Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal Sun, 12 Oct 2008 19:57:37 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/195714/1218663631.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/195714 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1319650 I just found out tonight that a guy I know (but don't particularly like)has a huge problem. He quit drinking a few years back, but didn't succeed. He has lots of money, he retired from one job and found another, both very good positions. A few days ago we had a heavy rain storm. This guy... Mon, 29 Sep 2008 21:12:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1285244 Tomorrow I start working. It's only for about 6 weeks, but better than nothing, and it pays well. I will feel like I'm making a contribution again and thats a good thing. With any luck at all, I will get enough time to allow me to collect pogy when it's done. With me work either rains or... Sun, 07 Sep 2008 20:11:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1247338 Well here I am now a comunity leader. I feel pretty good that I was chosen for the position. I'm not a person for abrupt changes anything that happens will be slow and probably unnoticed. I'm still lookin for that job and haven't had any luck yet, but I believe that when it's right i... Fri, 15 Aug 2008 15:06:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1237230 Well the vacation is over and it's time to get back to it. My company left yesterday after a very full 2 weeks. I went through a few moments and even said to my buddy how nice it would be to sit with him and have a beer and a smoke and it really would have, but I know those days are gone forever... Sat, 09 Aug 2008 23:53:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1216069 I have friends here now from Nova scotia, my old drinking buddy. This guy is a true friend. He doesn't judge me for not drinking and he continues on with what he wants to do and I respect that. Today I took him on one of our old fashion crop tours. He drinks I drive. I have enjoyed this activity... Tue, 29 Jul 2008 01:30:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1201752 My wife and I talked last night and decided we are going to end it. Although its very early in the game, she is already talking about getting her share. I think that caught me by surprise, although it shouldn't. I would like her to stay in the house but she say's no. She wants her cut. It bo... Mon, 21 Jul 2008 12:00:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1192714 This morning I spent chasing my tail, trying to get some more answers about my business venture. I figured I would be in for a lot lots this when I started. I went to another office, since I have been turned down for the government program that I was working for. I seen the recepionist, who sent me ... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 17:14:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1182487 As I've said I have been somewhat busy working on this business venture. I was going out to my shop to continue with my organization job that I've also been busy at. Things weren't working out as well as they have been out there and I decided that I just wasn't into it today. I came ... Fri, 11 Jul 2008 17:51:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1180503 I've been workin on starting a new business for the last few weeks and so far things are looking good. Will know in the next few days if I'm accepted into this program I'm trying to get into. On the home front not much change. Still scrappin it out with my wife, but I'm sticking to m... Thu, 10 Jul 2008 20:35:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1166049 My wife and I have actually been talkin, she has been stickin up for me and everything so that's pretty nice for a change. Been playing with the idea of starting up my own business and have another meeting on Monday, to make sure it's doable and has a good chance of success. I should be done... Thu, 03 Jul 2008 22:31:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1159762 I sit here this morning very humbled. I read a journal last night that makes any petty problem I have look like a spec on the wall. I actally feel guilty that I could be as upset as I was over something so small. My wife and I were a team and we will be again. I also read an entry this morning about... Tue, 01 Jul 2008 11:04:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1149978 This morning my wife started it again. She is upset with me to say the least. I can't explain everything that has has gone on and I am not trying to lay blame I know that I am to blame for all the things I have done, but how much pain is payment enough. I have decided that I have now paid the pr... Thu, 26 Jun 2008 19:36:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1145327 It's been a long time coming but the time is here. My life is my own and ain't nobody messin with it no more except me. I've been layin down and letting people kick the hell out of me too long. I wrote a couple of weeks ago that my wife could take me as I am or leave me. Since that time ... Tue, 24 Jun 2008 20:51:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1140122 This weekend I drove my motorhome up to my son's place, about 3 hrs away for his birthday. A whole bunch of his friends were there, and a lot of drinking going on. I'm pretty use to not drinking a a party now, but last night I really payed attention. I watched each person as they weregotting... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 17:35:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1128935 I was going to leave DS because a couple of people here thought I was being rude, but I have changed my mind. The worst part of it all was that DS sent me a letter saying that I was being inappropriate and I don't believe they even checked it out. I asked for a copy of what was inappropriate and... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 16:40:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1123993 I had some plans when I got up this morning, nothing big just pretty much to have a nice say. I git up and the bitching began. There was an envelope on the kitchen table from my wife. I didn't open it and gave it back to her and told her to give it to me some other time (when she wasn't so f... Sun, 15 Jun 2008 16:14:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1113969 I have been wrestling with problems that I am having with my wife. I said in my last entry that it is difficult to know how to act without a bottle in my hand. I have come to the realzation that I am me. Weather people (inluding my wife) don't like who I am then its they're problem. If I am ... Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:53:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1045163  One day my son came to see me. I wanted to go for a smoke. I was now wheeling my medication with me. My son said no, you don't need that. I was a ittle angry, but we did not go for that smoke. I'm not sure how or why but that was it for smoking. I never had another one. Life went on. I... Sun, 11 May 2008 21:50:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1033701  I started coming around a little bit, still in and out a lot. I remember  lot of people standing around my bed, hoping I would come out of it, cause everybody thought I was going to die. I was awake a little more each day. I was begging my wife for a drink of water, but she knew I couldn... Tue, 06 May 2008 20:34:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/195714/journal/1031389  April 16,2006. Just another day, drinking my beer, minding my business. Wife pissed off again, Oh well. Early in the evening, I started to have some stomach pain, nothing serious but agrivating. I thought maybe it was something I ate, or just gas. I tried a few things, 1st try to make myself t... Mon, 05 May 2008 22:20:37 +0100