Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal Fri, 25 Jul 2008 20:25:05 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/235340/1213248595.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/235340 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1176096 I'm in shock right now.  I don't really have the words to say.  I shared a poem last night on a whim; it just felt right.  I tried to read it aloud on the phone to a friend, and I only got through about 5 lines before I had to stop.  I still can't bring myself to say ... Tue, 08 Jul 2008 22:57:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1171696 I haven't written in awhile.  I've been running around like a crazy person doing all of this training for my new job.  It's all good, just very exhausting. So I'm trying this new thing where I try to think more positively about my life.  You know, focus on the goo... Mon, 07 Jul 2008 00:25:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1134063 I had a procedure done on my knee this afternoon in hopes of not having to have surgery, and I am in SO MUCH PAIN!!!   My knee's so stiff, swollen and bruised that I can hardly get up and move around at all.  And I'm here at home alone, trying to take care of myself.  I... Thu, 19 Jun 2008 19:49:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1091189 Traveled to New Orleans this past week for training on my new job, and you know what?  Even though I was a little homesick, I fit in perfectly.  And the guy I was training with said he's going to give my boss a glowing report.  So you know what?  Maybe I'm not all that ba... Sat, 31 May 2008 22:54:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1091188 Worked a little more today on changing my last name.  It's such a bear!  Contacted the electric company - hopefully that will get it fixed in their online system.   I did have a little set back....My registration was due on my car...   and it's still in bot... Sat, 31 May 2008 22:53:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1090750 I just got my tooth fixed this morning at the dentist.  It's one that I broke in January and had a temporary crown on.  Took almost 3 hours to do the crown fitting.  Now I'm in pain....   Sat, 31 May 2008 17:40:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1090749 I just got my tooth fixed this morning at the dentist.  It's one that I broke in January and had a temporary crown on.  Took almost 3 hours to do the crown fitting.  Now I'm in pain....   Sat, 31 May 2008 17:40:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1079565 I wrote this back in 2001, but thought that after this weekend, I would resurrect it... M emories so painful, they cannot be put into wordsY et, I was born from this chaos... F orgotten child, that was meA ll I am, I learned on my ownM y heart is good and pureI have never let them taint my... Mon, 26 May 2008 20:35:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1079505 So I saw my family for the first time in YEARS on Sunday.  It was a cookout / pool-party of sorts at my cousin's house.  And as the night wore on, it turned out that my cousin's husband was hitting on me the ENTIRE TIME.  And not just with words, he kept putting his hands all ... Mon, 26 May 2008 20:02:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1078389 I knew there was a reason I stayed away from my family all these years. I should have kept my streak going... Mon, 26 May 2008 09:23:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1075432 I added a couple of pictures to my profile today of the little baby squirrel I rescued and raised two summers ago.  His name was Buddy.  He's now running free in the wild, but I took care of him for two months.  It was an amazing experience.  Anyway, the pictures made me smil... Sat, 24 May 2008 17:32:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1071586 I wrote this because of the internal struggle I feel at times between no longer wanting to be a part of this sick world, and yet not wanting to inflict any pain on those I care about.  It's such a horrible feeling.  I just feel stuck...   trapped....   caged....... Thu, 22 May 2008 19:53:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1071578 I talked to one of my best friends earlier this afternoon.  She's going through so much right now in her life, and I can't help her.  She won't even let me talk to her most of the time.  It's been over a month since she's even called me back.  I feel... Thu, 22 May 2008 19:51:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1064211 Don't ever let anyone tell you tomorrow isn't another day, because it is.  I feel SOOOO much better than I did last night.  I'm positive.  I'm upbeat.  I'm happy.  I just feel all around great.  No rhyme.  No reason.  I just do. And to... Mon, 19 May 2008 20:54:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1061825 I sit here struggling right now with myself.  Some days I feel like everything is going to be okay.  Others, like I’m barely hanging on.  Today is one of those days…  I just feel very alone.  Like I’m always going to be alone.  I don’t thin... Sun, 18 May 2008 21:03:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1058881 So, my house looks like a tornado's gone through it, but regardless, things are still looking up. Got the condensation line to my new ac unit fixed last night which stopped the water coming in my home. And the guys that installed my ac said they are accepting full responsibility for the damaged pi... Sat, 17 May 2008 11:20:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1057741 I knew it!  I knew the other shoe would drop!  Things were just going too good.  That's the way it always is... Got home today, and there's a leak in my condo.  Only it's been going on for awhile and I didn't know it.  It's coming from the condensati... Fri, 16 May 2008 20:43:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1052231 Still on half a pill, every other day.  So far, so good.  I really think this is going to work.  Yay!!!!  Wed, 14 May 2008 19:18:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1041145 I'm on one quarter of my original dose...   Fri, 09 May 2008 20:43:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/235340/journal/1041137 I think I'm about to do something really stupid, but I can't help myself... Hopefully it will not turn out badly... Fri, 09 May 2008 20:39:10 +0100