Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal Fri, 05 Sep 2008 09:21:10 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/232186/1213249950.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/232186 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1135484 BLAHHH!!!!!  I'm just gonna jump into this.  My stupidity is to be desired.  I honestly thought I would be pregnant again by now.  Was waiting til tomorrow to take a pregnancy test as tomorrow should be my period if it wants to go back to normal and be every 31 days as it has... Fri, 20 Jun 2008 11:48:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1066072 Well, I woke up this morning and suprise!!!!!!!!  I got my stupid effin period.  I HATE this!  I was hoping that maybe my period just wasn't gonna come this month and that I would some how be pregnant again without ever having to get this first AF after losing my Angel.  But ... Tue, 20 May 2008 15:11:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1064526 I've found that reading posts from others on here and reading responses from even more ladies on here have helped me find my faith.  Doing this alone would be so much harder!  I hope that together us ladies can all find our happiness and get where we want to be in the near future!!... Mon, 19 May 2008 23:30:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1060816 So today makes exactly one month since I lost my little Angel Payton.  I can't believe it's been four weeks already, yet the time seems to pass so slowly.  Some days I don't know if I'm coming or going.  Friday our son had an evaluation by a phychologist to see wether ... Sun, 18 May 2008 11:56:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1058859 "And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love.  But the greatest of these is love." Sat, 17 May 2008 11:05:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1031198 Well, I went out saturday night like I said I was planning to do.  Thought it would do me good to relax and get out with some friends.  It was all good, had a blast to begin with.  But after a few too many the tears started rollin.  I kept tryin to suck it up.  Almost burnt ... Mon, 05 May 2008 20:59:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1024959 I wrote this poem for my little boy last year.  I Just came accross it and it means so much to me.  My son and my husband are my life.  I couldn't go on without them.  I wouldn't.   WITH GREAT LOVE TO MY BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY, DANIEL.  ALWAYS KNOW HOW MUCH I... Fri, 02 May 2008 23:17:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1024940 I think if I could get past the awkward questions stage I wouldn't keep thinking about it as much and getting so upset.  But every other day someone asks when I am do or how the morning sickness is going and all that.  The other day I was asked 2 times after being asked just the day be... Fri, 02 May 2008 23:03:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1022809 With faith in the Good Lord, and lots of fornication lol  I have high hopes about every other day.  I know it should happen again, just when is the question.  And will this one survive the long wait?!  Noone knows, but I have to take that chance.  I want another baby with al... Fri, 02 May 2008 01:17:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1007942 Well, we have already started ttc as of monday night, only 3 days after my mc.  I was torn on what to do.  Being scared of having to go through this all again, knowing I'm not sure I could handle it the next time around.  But I knew deep down that if we don't start right away ... Sat, 26 Apr 2008 00:55:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1007931 Today had marked one week since my mc and I can't believe it.  I think fridays will haunt me for a long time.  Instead of marking the begining of a fun filled weekend, it will mark week after week after week of the pain I've endured.  The memory of losing my tiny little Angel.... Sat, 26 Apr 2008 00:44:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1005183 Where to start.  Today, April 24th, 2008 was supposed to be the day that I got to hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time.  But that's not an option.  It will never happen.  So yeah, I'm not gonna be the most happy excited person around.  So why would anyone ... Thu, 24 Apr 2008 21:48:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1003807 Long story short, my husband was kinda rude and hurt my feelings this morning.  All I wanted, all I needed, was for him to say I love you back but instead he was too tired so he ignored the fact.  Made me feel like the bad feelings and thoughts I ws having were true and that I wasn't w... Thu, 24 Apr 2008 11:21:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/232186/journal/1000172 I can't believe there are people who will lie about anything and everything, especially about the real life things that can hurt as bad as they do!!  I went through the physical pain of losing my baby, the cramps, the sharp pains, the the bleeding, the long nights of feeling like something ... Wed, 23 Apr 2008 01:06:51 +0100