Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:36:26 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/210779/1213274855.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/210779 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/1004024 new page.......... its so hard to turn it knowing how much will change. Fearing that it will all be negative. Wondering if this is going to be the one that breaks you. Im so close now.. so many days of not wanting to try, not wanting to look and find out. too tender...too much.  I just want to ... Thu, 24 Apr 2008 12:50:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/949643 In just a few minutes they will disconnect my pc and get it ready to move. it might be a ittle while before it gets back up again and i wanted to say a few things to you all. I have sssssssoooooooooooo made a connection with everyone here and am heartsick over my lack of attention to you in the... Thu, 03 Apr 2008 14:08:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/942800 I'm moving this week. What a joke.. I've told everyone that I'm simply throwing it out the window. That's not a joke!!!! My husband and I can bearly do our own laundry. Nothing seems important enough to add this kind of ppain. Nothing is precious enough to expend more precious energy... Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:22:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/935618 I don't even know if this journal entry will be accepted. I'm so upset. I woke up from nightmares and went looking for someone to talk to. I dont understand Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:57:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/933660 I can feel every wrinkle in the sheets. I know when a single hair touches me. the individual drops of a shower sting and burn no matter what the tempature.I can feel my own blood ebbing through. Out of nowhere a fire starts in a joint in a tendon. touching rubbing slapping still burning. I know ther... Fri, 28 Mar 2008 10:57:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/932594  .Well i'm way too punchy to play hide and seek with this web sight. I swear I typed something and colored it purple. still not dressed no goal gain today. hubby home. me just sitting in the dark. Thu, 27 Mar 2008 22:44:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/930324  how do you change this silly yellow smiley to the red I feel?????......................................        It seems that my brain chooses yet again another path from my body. I can't  really tell which way is the right way, (not that any way is m... Thu, 27 Mar 2008 04:45:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/210779/journal/928065 How does anyone start something so private. I have along way to go and alot to learn. I'm trying to stop the landslide and feel calm when I'm really screaming tears of fog and insane laughter. I've decided to move past getting anything back. I'm no longer going to wake up and wonder ... Wed, 26 Mar 2008 10:06:17 +0100