Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal Thu, 21 Aug 2008 20:29:53 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/241612/1213281143.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/241612 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1046996 Welcome to great america.  Ride the whizzer, up and down, and spin around. Talk of sorry in the air, but can I ever accept that?  I'm not so sure.  Wish she would have taken longer to start to realize what she is missing.  Or maybe the co$*suc)#$ viagra prescription ran ... Mon, 12 May 2008 16:35:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1040189 Once again, awaken to the hollow, empty chest.   Crap.  I was hoping the not so bad time would last.   Maybe though, its not quite so bad now as it was before.  Maybe just an almost imperceptible bit better.  I hope I'm not imagining it. I need to deal wit... Fri, 09 May 2008 12:53:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1039334 I have been so depressed for the last couple days, just aching.  I am at work, (only a few more nights to go, then new job and days!!! YES) and have been busting my ass to get out some projects I need to address before my promotion.  I realized....the pain has eased, I feel a little better... Fri, 09 May 2008 03:28:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1038638 This is so ridiculous.  I am so freaking depressed about her leaving me, but its too late to do anything about it.  If she called right now I know I could never trust her again, that I would not be able to get her actions out of my head, that we would never be happy again.  I just wan... Thu, 08 May 2008 19:45:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1036862 When confronted about the cheating she made it clear that I was emotionally unavailable, didn't show affection and had promised to take care of her and marry her when she got pregnant, but put off marriage repeatedly.   She was right. I was initially overwhelmed and not sure how h... Thu, 08 May 2008 03:10:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1035854 I was feeling much better after Sunday, that was a low-spot, I worked through it.  My sister came into town and spent a couple days, had my son, we hung out and talked....well, I talked and she listened.  The guy I am talking to said I was doing well, the right things.  Then I had to ... Wed, 07 May 2008 17:38:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1028412 I am currently working nights.  Last night at work I actually felt some respite from this gnawing in my gut, this seething.  For a few hours I felt somewhat drained, but much closer to me than I have for weeks.  I noticed that I have paid attention to something, spoken to someone, tho... Sun, 04 May 2008 17:47:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/241612/journal/1027135 On Tuesday, 08APR2008, I confirmed that my fiancee was lying to me regularly and having an affair with a married man 24 years older than her.  I read emails, and they sickened me, I can't seem to stop thinking about it still.  She continued to lie, seeing him over the past weeks while ... Sun, 04 May 2008 01:26:25 +0100