Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal Sat, 06 Sep 2008 23:34:30 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/gallery/kick.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/190760 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1182670 This weekend will be the longest one.  Fri, 11 Jul 2008 19:47:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1180614 I have been experiencing some insomnia lately.  Other than that I am doing ok.  It's a pleasure to be able to write at Ds again.  I am taking it day by day.  I am looking toward the future as I wonder what it holds for me.  Thu, 10 Jul 2008 21:32:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1173818 I haven't written in awhile but tonight I want to share the deep feeling I have had inside since last week. I met an incredible woman who I clicked with right away. Since  our meeting I have had a very long Fourth of July weekend. There was no way to keep in touch over the weekend... Mon, 07 Jul 2008 22:45:59 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1076071 Had a relaxing day.  Could have been alot better.  I wish everone here at Ds a great weekend.  Sun, 25 May 2008 00:45:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1064261 Life was so much better when I had someone dear to my heart.  I would like someone to tell me if I am just occupying space here at Ds.  I tend to alienate everyone around me.  Goodbye. Mon, 19 May 2008 21:17:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1057927 I would like to apologize for any harm that I caused through my writing.  I deeply regret the  writing  of mine,  that had hurt someone who has very close to my heart.  I know now that the love was something I should have kept quite about.  If she never forgives me then... Fri, 16 May 2008 22:00:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1045102 Sometimes I get so confused about what to do that I feel paralyzed.  I feel as if the world has revolved without me.  I am left in the dark about so many things.  Today was no exception,  I felt so confused.  I get paralyzed with fear.  I don't know how to overcome ... Sun, 11 May 2008 21:20:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1036143 First I want to say thank you for all of your support here at DS.  I hope that everyone heals quickly.  I am fortunate to have your support.  The love that my friends give is priceless beyond compare.  I recognize your pain and I will keep you all in my prayers. I feel horri... Wed, 07 May 2008 19:58:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1026784 I miss my gf (wishful thinking on my part maybe) soooo much. (Maybe not)  If I am reading the signals correct.  There is so much I don't know.  I feel as if I have been locked away for years and years,  while missing out on so much.  I have alot of love to give.  I ... Sat, 03 May 2008 21:56:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1026386 It's warm here in California today.  I just got back in from doing some errands.  I also walked a few miles.  I want to sincerely say thank you to my friends here at DS for their support.  I also want to sincerely thank the person who Instant Messaged me last night.  I h... Sat, 03 May 2008 18:05:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1024840 I have just one question.  The question is why do I fall for women who are everything I am looking for but happen to be unavailable to me.  It took me 3 weeks to figure out I cared more than I knew  about someone who was so close by.  I am slowww when it comes to figuring that ou... Fri, 02 May 2008 22:05:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1020046 Sometimes I hurt the people I love the most.  I have difficulty reading signals and that confuses me.  I am capable of alot but when I care a great deal about someone I mess up.  I will continue and try to understand.  Hopefully I will  learn more each day and grow from what... Wed, 30 Apr 2008 23:08:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1014598 I have done alot since I arrived in California.  I didn't mean to alienate my friends though.  I feel alone and that is not what I came to DS for.  My therapist bailed on me today.  The excuse was I got the time wrong.  No one accepts me in LA, so I guess it is back to b... Mon, 28 Apr 2008 21:51:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1009584 I can not begin to say how difficult it is being "different".  The simple act of walking down the street is very  difficult.  I feel like I am a stranger in town.  The pain I feel in my heart grows and grows everyday.  When I keep active,  the pain dissapates ... Sat, 26 Apr 2008 20:21:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1007647 If anyone reads this,  I apologize if I offended any readers as of late.  Sometimes I try too hard.  That is when I mess things up.  I don't know if DS is the right place for me anymore.  I don't know about alot of things.  I have always had difficulty accepting... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 21:39:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1006935 I spent the day in LA today.  I was walking downtown and got lost.  I asked a few questions and got back on track.  I wasn't too far off though.  Sometimes I get lost in other ways.  I missed so many signals lately.  Which isn't saying much because I have missed... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 15:22:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1005981 This morning I woke up  and felt  the pain in my heart.  Part of me is energetic and full of life though.  The other  deeper part is sad.  I know why I feel so dark inside.  I feel as if I am torn in knots.  It's difficult to write today.  I wanted to... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 08:29:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/1005467 First I would like to thank my friends at daily strength for their love and support. Both are appreciated more than you could ever know. I just realized something very important.  There is a special person who I have liked more than I know.  She had to go home for the weekend.  I... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 00:05:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/999744 First I want to say thank you to my friends here at Daily Strength.  Without your love and support I wouldn't have been able to accomplish nearly as much as I have in California.  I must confess however that I am shy.  When I push people away it is because I want them closer to me... Tue, 22 Apr 2008 22:06:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/190760/journal/974499 First I want to say thank you to all my friends here at DS.  I truly appreciate all of your support.  I have gone through alot of changes in the not too distant past and I am forever grateful for the love that you have shown me. Living in the LA area is both challenging and rewarding.... Sat, 12 Apr 2008 23:24:59 +0100