Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:57:10 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/40720/1213274372.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/40720 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/705218 Wed, 02 Jan 2008 22:44:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/705180 I thought I was better,but lately I've been having dreams of the things that happened this time last year.I'm scared to go to sleep.I have the dreams and then the next day like today I am angry,not at anyone just mad.I know she wouldnt do it again.I think a lot of it has to do with a friend ... Wed, 02 Jan 2008 22:27:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/595987 hey havent  been on for awhile.our comp went out.since i havent been on ive been able to put things in the past.the docs. letting me try work again.its very stress relieveing but my wife misses me.thats a bummer.we got back into church.it feels great im burning for the Lord right now and if you... Wed, 14 Nov 2007 02:04:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/435263 Havent been on for awhile cause our comps shot will be back when we get another Fri, 07 Sep 2007 19:59:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/230261 Hello everyone.I havent been on in a while.I confess I've been spending my free time playing MLB The Show '07 on the ps2.The family got me that for my birthday.Belinda is doing a little better.She is really trying hard to be with us more.We went on a little camping trip.We went to Sequaya ca... Wed, 13 Jun 2007 16:45:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/200210 Well I just got back from the doc.I've got strep throat.She gave me antis and gave me lexapro for depression.Then she sent me to get my coumidin levels checked and my blood was almost twice as thick as it should be.I guess that explains why my chest has been hurting so bad.She got on me b/c I ha... Wed, 30 May 2007 12:28:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/194760 Hey I guess I'm alright today.Belinda thinks I dont understand her needing down time.I do fully understand this.I feel sorry for her but I need help.The kids grip at any little thing I asked them to do.Yesterday I wanted to take our laptop to the store and get it fixed.I wanted our 17 yr. old to... Sun, 27 May 2007 20:25:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/183100 I dont know I'm confused and cant really say anything,I just dont know what can safely be said.Havent been and probably wont be writing about much On here random thoughts and good days. Mon, 21 May 2007 20:25:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/179101 I guess todays been pretty good.I'm tired.Boy I need a break I love my family but I would really like to go to my room and watch tv without having to keep up with where the kids are.I dont sleep good at night and usually 5 or 6 hrs sleep usually like this 3am til 7am and then 9am til 11am.I find mys... Sat, 19 May 2007 18:58:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/172991 Just dont feel good.I cant really discuss it.Sometimes its just hard to handle.I get to feeling pretty good and out of nowhere bam a shot to the gut from the past. Wed, 16 May 2007 15:33:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/162509 I'm hurting bad today.We went and got 2 futons and a set of bunkbeds yesterday.I felt good and thought I was superman I guess.I over did it which isnt hard to do with 3 discs out of line and 1 is probably ruptured. Thu, 10 May 2007 13:31:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/161774 Hey I created a chat room.Feel free to use it anytime.http://chatzy.com/763855343448 .password is enter Thu, 10 May 2007 02:18:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/160537 Hey its a good day sorta.Belinda and I are getting along great.The kids are doing a little better.Wont go into it too much just dont believe the hype concerning the rush card .Supposedly it is to help with people like us who have had financial problems in the past and cant get a checking account.But... Wed, 09 May 2007 11:53:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/156794 I feel like shit.I'm ready to give up,not on Belinda,just life.Think about it wouldnt it be nice to have no worries.I cant really write what I want to so just know things arent very good with me.My chest feels like an elephant is on it.I think if Belinda was here right now to be with Elijah(our 4yr ... Mon, 07 May 2007 12:00:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/148955 It feels so good to be where Belinda and I are.We are communicating.She has been so different and attentive.I think she truly is seeing how this effects everyone.She feels bad and tries to blame herself for her bp.Its not her fault and I wish she could see that.Yesterday she said if a man calls for ... Wed, 02 May 2007 12:26:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/145364 I put a discussion on the board for a chat room get together at 8pm eastern.I hope you all will be there.go to chatzy.com the password is dailystrength.Hope to read you there. Mon, 30 Apr 2007 13:48:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/144028 I feel alot better today.Belinda and I are beginning to see things from the others perspective.She has been hurting bad the last couple of days but she has been so much more aware of my feelings.I wish she felt better.We went to the dollar tree awhile ago and she didnt even get out.So she must feel ... Sun, 29 Apr 2007 18:14:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/142203 I read Belindas journal, in it she says she feels we are distant.Last Sunday when she hurt my feelings I made a vow to myself that if there was going to be a kiss,hug,touch,or any affection it would come from her.It just seems that is the easiest way for me not to get my feelings hurt.I havent done ... Sat, 28 Apr 2007 12:57:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/141662 For anyone who misconstrued my last couple of entries I love my wife dearly.Her bp and her meds can make her seem very uncaring towards me.It can get me very depressed and I vented abbout some things I shouldnt have.Please understand I have no one I can talk to.My moter in law said anytime,but if I ... Sat, 28 Apr 2007 01:25:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/40720/journal/131677 WellI saidI would explain my problem with getting depressed,here it is.My dad was a good man but very hard on me .No matter what I did it wasnt good enough.He died when I was 12,shortly after this my mom had a nervous breakdown and tried to solve it with a bottle.My dads family acted like they didnt... Sun, 22 Apr 2007 16:12:39 +0100