I am a single parent of three children ages 19, 17, and 9. I am attending Montana Tech and will graduate in May 09 with a Bachelor degree in general studies with a minor in addiction counseling from the University of Reno. I am a treatment specialist at a treatment center for chemically dependent pe... http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal Sun, 06 Jul 2008 21:45:38 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.2.0.6584 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/female.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/241833 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1095110 So haven't been online in a while.  Haven't gambled in a few days.  Hit big the other day and lost it all before I even left and then some.  Go figure-it's not about the money.  Will continue to try and not gamble for today.  Felt lousy about losing all that mone... Mon, 02 Jun 2008 19:04:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1057945 So trying to figure out what happened and why I keep relapsing on gambling.  So sick of lying to my kids and spending all the money.  Will continue to ask my HP for help.  Haven't gambled for a couple days so am feeling better about that.  Money is about gone so need to stop ... Fri, 16 May 2008 22:10:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1046335 Day after Mother's Day-so I figured I'd have a bad day before it even came.  Holidays are always tough on me-have been for years.  I did go to the casino.  Didn't even try to stop myself.  Was extremely tired when I woke up yesterday and had money in my pocket to go s... Mon, 12 May 2008 11:28:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1043408 Have been working out for the last three days.  Haven't been eating any chocolate.  Been drinking lots of water.  Did separate fruits and vegetables into baggies.  Been doing good.  Starting to see results from working out.  Am hopeful that I will meet my goal. Sun, 11 May 2008 00:35:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1043406 Day 6-no gamblingStill have been able to abstain from gambling.  Feeling very tired as I worked a short change today (afternoon shift to day shift).  Tomorrow is Mother's Day and I know holidays are triggers for me so I will continue to ask for my HP's help to get throught the day ... Sun, 11 May 2008 00:33:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1040709 So I did what I said in that I withdrew the tax incentive money and the child support money and gave it to my dad to hold.  I also paid my bills today.  That always feels good.  I'll be going to work in a few minutes so I am greatful I made another day gambling free.  Thank y... Fri, 09 May 2008 16:47:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1039877 Day 5-no gambling-So my son (19) moved out yesterday so I spent the day rearranging my house to fill the emptiness plus it gives me an extra bedroom so me and my youngest son (9) won't have to share rooms anymore.  He has had 4 seizures at night over the last 2 years but I will be getting a... Fri, 09 May 2008 10:39:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1037855 Day 4-No gambling today.  Still haven't joined a live GA meeting.  Continue to find support via the web.  Thankful for others who are here.  My son moved out yesterday (he's 19) and even though I am having mixed emotions about it, didn't gamble.  Gave my pay chec... Thu, 08 May 2008 13:44:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1034942 Day 3-no gambling-did not participate in a live GA meeting yet but have found support on the web.  Thanks to all those who are here.  I will not gamble today.  I have a final this am and I get paid today so I know that will be a trigger for me.  I will not be alone with any amoun... Wed, 07 May 2008 10:44:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1032337 So I did go to the store and buy fruits, vegetables, and eggs.  I will walk today for 30 minutes.  I worked out last nigt in the hot tub for about 40 minutes.  I will separate my fruits, etc and label them so I can keep track of what I eat.  I will not eat any chocolate today.... Tue, 06 May 2008 10:12:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1032331 So today is day 2. I will abstain from gambling by remembering the consequences if I gamble in that I will have no control over stopping or the amount of money I spend.  I will not gamble today.  I will go to a GA meeting at 1200 at the Gold Hill Church and will listen today in hopes of co... Tue, 06 May 2008 10:09:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1030273 I will attend GA tonight at the church.  I posted a reply to a discussion board posting.  I will not gamble for today and will use the coping skills I have learned like I will turn my mind away from gambling by praying for the compulsion to be lifted, I will remember the consequences if I ... Mon, 05 May 2008 13:39:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1030109 Day one of my committment to not gamble.  Mon, 05 May 2008 12:28:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241833/journal/1030099 Day one.  Will start today.  Going to go shopping for water, fruits, vegetables, and protein.  Plan to put them into baggies and label for each day's use.  Will walk 30 minutes starting tomorrow after I take my son to school at 0830.  Will try not to snack on anything th... Mon, 05 May 2008 12:23:23 +0100