Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal Fri, 25 Jul 2008 02:47:23 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/205949/1213895668.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/205949 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1203717 I got to be the speaker at an AA mtg. last night and tell my story.  I chose to tell it in the format of the 12 steps.  It went really well.  I got great feedback.  It made me feel more like a part of the AA family. Tue, 22 Jul 2008 11:01:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1201651  I am starting to feel a lot better.  I watched almost no tv (but a few movies) this weekend.  And I even went to church.  Yay! Mon, 21 Jul 2008 11:11:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1192731 On Monday night I had my Sozo prayer, which is a form of Theophostic ministries (Theos = Greek for God. Phostic = Greek for light. ).  I won't go into the form that much, beyond saying it's a guided prayer asking The Holy Spirit to identify areas of freedom needed.  It was my secon... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 17:21:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1188045 Just had therapy.  And I have a Sozo prayer tonight.  (Sozo is a Greek word meaning wholeness. It refers to the spirit, soul [mind, will and emotions] and body.) I feel like I am making some progress.  I watched a little less TV this weekend.  I took a walk last night. ... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 15:33:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1182393 This week has really been hard.  I'm finally done with my last client.  I plan to take off early.  Big Sigh. I am making progress planning my Codependency meeting.  I may get to have it at this church with a room with leather couches.  It may take awhile for the app... Fri, 11 Jul 2008 16:58:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1179842 Kinda vulnerable.  Y'day I realized I forgot to take my meds. for 2 days.  Oops.  I was just thinking how great my meds. were workin' too.  Y'day at work kind of bit it.  Yucky yucky. Plus my period has been a hard one, because it seemed a little late. ... Thu, 10 Jul 2008 14:46:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1172917 Well, I was on call this weekend, but I didn't have to cover the holiday.  The woman who did called me at about 10am, my shift started at 8:30, and I was still asleep.  I set my alarm, but turned over.  That was a little embarrassing, but she was only updating me about people who ... Mon, 07 Jul 2008 15:17:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1160216 Ugh.  Can't believe it's only Tuesday.  I have to do ER on call this weekend.  Someone else is actually doing the 4th, but I have to do the remainder of the weekend.  Still waiting for PMS to pass and just being mindful of my negativity stemming and anxiety from hormones. Tue, 01 Jul 2008 14:58:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1157732 I hate the question "how was your weekend?" as I have (close to) no life.  Well, I experience life differently than the masses.  I am not a fun seeker.  I am not hugely social.  What made my weekend worthwhile was the chance to connect with my friend Jill.  I made ... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 13:23:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1155967 My colleague finally had her baby and I went to visit and then cried and cried at my friend's. I'm happy about their baby, but feelng grief about mine. I'm ok now. Have PMS right now too. Did go to church but panicked from social phobia, so guess I'm going back ón proranolol. Sun, 29 Jun 2008 17:42:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1154184 I took Friday off.  I have reached a point with my house where I'm relatively satisfied with the reorganization and cleaning I've done.  Plus I'm bored.  I can't even get myself to read anything.  This weekend we're having a bit of a heat wave.  My house ... Sat, 28 Jun 2008 18:38:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1147116 I am sick of being so tired in the morning.  There's no good reason for it anymore.  I decided to go off Propranolol for a few days and see if that helps at all. Staff meeting today was so annoying, but I'm trying to shift gears and decide whether it's really worth it to b... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 16:00:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1145073 I bought two AFLAC policies today.  One is an Accident/Disability insurance.  I couldn't buy their straight disability insurance because of pre-existing depression/anxiety conditions!  Argh.  And the other I bought was their cancer insurance.  It turns out I already have... Tue, 24 Jun 2008 18:56:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1141821 So weekends are next to intolerably lonely.  I suppose I could have gone to a mtg., but I hate the times they are offerred.  Lame excuse, I know.  I also forgot to take my meds. y'day.  I had awful dreams last night; wonder if that's connected?  I'm frightfully f... Mon, 23 Jun 2008 12:05:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1139974 Got tired of cleaning at home, so I came into work to do some rearranging and reorganizing there too.  I get messy wherever I am.  Washed my car too.  Love to do that. Slept in today, not as late as y'day, but that's ok.  It's the weekend.  I did think I mig... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 16:09:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1137900 Wow, I am resuming my intense house cleaning, after nearly a year.  This isn't just your normal spring (well now summer) cleaning.  This is cleaning out the cobwebs of my mind and soul.  I'm listening to Lucinda Williams.  A little too painful. The thing about coming out ... Sat, 21 Jun 2008 14:56:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1135596 I went to an AA mtg. last night and we couldn't use the room, so we sat on the lawn.  Just a few people even showed up.  I really needed a mtg. since y'day my feelings were stuck on hurt.  It helped.  I need another one.  I'll go after work.  I need an attit... Fri, 20 Jun 2008 12:37:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1132898  Yes!  I woke up naturally a little earlier and didn't have such a bad urge to go back to sleep for hours.   I got my hair cut very short y'day and when I was getting my food at the taco bell drive thru, I got called "sir."  Oh well.  And not one perso... Thu, 19 Jun 2008 10:06:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1126223 Well, I just had therapy and it was more upbeat than recently.  Definitely have Cymbalta to thank for improvements.  This weekend I did so much cleaning and reorganizing in my house, I couldn't believe it.  I'm not done, but way farther on my way than I ever would have predict... Mon, 16 Jun 2008 15:21:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205949/journal/1121793 Up by 9am isn't that bad.  All this week I longed to be back to my early riser self, but alas no.  I can't get out of bed before 7am, I just don't want to.  But today my goal is to make the living room inviting again.  I'm still using it for sorting stuff though.... Sat, 14 Jun 2008 12:08:52 +0100