Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal Tue, 07 Oct 2008 15:42:15 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/32380/1213248101.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/32380 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1272553 feeling sad, missing him or what i thought we had. not understanding why he just gave it up and went with someone else. i got mixed signals back in may when he said he thought he made a mistake by not trying to save the marriage. then he went out and got really drunk and he never brought it up again... Sat, 30 Aug 2008 18:13:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1174530 Nothing new really, just stopping by to write a bit.  Had a FAB weekend.  My dad lives in the city and I invited him out for the long weekend.  He had surgery earlier in the year to have his hip replaced so he's only now started to get out and about.  Needless to say, we had ... Tue, 08 Jul 2008 09:25:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1166207 Missing him.  My therapist said I will never really know for sure, but based on my ex spending time with his "new friend" even when the kids are with him, it really does sound like they are more than friends.  She said whether she is or isn't more than a friend, I will have t... Fri, 04 Jul 2008 00:04:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1162249 Okay, been thinking about what JT said re: my last JE.  I had a vision of what I thought my ex should be.  I've been really going over in my head who my ex was and who he is.  My first attraction to him was and still is lust.  Obviously not a good basis, merely a start as you... Wed, 02 Jul 2008 10:56:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1159567 So my ex took the kids for a couple of days again.  That will be the norm for summer break.  He came to the house early a.m. yesterday (sitter is on vacation) and was going to leave during the day, but chose to wait until I got home from work.  I'm guessing that was so the boys co... Tue, 01 Jul 2008 09:31:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1157470 Okay, first let me say that sometimes I feel a little guilty that I only stop by when I'm feeling sad.  What's that all about?  And I know I shouldn't just use this spot for journaling, that maybe I should visit other people's pages and share the caring.  So to any of ... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 11:15:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1114538 Well the ex didn't come through on getting the beds for the kids, but I gave him a back up plan.  I suggested the playpen/play-yard for the baby and the air mattress for the oldest.  Yesterday morning he said he didn't know if it would all work out because he still didn't have ... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 09:03:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1110536 Sooooo stupid... that's it, plain and simple.  Saturday my ex and I talked for almost on hour on the phone.  Why?  About our oldest and how he is struggling with his anger and hurt over the whole divorce.  However much of the conversation was my ex complaining about his life,... Mon, 09 Jun 2008 16:01:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1083850 Okay, I'm at a loss.  Not for words, just shocked.  Last night I get home from work and go right into dinner mode.  My ex says "I think I need to start looking for another job.  The next month or so will be the telltale of what I need to do next. I'm not making any m... Wed, 28 May 2008 15:44:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1081182 Good weekend, too fast, don't know where the time goes.  I had so much to do and no time to do it.  Not much sleep and I am WAY tired. The ex kept hinting that he wanted to come over.  I was hoping he wouldn't.  He said something about wanting to the mow the lawn on ... Tue, 27 May 2008 14:26:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1074784 Well haven't heard from Mr. Tru-Green Lawn Mower man in a few days and I have mixed feelings on it.  Kind of wonder why I haven't heard from him when he said he'd be here to mow the lawn today, but I am actually feeling relieved and happy that he isn't.  It's a beautifu... Sat, 24 May 2008 09:39:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1063204 Still mad and annoyed and now getting sad over what happened last week.  He insisted on coming over to mow the lawn on Saturday even though we weren't home.  He said he wanted to do that and then go to part of Tristan's baseball game.  I tried to have only basic conversat... Mon, 19 May 2008 12:44:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1056440 Okay, this guy just really blows me away sometimes with his lack of sensitivity.  Yesterday my oldest was outside playing with a friend.  He comes to the back door to ask if they can come in.  I said "sure, but do mommy a favor and pick up that cup by the swing set, okay?"... Fri, 16 May 2008 10:20:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1035051 Just a quick one as I am frustrated and using this forum to vent.  Why are all exes so passive/aggressive?  One minute he is talking down to me, biting my head off or just acting like I'm an idiot.  An hour later he's sending me a text that he's going to change the oil on ... Wed, 07 May 2008 11:36:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/1013723 Okay, so now I see why so many of you just get annoyed by your stbx.  I've been annoyed by mine since last week because of one simple sentence that was blurted out:  Welcome to my world!   Here's the story:  Last week my oldest had baseball and a school function all ... Mon, 28 Apr 2008 15:42:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/978162 I have been a bit annoyed by something I saw yesterday, and just had to share it for anyone that cares to read.  I went to the mall yesterday with the boys because my oldest needed dress clothes for his school Spring Concert which is tomorrow night.  Long story short, it was a very frustra... Mon, 14 Apr 2008 13:17:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/956968 Friday I rec'd an email from my current sitter that she's quitting at the end of May.  I told my ex on Saturday and he suggested that he watch the boys four days a week instead of two.  He said that would eliminate the sitter costs, save me some money and he'd be able to s... Sun, 06 Apr 2008 16:01:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/940577 I had a fabulous weekend with my kids, very productive, lots of fun and for once it wasn't all about cleaning and doing laundry.  Although I did have to do that anyway on part of Sunday which frustrated my oldest cause all he wanted to do was play.  But work is starting to be a real be... Mon, 31 Mar 2008 08:52:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/32380/journal/928928 Still kinda sad... BUT, the kids are coming home today so that has uplifted my spirits.  I didn't get much rest and relaxation cause I kept thinking of the things I could get done while they were gone so that when they returned I could hang out and be with them instead of dishes, laundry an... Wed, 26 Mar 2008 16:08:40 +0100