Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal Wed, 20 Aug 2008 16:56:29 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/205871/1213281465.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/205871 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1058650 After several weeks of not getting angry, last night i got angry. I had been drinkink (about 5 pints of beer total, over several hours) and so had my girlfriend (red wine). We began the afternoon in a bar working on our laptops fro a few hours ... all great. We then moved to another table to relax a... Sat, 17 May 2008 09:08:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1058527 30 april 11.59pm   Busy with work, interviews and stuff so less time with rose. Have agreed to take kids for Saturdays over next two months (unless busy etc). Things going ok! Have lots of information (access to emails) I could look at but not looked at it yet. Not sure I want to. Can... Sat, 17 May 2008 07:44:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1058499 27 April, 2008, 11am, at home  Post note to journal.  Small incident the other day about having coffee with ex wife. My girlfriend knew I was goint to do this and was fine with it. I just hadn’t mentioned it was the same day at 4pm. I didn’t find that “right” moment... Sat, 17 May 2008 07:09:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1058497 25 April 8.15am, Schipol Airport, Netherlands  Most of the journey over. Had some brief sleep on plane. Despite my expectation that gf may have had some girl-girl fun I am not sure I want to find out. All knowledge might be useful but I need to manage the butterflies and now might not be the ri... Sat, 17 May 2008 07:04:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1058477 24 thu april 08, 10.40am  Want to consider some new things: the curse of envy; I think I have grown up a lot (that gives me butterflies!) – need to think what I am meaning by that. Also consequences, which is a less responsible way of saying choices, not just my choices but other peoples ... Sat, 17 May 2008 06:37:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1058475 12.30am 24 April,2008  Just thinking about butterflies again. There could be occasions where someone has access to information and chooses not to use it straight away. That could be to extend the anticipation (enjoy). Or it could be to avoid something expected (a nice or unpleasant surprise). O... Sat, 17 May 2008 06:33:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1045932 Got the Middle East job ... yay! Mon, 12 May 2008 08:32:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1035691 Wed 23 April, 1.50pm, Middle East (from the office)  Feeling tired; had a late night. Gf didn’t appear online. I logged in and had some food at my local Internet café and a fruit juice, did some Internet browsing then headed off about 11.50pm. There were two texts when I got in, I ... Wed, 07 May 2008 16:33:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1035577 Tue 22 Apr 12.30pm  How come I don’t get butterflies thinking about prostitutes? How come I didn’t get butterflies thinking about gf getting fucked by her ex husband when they were still together? I seem to get butterflies when I think of her being intimate with another person. For ... Wed, 07 May 2008 15:51:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1035549 22 april, 12.46am  Just a thought on butterflies. What determines my level of butterflies? What is my preferred level? What is my acceptable tolerance level?  Talking about certain things causes butterflies. My gf and johan and the night of passion. These are historical events. Some histor... Wed, 07 May 2008 15:40:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1035533 21 apr, mon, 11.00am  There were 2 things I was planning to mention one was how to approach salsa Tuesday, tomorrow, the other I forget. Anyway, instead, I want to look at relationship episodes with gf in the light of my new thinking re 1) personal choices to be happy, 2) to be not angry, and l... Wed, 07 May 2008 15:34:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1019392 Stuff happening at work at the moment, more about that another time. Had an interview yesterday ... seemed to go well, waiting to hear! Another interview tomorrow! It's all go.   Having some toast! Here is the next installment ... Mon, 00.23am  Just had a nice msn with g... Wed, 30 Apr 2008 18:02:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1012409 This is quite a long entry where I engage in some deep thinking ... discover a new indicator for my state of wellbeing ....  Sun morning, 20 April, Middle East, 9.41am  Breakfast on till 10.30 so will be brief. Slept well. No more texts from gf … wasn’t expectin... Mon, 28 Apr 2008 04:39:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1010248 Decided to post my reflective journal from week away, but one part at a time. So ... here is part 1! (from Middle East, 1.24am, Middle East time, Sunday 20 April)  First night away, back on Friday morning, about 9.45am UK time.  Trying to understand about faithfulness in relationships... Sun, 27 Apr 2008 06:36:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1010230 Hello DailyStrength, Back in UK. Have over 8000 words of journal entry from my week in middle east. Wondering what to do with it. May revew it and try and post it here ... might need to split it though i guess.  Just updated goals, have decided I feel excellent ... first time since joining... Sun, 27 Apr 2008 06:08:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/1000667 Still thinking and reflecting ... have written 5500 words of reflection while in Dubai this week. Not sure if that exceeds the journal entry limit ... and who would want to read it anyway? ABout to create a new lifestyle goal for myself ... to do with what I am calling butterfies. Wed, 23 Apr 2008 08:41:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/981604 Put a post for advice on Healthy Relationships. Got a couple of replies. Not what I expected.Made me think though. Still thinking. It has been suggested I figure out what I want and to go with my gut instincts. Sounds sensible. Will reflect on this for a few days. In the mean time I'm still... Tue, 15 Apr 2008 17:59:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/980138 Fact. I am not angry. Fact. I feel ok. Fact. The thought that my gf might be about to initiate something with another woman behind my back is unpleasant. Fact. I am not in control of my gf. Fact. I am in control of me.   Tue, 15 Apr 2008 06:03:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/980135 Fact. I know my gf has had a couple of online chats with another woman. The content of the chat suggests she wants to meet the other woman for ff fun. Fact. As far as I'm aware nothing has happened yet. Fact. Words written in an online chat are just that ... words; they do not nec... Tue, 15 Apr 2008 06:00:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/205871/journal/980017 If I go to the Middle East for 2 or 3 years, where will she get her comfort from how will she satify her sexual wants or needs? Tue, 15 Apr 2008 03:22:39 +0100