Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal Thu, 21 Aug 2008 03:31:38 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/194347/1213259211.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/194347 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/1100249 Today was the worst day that I've had in a long time.  I had a full blown panic attack at work.  I tried to hide it by going into the restroom for a while, but then I felt like I was going to pass out, so I came out.  I sat at my desk for a while trying to tell myself, "You... Wed, 04 Jun 2008 21:25:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/1057907 This has been such a long week - I guess because I've been so sick.  I'm starting to feel better, but I keep running a fever off and on.  I hope to get some much needed rest this weekend.  I've had 0 panic attacks this week - I think my body was just too worn down to panic. Fri, 16 May 2008 21:53:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/1049921 I went to the Dr. Monday afternoon - I have bronchitis and a severe sinus infection.  I left the pharmacy with 5 different prescriptions.  I've been so sick, but I'm going to try to go back to work tomorrow.  I'm so far behind - especially after being on vacation. Tue, 13 May 2008 20:28:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/1041996 Oh my gosh... I am so sick!  I got very little rest last night.  My head, throat, chest and every muscle in my body hurts.  I am freezing one minute and sweating the next.  We don't have any "walk-in clinics" around here.  I definitely have to se... Sat, 10 May 2008 09:18:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/1041274 I went to Camp LeJeune to see my son and daughter-in-law.  We had such a great time and they are doing so good.  I came home really sick though - feel like I have the flu or something.  My son has volunteered for a second deployment.  I know he loves what he does, but I just can... Fri, 09 May 2008 21:53:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/1007613 My heart aches today... One year ago today, my husband's sister was on her way to work, but first she wanted to stop by to see her beautiful grandson, who was then only 10 months old.  When she was about 3 miles away, a drunk driver crossed over onto her side of the road and hit h... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 21:13:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/999468 I haven't done so well today.  Oh God, I feel like I'm on a never ending roller coaster!  Lord, I want your will for my life, so please show me what I'm supposed to do with this.  Tue, 22 Apr 2008 19:51:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/992389 Thank you God for the beautiful, restful and peaceful day that you blessed me with. Sat, 19 Apr 2008 23:09:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/990072 Well, the panic attack came on Wednesday night (it was a pretty bad one, but not my worst) and I was so emotional an physically weak all day at work on Thursday.  Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off to just let it happen rather than try to fight it off.  Maybe it wouldn't take ... Fri, 18 Apr 2008 21:36:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/984296 I just feel so "not well" today.  That's usually not a good sign for me.  I usually only get this feeling before an attack.  Breathe, breathe, breathe....  Wed, 16 Apr 2008 18:13:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/971939 I have been so blessed.  I've really had a pretty good week.  There were a couple of times when I felt really on edge, but I was able to calm myself down.  Thank you God! Fri, 11 Apr 2008 20:43:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/965799 I'll be leaving on May 1st to go visit my son and my daughter in law at Camp LeJeune in North Carolina.  I am so excited!!!  I haven't seen them in about 5 months.  I can't wait to put my arms around both of them!  My family is so precious to me and it is really ... Wed, 09 Apr 2008 21:08:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/963065 I've had several very good days lately and I'm just so excited!  I think the fact that it's Spring and everything is in bloom and so beautiful helps alot!  Thank you God for all of your beautiful creations! Tue, 08 Apr 2008 21:04:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/947809 I need to brag on myself just a bit...  Today at work we had a plant-wide meeting.  When both the plant and office have to go to one of these meetings, there is usually about 200 people in a pretty small space and the meeting usually lasts about an hour and a half.  I always try to ge... Wed, 02 Apr 2008 20:01:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/936599 Today is such a beautiful day down here.  I'm here alone for the weekend, but I think I'll get dressed and go shopping for myself.  I KNOW I CAN DO THIS! Sat, 29 Mar 2008 14:42:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/934927 Today has been a pretty good day.  I haven't felt anxious at all.  It's funny how you forget what it feels like to be "normal".  I'm looking forward to getting some rest this weekend, as I haven't been sleeping very well this week.  The week really ... Fri, 28 Mar 2008 20:07:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/926645 Why do I let other people, who really don't even care about me, upset me?  Why do I try so hard to please these people? Why do my hands constantly shake? Why doesn't my body listen when my mind tells it to calm down? Why do I let the panic and depression keep me from doin... Tue, 25 Mar 2008 19:12:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/919494 Today has been a good day - very peaceful.  Praise God! Sat, 22 Mar 2008 23:02:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/914577 I've had a really bad day today and I'm quite a mess right now.  As I type this, I am trying so hard to fight off a panic attack.  I haven't let myself get this far gone in a while.  I've taken my Xanax and am doing my breathing and relaxation techniques, but for some ... Thu, 20 Mar 2008 20:06:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/194347/journal/906187 Today was my first back at work after my knee surgery.  I was able to make it through the day in one piece - barely.  One thing I don't understand though is this...WHY DOES EVERYONE JUST THRIVE ON OFFICE GOSSIP AND OFFICE POLITICS?!  WHY CAN'T EVERYONE JUST DO THEIR WORK ... Mon, 17 Mar 2008 17:35:05 +0100