bed.  I think my last therapy session had a little bit to do with my little mini depression. I have an interview tomorrow though, which is good. It is for a admin Ass... Wed, 06 Jun 2007 20:33:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/212975 My Friends,Sorry I haven’t been around, I just having a hard time.  I am not really depressed or manic I am just in a mood. I am not sleeping well. I have been trying to read and make jewelry to distract me. I am suppose to be working but I am having a hard time leaving my house. This is ... Tue, 05 Jun 2007 17:43:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/208959 Today I sorta had more energy than yesterday. I managed to clean most of my apartment.  Then suddenly I got really sick and had to lay down.  I think it was all the dust I stired up.  I also spent a good portion of the day applying for jobs. It is hard because I am seek a postion that... Sun, 03 Jun 2007 21:19:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/207016 I am not sure what is wrong with me but I have slept pretty much all day. I didnt get up until almost 10:30am. Then I job hunted for a couple of hours. Laid down for a 2 hour nap. Got back up for an hour and then laid down to read a little and poof I was asleep again. Now I am up but I can bearly ke... Sat, 02 Jun 2007 18:34:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/206369 I dont know what it is but I have been crazing sugar like there is no tomarrow. I dont have any is the house cause I turning into a big fat cow. Eating ice cream and oatmeal pies.  My goal for today is to work on my resume and strat sending them out. I can just post them on monster and career b... Sat, 02 Jun 2007 10:50:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/204152 I am glad that I am going to my therapist today. After yesterday, my emotions are raw.  It is silly but in my head the more therapy sessions and the more help I get, the less the effects of my BP will be. I am going to work on my resume today too. This weekend I plan on send mass amounts of ema... Fri, 01 Jun 2007 07:58:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/203112 I stepped down from my position as a branch manager today.  I should completely quit, but I need the health insurance. I can not do the job I did before and keep my sanity. What little I have left.  I am angry. I feel cheated out of life because I am BP. I called my mom and she was like I ... Thu, 31 May 2007 18:27:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/42004/journal/202068 Hope is the magic ingredient to life Hope means:1. The feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.2. To look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence.3. To believe, desire, or trust: Some words that mean hope Anticipate, E... Thu, 31 May 2007 09:09:58 +0100