Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 18:47:24 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/18875/1213340082.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/18875 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/434450 My final divorce hearing is next week.  Think I got a good settlement.  I so want it to be over and focus on the future.  But feel sad at the same time, still think what a waste of 24 years.  I have a couple of people going with me to the hearing.... everyone suggests that a good... Fri, 07 Sep 2007 13:43:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/314531 My divorce is nearly complete.  We finally came to an agreement.  Everyone tells me I got a good deal in that he must pay me spousal support for the rest of my life unless I get married or die.  Of course the support will be adjusted if his income decreases.  He is counting on hi... Fri, 20 Jul 2007 17:01:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/208603 I've been pondering my life a lot this week.  Maybe because I've been talking to a couple of guys I met on the Internet or maybe its because I've just started going to a weekly Divorce and Separation Support Group.  The orientation first session really honed in on the issues... Sun, 03 Jun 2007 17:21:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/197653 Seems I'm still going through lots of changes.  Just when I think I'm doing OK something happens... seems I go one step forward then two steps back.   Many have told me it gets worse before it gets better.  Believe me that is what it feels like today.  Friends and fa... Tue, 29 May 2007 10:27:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/183468 It has been a long time since I wrote in my journal. The divorce is taking longer than expected. Found he had been giving money to the other woman, co filed a retraining order. What an idiot! Now have the house on the market to sell. Will be so glad when it has sold. Plan to move into my own ... Mon, 21 May 2007 23:31:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/137419 Well the reality is here. Tomorrow I meet with the lawyer for the first time to file for dissolution. Friday I meet with the real estate agent to put the house on the market. I found out he is sending money to his internet girlfriend that he has never met! Life is changing. Why do I resist? I... Wed, 25 Apr 2007 18:17:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/113635 I just returnd from a 2 weeks holiday with my Mom visiting family in Texas. Many of the family had not seen Mom for several years. It was wonderful. And was wonderful being away for a while. While I was away my stbx moved out. He took only a few pieces of furniture and his clothes, but the hous... Thu, 12 Apr 2007 11:35:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/88016 Today is my (technically our) 24th wedding anniversary.... we almost made it to 25. Oh well! I did go out and celebrate with my friend on Friday. We had a couple of martinis and laughed alot. We told the waitress and she brought us a piece of cake to celebrate! Then I charged it on our account;... Mon, 26 Mar 2007 18:23:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/82492 I finally called a lawyer that I am going to retain. Everyone tells me that I MUST have a lawyer. My stbx does not want one; says we can to it ourselves and does not want to give all that money to someone we don't need. Everyday is still very difficult contemplating what all I need to do before I ... Thu, 22 Mar 2007 14:29:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/76745 My stbx and I had a heated discussion this morning. I forced a discussion about the divorce. He finally confessed that he is still having the cyber affair with a woman in Eastern Europe. He assured me several weeks ago that it was nothing and it is over. However, I always felt in my gut that this... Sun, 18 Mar 2007 11:15:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/74713 I've had a wonderful, busy and distracting week. A great and inspiring friend just left after a week's stay with us. She was in the area on business as well as work with me on some projects. My stbx was friendly and polite to her. However, on the last night we were drinking wine and he drank way ... Fri, 16 Mar 2007 14:27:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/61890 We had a really long divorce discussion last night talking about what each wants out of the divorce. He said he hoped all would be resolved without much litigation. I told him I wanted 50% of everything including IRAs, 401K, pension plan etc. plus monthly spousal support. He was very upset and sai... Tue, 06 Mar 2007 08:33:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/56210 Its early morning 5:30 AM or so and I can't sleep... been awake for over an hour so decided to get up. One very bright spot in my life is that I am doing some volunteer work - writing grants- for the Cheetah Conservation Fund based in Namibia Africa and Texas. It is directed by a fantastic and ins... Thu, 01 Mar 2007 06:22:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/53670 It's been an OK day. I'm up late working on a paper for a project I'm consulting on. Throughout the day I was some times down, sometimes OK. I was looking for something in my storage closet today and saw my stored wedding dress. What do you do with these things after the divorce I wonder. Don't... Tue, 27 Feb 2007 01:35:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/50193 Well we had our counseling session last night and as expected, he wants to go forward with the divorce and refuses to continue with counseling to work on his depression and addictive behaviors.... in fact won't admit he has any problems. He say he is not communicating with any of the women anymore.... Fri, 23 Feb 2007 15:30:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/47939 My stbx and I have a counselor appointment tomorrow - first time together. I'm scarred to death; don't know what he is planning to say. We have talked several times and he says he just wants to be by himself and never wants to be married again. He sends such conflicting messages. He is kind and ... Wed, 21 Feb 2007 15:05:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/42793 Well it is a few days since my husband and I openly talked about THE DIVORCE. We talked about separation, but he is not willing to move out and can't and won't move either. I make very little money in comparison to him and he says he can't afford to support 2 households.(he could, but he won't) L... Fri, 16 Feb 2007 09:26:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/18875/journal/41507 It's Valentine's Day or it was up until a few minutes ago. He gave me flowers, but was not very sincere. He's having a midlife crisis and a cyber affair and wants to separate to 'find himself'. When I really think about it, I have not been happy with him for a long time, but just stuck it out bec... Thu, 15 Feb 2007 00:25:16 +0100