Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal Thu, 21 Aug 2008 03:34:34 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/gallery/airplane.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/28888 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/167660 I haven't logged in in a while. I have been having an incredibly hard time with food. Part of me just doesn't want to face it....I'm honestly not sure what happened. I was doing really well there for a while...and slowly slipped into my old ways. I guess I'm here asking for some help and trying ... Sun, 13 May 2007 21:59:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/157920 I had a really fun weekend. Went out with friends on Friday and Saturday. Went to see Spiderman with other friends yesterday. I still haven't figured out why I am so ok with my eating when i am out with friends...and have gotten used to living alone...yet, I seem to lose grip of it at times a... Mon, 07 May 2007 23:15:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/151597 I had an incredibly productive day at work. It was incredibly stressful though. Unfortunately, I let my ED get the best of me...came home and ordered a bunch of italian food...not feeling good about it..not even sure why I did it. I did also fill out a bunch of mother's day and birthday cards. ... Thu, 03 May 2007 22:26:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/148240 I took some time to read some pages for some other members of the community...and I have to say they made me feel a lot better. As much as I feel alone right now...there are so many other people out there going through the same thing... I just need to have a little faith in myself and focus on all... Tue, 01 May 2007 23:55:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/148001 I'm totally feeling discouraged and alone. Today was a bad day....came home from work..took a nap and ordered some chinese and didn't keep it down :( what is wrong with me? i don't want to do this...yet I cannot seem to stop again :( I skipped my period for four months..and finally had tw... Tue, 01 May 2007 21:44:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/146331 Today was the first good day that I have had in a while...no B/P today. I also may have a new job opportunity. I'm not thrilled with mine and it has unnecessary stress and i'm having difficulty keeping up with the level of skills that they are hoping that I have/will have. I think the other job... Mon, 30 Apr 2007 23:11:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/139529 I'm having a really hard time getting back on track. I was doing really well with the B/P and I'm not sure what happened. Right before my bday I basically had a "relapse" and had a major one today. I really was so happy that I was doing better. Perhaps the stress of getting older sent me over the... Thu, 26 Apr 2007 20:41:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/137940 My birthday is coming to an end and I have to say it was a great day. It started out a little rocky...forgot to take medication last night and woke up pretty groggy and messed up...ended up going to work late and going back to bed... However, had an amazing dinner out with some girlfriends. So ... Wed, 25 Apr 2007 23:12:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/137939 My birthday is coming to an end and I have to say it was a great day. It started out a little rocky...forgot to take medication last night and woke up pretty groggy and messed up...ended up going to work late and going back to bed... However, had an amazing dinner out with some girlfriends. So ... Wed, 25 Apr 2007 23:12:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/133993 Oh well...I was doing really well. Hadn't b/p in quite some time. Unfortunately, I gave in to it today. I had a really crappy day...and I am embarrassed to say that I basically came home and had a pint of ice cream, some pizza, and ordered some pasta ... I feel incredibly guilty and wish I hadn... Mon, 23 Apr 2007 21:05:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/121576 It's funny how one day can seem so crappy and the next seem hopeful..or at the very least promising. Today I went to the doc...had my strattera/prozac bumped up a bit...just started taking them a month ago.. I realized today that I should be happy to be alive with all that is going on in the w... Mon, 16 Apr 2007 22:22:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/119837 I can't sleep. I tried...but am going back to work tomorrow and feeling very overwhelmed. I have so much to learn and there is so much pressure. I'm just hoping that I can step up. It's funny...I'm so happy when I am around friends, etc. and having such a hard time being alone lately...why am I ... Mon, 16 Apr 2007 00:52:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/119493 I'm happy to be home from Florida. I love my family...but it really reaffirms the expression..you can pick your friends but....you can fill in the rest. They mean well...and I love them..but I was happy to get home. It's a rainy day today in the big apple and I went to meet a close friend for a... Sun, 15 Apr 2007 21:26:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/111692 Well, my trip in Florida is coming to an end. I love my family but I have to say that I will happy to get home. My grandmother is on some new cookie diet..mind you she is pretty thin and 82..i have no idea why she is stil going on diets...anyway, she cannot stop talking about how I should go on th... Wed, 11 Apr 2007 09:44:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/103462 Had a very stressful week at work. I didn't end up packing for my trip until tonight. I ended up eating a bunch of crap today. not proud of it. It's funny. I've been working really hard. Going to the gym. Trying to eat healthier for the most part..not really less so much as healthier...and s... Thu, 05 Apr 2007 23:13:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/100149 I have to say. It ain't always easy. It was a really rough and stressful day. i'm leaving for florida to visit my family on Friday and trying to wrap things up at work. Not an easy thing to do because we have had many "emergencies" creep up. I went to dinner with a friend and I'm amazed that I ... Tue, 03 Apr 2007 22:21:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/97134 Just got home from my best friends house. Went out there for the weekend. She has two kids (my niece and nephew) and they are wonderful. The bad side of this is that I dated her schmucky brother..ok..lived with him for over 4 years and dumped him a while back. Anyway, I am currently single and he... Sun, 01 Apr 2007 22:49:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/92886 I went to dinner with one of my closest friends tonight...I have known her since college..her daughter is my god daughter...and I haven't seen this friend in over a year. It's funny...I kept putting it off because I had put on weight. I honestly wish I didn't feel shame at times? My friends love ... Thu, 29 Mar 2007 22:12:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/91165 Today wasn't terribly different from any other day. I did work out for an hour and it's the 14th day of not purging. I have to say that because I've been so aware of each day...and need to pat myself of the back and be proud. I cannot remember the last time 14 days passed without me binging and/o... Wed, 28 Mar 2007 20:36:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/28888/journal/88165 I went to acupuncture today. Had a pretty uneventful day at work. I had a project to do and basically didn't do it. I brought it home to work on it. Just couldn't wrap my mind around it today... It's my third day of prozac. The good news is that i haven't had any side effects. I'm supposed to... Mon, 26 Mar 2007 20:29:25 +0100